What does anyone know of my rebelliousness,
my tears of blood,
of the wounds of my thoughts?
What does anyone know
if my heart is a dreary and deep space,
if it is perfect or imperfect,
or a chaos of mirages?
What does anyone know
if my weeping has long strands,
whether my days are electric or serene,
or if I live an autumn of orphanhood?
Friday 17th September 2021 2:53 pm
Thursday 26th August 2021 4:14 pm
don't hide from gleams of wings
or shudder at the vision of veils,
fitful as glances days leak away
against woe a churchyard pales
there's a woman lives next door
Sadie claims she's from Berlin
in her dustbin I found a badge
a Nazi emblem with a gold pin
she seems to live at a low ebb
one not noted for her candour
says her daughter got adopted
I listen, t...
Saturday 14th August 2021 11:20 am
Will the storm ever pass
and will this one be the last?
Will my becalmed and tethered mind
remember the debris flying past?
I wished that I was of the earth
compatible with green growth
not expelling water and air
I wished that I was not a fire.
That I could be earthly bound,
my words be made of clay...
Friday 6th August 2021 11:44 am
The world is sadist, just look around.
Their smile on your success are distorted around.
Their empathy on your failure are so hollow,
I can do bungee-jumping if were near around.
It's so exciting when you are rock bottom, they can hardly wait to **¢k you around.
Making you feel like trash at every minor problem, now you have a new house.. see that dustbin around.
If you think no on...
Sunday 13th June 2021 3:56 pm
Tinnitus shrieking day and night
Keeps me up, keeps me uptight
A high-pitched squeal
A constant Eeeeeee
A passing Jet
A Kettle of Tea
Crickets in the Forest
Cicadas in the trees
All screeching together
Like metal on pavement
Sure you can go
And do what you do
Don’t be bored
Don’t let it get to you
Sometimes it is alright
Sunday 6th June 2021 7:45 pm
Mental - Physical - Emotional
No words can describe pain
No medicine can help pain
Mental - Physical - Emotional
Sunday 6th June 2021 3:46 pm
You're a steady stream of bad choices waiting to happen.
The eye of the storm, or the calm before it?
What's the difference?
It's going to ruin you anyway.
You're a constant trickle of water, wanting to make noise but too scared to do it.
Because you're a puppet controlled by strings.
Water controlled by the trap.
I wish my life was like a game show where you press the buzzer and you're eit...
Wednesday 19th May 2021 3:40 pm
With gloom I express what I can,
not to do so will cause the demise of my soul;
sadness lacerates me like a dancing whip
To describe the incomprehensible in words is not easy,
to explain it is complicated,
to make it understandable is more difficult
People are slowly eliminated,
they agonize on a cross that has been erected for them;
hunger and disease spreads...
Tuesday 11th May 2021 7:00 pm
I hear the hounds whine. The dust rises as they stomp and claw the dirt before me. Eyes made of moonlight and their breath, the stench of pain. I am no longer their mistress. Forsaken them for a heart. Oh wretched beasts forgive me. Allow me one more day's light above the shadows.
Wednesday 5th May 2021 12:51 am
A heart full of hurt, wanting to unleash pain
A heart not strong enough to endure all
But I find solace in our times together
I give that which I can't get, I have what I can't give,
Our moments gives me nothing but peace
Did you regret it?
A knowable answer
Was it worth it?
A question never asked
But I find hope in my love.
I know nothing will change
Thursday 22nd April 2021 6:50 am
You are going soon
Going far away
Your bags are in the car
Your plane leaves at dawn
But you tell me 'don't be sad'
You are still here today
And that's the thing about going--
It means you're not yet gone
Sunday 11th April 2021 10:58 pm
"Give children fire, so they can grow stronger than anyone you've ever known"
Take me to the edge
Give me wings to touch the sky
Let me hustle my sorrow into the wind
May my pain echo in a kind
Might it set their world on fire
Tears pumping through their veins
Let them know what I've felt
What ache I've been in
And they'll heal as soon as their own wind whisper hits 'em
As a hurricane
Thursday 8th April 2021 10:46 am
I hurt for you,
Then, now, and my whole life through.
I hurt for him, her and the next,
For last time and this time, I’m a motherfuckin wreck.
No body knows that shit but me,
That this butterfly ain’t as free as she’d like to be.
I’ve lived this way,
It’s why I sway and sway,
I dance, in a trance,
In the dark, feel the expanse.
I've never had a choice,
But I’ve l...
Wednesday 7th April 2021 5:51 pm
When you left, you took a piece of my heart
When you left, my whole world came tumbling down
I became so lost
I was left in the dark
You took with you my light
When you left, I learned to fight
I learned to navigate this world without you by my side
I learned to be strong to no longer rely on your love
You thought I was weak,
For feeling too much
Now, you're the one ...
Tuesday 30th March 2021 5:31 pm
Father's fell in the ages of stones ,
Then I was given names by companions .
In me there grew a pain none could see ,
As I watched back in the days ,
Others were bought Christmas gifts ,
While I sat back ,with burning wishes
I recall slowly ,the path itself was a war
With that little hope I grew, daily.
Everyday storms would sneak in the little shelter that Momma gav...
Saturday 27th March 2021 10:49 am
Close the door to all the pain
It will not help you.
Shut out all the rage
It will exhaust you.
Think your thoughts again
But try not to descend
Because you've so much to do
To ease your mind.
And how you'll do it
And if you're going to begin
You can only do it
One thought at a time.
Friday 12th March 2021 5:34 am
What is it that attracts us to other human being so much we can’t breathe?
What is that gate to heaven and hell?
What is it that attracts me to you?
Eyes in the dark, like reindeers in headlights. About to live?
What was life? What was all that fear and anger? Sweat, trembling, catching breath so hopelessly.
So hopelessly lost in you. Forever....
Wednesday 3rd March 2021 1:09 am
Every time the glass of your skull
Crashes into the fist of another memory
To crush you where you stand
Because another memory has broken you
Because another memory has entered you
Like intruders, they force their way inside
They punch their way into your attention
They invade your heart
Until you must look at them
All so that they can violate you again
Tuesday 23rd February 2021 6:29 pm
"You have been here a few days now",
"Since Saturday", she replied
"And why did you come in here?"
"Because I attempted suicide"
She didn't have any worries,
She wasn't sad or happy,
It was blank, emotionless state,
Nothing to do, nothing got her interest,
Now been quite a few time living through this noiseless rhyme,
It was like a vegetative state, living in her mi...
Friday 19th February 2021 6:15 pm
Painful embers stab the dark
Of pain too rich to bear
Callous flames, beguile a heart
Left stained by acrid air
Dreams denied by rancid thoughts
On lips too vain to care
Lifetimes lost in frozen eyes
A soul beyond repair
Tuesday 9th February 2021 1:31 pm
Climb the steps, one by one
Feel the breeze refresh me
Hands can nearly touch the sun
Golden rays drip down around me
Love and splendour encases my heart
With the world shining out all its glory
A brand new day, a glimmering start
New beginnings, new days, new story
Top of the slide, secure on the mat
Fluttering lungs fill up with excitement
The world whizz...
Monday 8th February 2021 8:44 pm
Days began and nights would turn
Through endless cycles of despair
The living dream, compelled by hope,
Carried away and lost in ethereal life.
Shattered byways that led to want and love
Broken by lies and embittered deceit
With the emptiness rotting inside.
Frustration abounded and sank In my heart
Fulfilment seemed to slip through fingers
As the quicksand o...
Wednesday 3rd February 2021 5:21 pm
Stay with me dont leave me in this dark valley
Lay on my emotions pet them tell them it can all go away
Everytime im sleepless i have images of our times coming and going
Eventually youll walk in that fire and understand the burning
Peoplw will walk in an ember from hell just to find out where your going
Will we fall to our senses and stumble down lonely park drive
I see the s...
Tuesday 19th January 2021 4:21 pm