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I'm looking at all the warning signs. Staring them straight in the face and baring my claws.
Will I bite?
I will scream, scratch, scare everyone away from me. Stay.
My stomach hurts when I see the person I'm dating start to morph into their true self. Self pitty comes through my nightmares. I can't sleep at night when I don't know what they think about me. Why.
I will not be absent for...
Monday 19th December 2022 7:07 am
it makes me want to fall from the water
float in the sky,
stare at those lips
and kiss those green eyes,
drink from the clouds
and jump on the pond
to feel the stars
and gaze at the stones,
the rythms , the notes
melt my mind
ignite my visible voice
I'm not here nor there
maybe inside a void
floating on the blues
maybe its a d...
Monday 14th December 2020 8:23 pm
Nobody knows me,
Not even myself
I meet people everyday
I talk , I laugh , I smile
Others say that I lie.
I’m complicated, orphic
hard to understand
Just like the way we don’t know what happens in between the oceans.
Sunday 26th July 2020 4:34 am
I’m on a level of being
Where I know the direction I’m following
Where I know I’ll be fine, even if I’m alone
Where I’m aware of my worth
Where I know I’m strong enough
Where I’m aware of my strengths
Where I’m brave enough to walk all alone
I have freed myself from the chains
From the judgments
From the council of hate
From the bars of anxiety
I have unc...
Sunday 19th July 2020 5:14 pm
will you write for me?
If I say your words can save me
if I say your art can heal me
will you try?
Will you draw for me?
If I pull my arm apart for you
trim my fingernails, hand a brush to you
should I try?
Where’s your masterpiece?
Empty canvas, left my chest open to you
plunged a needle inside, drained my blood for you
is it dry?
Where’s the lif...
Tuesday 24th December 2019 7:35 am
kiss me on the mouth
let me be; set me free
to be trapped against you
pain I wish nothing on
to wrap arms you know
i can not deny
when to hold her brings joy
let me know
let me be; set me free
wish against me not away
to understand nothing is a void
unhappiness be where you know not
do not fight, my love
endings to soon to show
but listen to direction and ...
Wednesday 17th April 2019 1:01 pm
My eyes are deep and full of experience
Life has shaped my fragile mind now one of a pessimist
Didnt I ever learn disobedience always has its conscience?
Wish my mind wasnt one of a adolence
I dream to be accepted
and loved for a selfless heart
But much much of my life
I felt lonely and treated more bogart
I guess, its just my luck
With pour decisions and irrational thoughts
Tuesday 11th December 2018 1:42 pm
I feel like I failed myself for not joining the Royal Air Force
I wanted to join for years ever since I was a kid
But my teenage moods got in the way
Like they did with most other things
And still do but I see them for what they are, moods
Which stopped me from being elite
And serving my country and deterring the enemy
Be it Soviet Russia or anyone else...
Tuesday 3rd April 2018 8:00 pm
true beauty comes from the radiance and uniqueness of something standing out like a fire lit in the night sky... what i find beautiful, is something different. something that is unlike anything or anyone else. it'll stand out.. have a purpose, a meaning, or just something beautifully different to look and find interest in.. something that has so many more "shades" and colors rather than just one. ...
Sunday 11th March 2018 2:28 am
I've got me a best friend
His name is Jack
I put him on rocks
Then mix him with black
He and I hang
With a lady named Mary
Jane is her last name
Though I'm careful not to carry
When we're all together
My troubles slip away
I don't worry about anything
But I have to watch what I say
We get into some trouble
But most of the time we're
All alone in my room
With a twelve pack of b...
Thursday 25th January 2018 10:05 pm
Eyes that seek truth,
A heart that knows no bounds
A mind that eludes and intimidates
A soul that is and always was free
Determined and passionate
Emotional but strong
I can get through anything
Even when I don't want to
There are times when I do not know myself
These times are hard
Patience will show my path
I'm so grateful I was not alone
I'm still not al...
Tuesday 21st November 2017 3:50 pm
Five foot two, eyes of blue
Goes a certain song
Both were true but not nearly enough
To describe this true and happy man
With a big beaming smile he'd enter your life
Open arms and so open hearted
Energy enough for all of us, for each and every day
To carry us all along the way
Never told always showed
The best and winning way
He led by example on how to be
Friday 19th May 2017 9:26 pm
Quirky, by all means
a fucking awful word
that was most likely
Something to describe those that fell outside
circle of Baseball Caps and Poodle Skirts
while still finding themselves
safe in their presence.
It has been adopted
Parents who use it to describe
Friday 12th May 2017 5:18 pm
The waves come and go
And the sea remains the sea
The reflections come and go
And the mirror remains the mirror
Joy and misery come and go
What remains is what is me
Thursday 29th December 2016 6:56 pm
String me along with the kites that you fly,
Threaded between the clouds and the starlight.
You'll never believe the view from up here.
Friday 14th October 2016 6:02 am
I was kind of hoping,
That you would come along,
Like the answer to a prayer,
And the music to a song.
Like the kind of thing that happens,
At a special place and time,
That will change our lives forever,
Like a fantasy of mine.
The fantasy was there before,
I ever knew your name,
And now that I have found you,
We will never be the same.
So, pardon, if I look at you,
Forgive me ...
Tuesday 17th November 2015 12:43 pm
In love there is no law
Just the dreams that you saw
An open mind can be the key
Think wisely and you will see
You cannot run from tomorrow
Happiness is all you need to know
One future to live for another time
Maybe with fewer mountains to climb
The worries of the caring heart
Love that cannot be measured by a chart
Feelings of the unknown trust
Tuesday 14th July 2015 4:44 pm
When my hands begin to tremble
You’ll place your hand in mine
When my eyes become hollow
That you’ll gaze into them
When I’m at a loss for words
You’ll kiss me so the silence
Can speak for the both of us.
Saturday 14th February 2015 7:18 pm
In the nascent
empty vessels of time,
I hear your voice.
Sunday 30th March 2014 10:15 pm
The weight of the world on a spider’s web.
Everything is relative, life force flows in each blade of glass.
In each house is a guy or a gal just like me.
I see them from the Edge. This epiphany is mine.
Soon to leave my northern lands, south bound.
Writing to where? Autumn views from
Oldham Edge. When will I return?
Wednesday 19th February 2014 4:07 pm
No one but me
I’m not what I was
nor wanted to be
not happy not sad
not bandaged not free
not one in a million
not one of the crowd
nor particularly loud
I’m not one of them
and I’m not one of those
I’m not into fashionbut I do wear their clothes
my looks are quite normal
for those who can see
though shorter ...
Friday 31st January 2014 11:23 am
In my dream I listen to the best of Heart, Ann Wilson really rocking out. Who'll You Run To? and All I Wanna Do reminding me of my dear ex wife. Why do I dream of her? Is it to show me I have nothing now? No wife, no family, no house, no car, no job and no happiness? I can't describe how it affected me at 6am in the morning. A mental block provided by an angel protects me ...
Friday 20th April 2012 1:55 pm
ROOM HOUSE TELLY WINE
Time stands still in a front room in early ’95.
The telly is on but the sound is off,
All About Eve plays on the stereo,
soft vocal tones and powerful guitar.
The clock says a time but that doesn’t matter
as here it is timeless.
Bev drinks a glass of wine
while I have the rest of the bottle
and a full bottle of Thunderbirds....
Tuesday 28th February 2012 5:11 pm
Come and get me, show me the insides of my body, what makes me tick…
Cut out my heart and show it beating to me before my very eyes,
remove my brain and cut my belly put inside – funny weight problem!
Cut my hands off and toast my fingers, eat them snitzels
in gravy made from skin on my back.
Put my tattoos on a lampshade to preserve my body art,
Sunday 18th December 2011 3:51 pm
NUCLEAR-ARMED ANGELS WINGS
It’s hard to leave you all behind
all those times we laughed together,
once my friends but now no more.
All the special girls gone for good,
“Yes I’ll love you forever more”—
now just an aching memory.
Where are they now?
Do they think of me or block me out?
If only I could say sorry to those I’ve hurt,
turn the cloc...
Saturday 26th November 2011 10:33 pm
We, the generation of the damned, the lost ones,
the weird ones, the ones you stare at and misunderstand,
as a joke I say Hiroshima was good, let’s do it again!
Do you think I’m mad? I say a man is to be judged
on his actions, not on his memories, wise words for me.
Why are we like this? I have my own answers and know
I’m lucky, I have my music...
Tuesday 4th October 2011 6:06 pm
All he ever wanted to do was to improve his life, make a better life for himself and not be a lazy freeloader. Certain people thought he'd never make it; this view rubbed off on him through time and really depressed him. He was determined to show them they were wrong, that he wasn't lazy and could prove something to first himself, then them and finally the world.
Saturday 3rd September 2011 1:56 pm
In the belly of the beast, dwelling within where the monster can't get to me, I'm safe for now. Will the beast stir and sense me inside? Find me and pull me out of his gut? Am I Jonah inside the whale? Safe or ask risk? Time will tell. Thinking I'm going to be free when I'm out there in the world, my world keeps ...
Friday 19th August 2011 1:25 pm