Poetry Blogs (pain)
HA! I guess I haven't changed since then. All these schemes and dreams in my head of me doing something impossible to win you back. Wrong choice of words. To open you to me once more.
Once I daydreamt that I somehow got in touch with Al Barr and we went drinking up in Edmonton at your favorite bar every day for a week until you strolled in. You were star struck, Al was a cool wingman, you fell ...
Tuesday 21st November 2017 12:45 am
i am nothing.
i could never compare
according to you.
i could never compare
to autism and down syndrome jokes
according to you.
my love for you
the fact that you're my best friend
the things you've help...
Sunday 19th November 2017 1:18 am
I hope you think of me every night in your dreams.
I hope you see me in everyone you date.
I hope you wish I would come back.
I hope you see me and feel the pain I felt while we were together.
I hope you hear my cries, feel my pain and see my tears.
I hope every time you close your eyes you see me with him.
I want you to hate yourself for everything you’ve done to me
Monday 13th November 2017 10:27 am
She eyes the progress
As lines of greatness
Are penned across her flesh.
Sat for hours and watched
As the ink took
And rode the highways of her veins.
Verse after verse coming to life.
Sparking what was once unachieved
Reserecting her beauty.
By way of the literary divinities.
As she takes to heart
Hearing the rag,
I am, I am, Iam.
Watching the red ...
Thursday 19th October 2017 7:09 am
What words have passed
What meaning cast?
What recall flows
What grievance shows?
What edge is crossed
What friendship lost?
What nightmare grown
What darkness sown?
What text is read
What despair fed?
Wednesday 18th October 2017 2:22 pm
Angel to ghost
the night cold
heavy heart torn
rain hails bones
brutal ache my mistake
to go back in time
to a place in my mind
blue ice fire
cracks a pain so deep
only sounds like these
evoke awake demons
buried brittle knees
a radio waves
echo cellos past
Saturday 14th October 2017 5:25 am
I fell for you.
I loved you.
I opened my heart and soul to your infinite worlds of possibility.
I touched you.
I held you.
I felt safe and secure in the sacred silence of your arms.
But you were scared.
You were closed.
Meeting every tender word with thought rather than feeling.
You could have been the one,
But now you're just one moment.
Wednesday 4th October 2017 8:10 pm
i know that it's gonna be alright
i know, that at one point i won't have to fight
i know, that there is gonna be day, when i won't think of you
i know, i wont cry a tear, even a few
i know, that i will laugh harder than ever
and only feel better and better
and for the most, i know, that i am going to love
even more than i loved you
only at this time
i will be loved back ...
Sunday 1st October 2017 8:15 pm
I can’t tell you.
But last night, you entered my chest
for play, some kind of game, like ‘Operation’
and then I couldn’t sleep
I jolted – shivered – jerked – quirked,
now my eyes don’t close
and my body is a pulse,
you tiptoed across my ribcage,
leaving foot prints enlaced by landmines,
you slept on my lungs,
short wired my arteries,
you clipped the circuits of my ...
Wednesday 27th September 2017 2:10 am
Wednesdays Lost As “The” day draws nearer Spirits sink lower Fears rise, higher. Not completely sure why, It’s as if we expect something…or “That” to happen again… Anything worse…is impossible! Still so unbelievable _ surreal almost. Two months short of a year And we continue to struggle to grasp the fact_ You’re gone! How do you go about planning an Angel Day…? When you can’t believe… Yet reg...
Friday 22nd September 2017 7:24 pm
Sometimes I can't even talk
I just want to be left alone
With my own thoughts
Other times I don't want to be on my own
I just want someone to hold me
And make me feel safe and at home
Sometimes I can barely walk
I just want to stay in bed all day
Hoping the pain will go away
Other times I want to fight it and carry on
Even though I know it might bring a flare up on
Friday 22nd September 2017 5:07 pm
Feel Like I'm Crazy
The doctor tells me "it's Fibromyalgia"
I've never heard of it before
But I think finally I have an answer
For all of my pain
But it doesn't take me long to decipher
It's something that they can't explain
Do they think that I'm insane?
They don't understand it
There is no cure
It's a curse not an answer
And I don't know how much more of this I can endure
Friday 22nd September 2017 5:04 pm
My head is full of numbers,
my heart is full of dread
if I go from black to blue
all the rhymes
will come out new.
Red bleeds to yellow
and all the numbers are blue
the three comes in threes and
makes the nine incomplete and
the moon tells the secrets
I'm not meant to keep
it's a message of the future
and the past complete.
A half yellow star sharp
pierces my art.
Thursday 21st September 2017 5:39 pm
It was supposed to be like closing your mouth:
we were supposed to fit together,
like how your top and bottom row of teeth partner perfectly,
let you lock your jaw
- nom nom nom -
and thinking about talking to you was this exhilaration of fear and excitement
- like the first milk tooth which fell out -
and on seeing you my heart fluttered like wings of tooth fairie...
Friday 15th September 2017 8:44 pm
Words, the only thing that connects me to you
Through words I figured out the things that you do
Words you want to say to the girls that you loved that are too good to be true
Words that I read just like the lyrics of my favorite songs
I figured their is a list of the girls in your heart
You fall too easy something that is common with my heart
I don't know how many times I hoped for an us
Monday 11th September 2017 2:44 pm
Six months, ten days have passed Yet nothing has changed
Time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains Tears constant
Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride Not one you enjoy…
But the dreaded kind… Where every uncertain second So unkind
One day bearable… The next, a bottomless pit…
Falling, Anger overwhelming Emptiness always …
Sunday 10th September 2017 11:51 am
Kohl By : Mirza Sharafat
night has enveloped, to give me some relief
now invisible are walls of separation, and thy grief
where blood quenches the thirst
disloyalty is faith last and first
is the religion my beloved belongs to
I beckoned, red and black r...
Monday 28th August 2017 12:26 pm
My wound is dark
My wound is deep
My wound is disasterous
My wound comes everywhere
My wound won't heal
My wound is my nightmare
My wound bleeds
My wound cries
My wound is infected
My wound hurts
My wound seeps
My wound wripped further
You can't see my wound
I can feel my wound
Nobody cares about my wound
Monday 24th July 2017 1:24 pm
Is there something wrong with me?
No forget it, don't answer.
I don't need the diagnosis,
There's no need to say it,
Not even a whisper...
As the moon rises, the sky darkens...
It can't be helped.
As the place grows dark and time passes,
In this quiet home,
I start to feel alone.
The sinking feeling starts...
It's only 9pm and I feel alone.
Who can I...
Tuesday 18th July 2017 2:36 am
Lost in the summer haze
still filtering out those greys,
still absent in waste,
vacant in change
rearranging my stain
an inherent pain
My bones leak into my soul,
the mud absorbs everything
but the flow
and the black fog
still follows me home.
The desert can be bleak
especially when the colour
and the sand...
Monday 19th June 2017 3:00 pm
I been sleeping under the ocean,
drowning in emotion,
mind empty and slowing,
sound but a commotion
too loud without meaning.
Time passes silent still
all my words desert me
when I lose my will.
Tired of climbing
the same sodden hill.
It rains and it hails
and the sun comes
in and out of view.
The smell is old but new,
the memory evades
but the pain, still
cuts right t...
Sunday 18th June 2017 6:45 pm
Thursday 8th June 2017 8:08 pm
Mr. Maduro, I am enveloped and driven by a superb energy and leave you a message, on behalf of millions of angry hearts, a simple message: We want you to go away!
All of this has been more than enough. We are tired of your evilness, your abuses, your cynicism, your humiliations and want you to know that we are all swathed with your "mistakes". We demand to return to the Venezuela that our paren...
Friday 2nd June 2017 9:15 pm
What’s bad for your heart is good for your art, they say
And it may be true that poetry is either about pain or love,
Finding or losing a beloved one
Thoughts and creativity,
As a tool to convert them into words in a poem,
Find me, not when I am at my absolute worst, never then
They find me when I am feeling a bit down, disheartened, sad
The kind of “there are tears in my eyes...
Monday 29th May 2017 6:45 pm
I know better
so why don't I do better?
Be angry and sin not
that's what the word says
that's what the world says
I'm tired and cranky
I just want to lie in bed
but lo and behold!
She is sleeping there
like Snorlax or Goldilocks
and I'm suppose to bear this?
too tired to fume
want to sweep this away
'Bring the broom, take out the trash,
Saturday 6th May 2017 1:38 am
In those darkest, darkling months
when both belief and hope were lost
when love was stretched taught beyond endurance
when pain and understanding spiralled
There was some doubt of destiny:
could love be snatched away;
and child a mother lose?
A new reality to supplant all we knew
Monday 1st May 2017 12:04 pm
Is the pain of loneliness worse than the pain of regret
Than giving away another part of your shrinking soul
I only have so much to give
I do not know how to stop
I am not eternal
I am not limitless
I am finite
There is a certain amount of me
And some parts never grow back
Some parts, once given, cannot ever be recovered
I cannot be returned to who I once was
Thursday 27th April 2017 12:55 am
are also, it seems,
we can't quite figure out who to blame
we just know, it can't be ourselves
Tuesday 18th April 2017 10:14 am
When we were children, if things hurt us we would stop
Pricking fingers on roses, desperate to feel its softness, to smell it
We would be curious and we would get hurt and we would learn a lesson from that
But as I've grown older
I've hurt myself further
I've clung to what we were as if I was gripping a rockface in a heavy storm
sometimes the storm wins
Everytime I ...
Tuesday 18th April 2017 10:10 am
I did not
give you permission
There was a question you missed
you did not care for
As you entered through these gates,
permission only given to the worthy like yellow roses for sick grandmothers,
I remembered how it felt to be weak
That is the sensation you gave me
Not like ripples on ponds but tears that fell as tsunamis and strength that was non-existe...
Tuesday 18th April 2017 9:57 am
I shut it down
when it gets too loud
and I go back
I feel it like a thud,
dull but hollow,
loud and shallow.
I wallow, I bellow.
I hope, I hope
then I damn the hope
down the hole,
throw the rope.
afraid of my brain,
afraid of the rain,
the words on the page,
the ever growing rage,
the crushing despair,
Monday 10th April 2017 5:25 pm
Saturday 1st April 2017 6:33 am
Nothing will ease this ache,
this blank space.
My heart lies torn,
Words don't help,
my mind a blur,
my sleepless brain,
my feelings of dismay.
All these things
pull me under,
awaken my thunder.
Alone we wonder
from one star to another
trying in vain
to illuminate the way
but the pain won't go away
how we pray.
It all comes at on...
Friday 20th January 2017 4:49 am
Cool air replaces where your hands should be,
Fingers locked on bare skin all over me,
The breeze keeps blowing colder and colder,
As the love between us grows older and older,
Your tongue parted my lips that way,
Your hands grasped desperately to make me stay,
Yet I still drifted endlessly away,
And I kissed someone new today
Monday 2nd January 2017 8:25 am
He left behind his broken wife and his scared son
He left us cold, all alone with no one
The vows, they meant nothing
The promises, broken
I just wish we meant something
More than just empty words spoken
I cried for days at a time
My young son wiped every tear
Leaving us was a crime
And now, it's been 1 year
Sunday 1st January 2017 11:32 pm
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