Poetry Blog by Nick
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Laredo Vista Avenue.
Best friends until the end
You know that will never change
Things might be different now
But they'll always be the same
Fourteen years old
Just two punk rock kids
Skateboarding and sneaking out
All the classes we would ditch
You know that I spent most of my nights with you
At your house there on Laredo Vista Avenue
Fast forward 10 years
There's no classes to ditch
I know if I didn't fi...
Monday 23rd April 2018 2:50 pm
No Take Backs.
Who am I to you?
Do you want me to stick around?
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
But you still don't hear a sound.
Hang me from your promises
As I choke on your words.
You said you want me forever
But you cut my heart in thirds.
Where the fuck were you
When I needed you the most?
My world was crashing down
You turned into a ghost.
You left me all alone
And I've been lost here eve...
Saturday 7th April 2018 1:44 pm
Fuck.
They don't tell you that when you start to get older
How hard it will be to let go and try to get sober
That no matter what steps you take you'll never get closure
Guilt, I'm just buried in so much fucking guilt
Like I had something to do with the loss of what we built
6 weeks in and I'm already surrounded by the blood I somehow spilt
I can't move on and it's impossible to fucking let go
I ...
Wednesday 28th March 2018 2:05 am
Myths and Wishful Thinking.
It's odd for me
To be down on my knees
Praying to a God
That I don't believe in
I asked him why
There's so much pain in my life
And the one bit of joy
Was cut off like a knife
I was angry and mad
Didn't expect a response
I was crying and yelling
In my little tiny house
I heard in my heart
The reason to be
That there wasn't a soul good enough
To fill the love that I need
He said "I ...
Monday 19th March 2018 5:53 pm
Today.
Today's the day where I don't feel like waking up
I'm struggling to do anything at all but refill this half empty cup
Today's the day that I relapse and pop this little white pill
It's supposed to make me numb when I'm feeling mentally ill
Today's the day that I burry myself in bed all alone
I'm hurting so damn bad, it aches me to the bone
Today's the day that I'm going to let everyone do...
Friday 16th March 2018 12:00 pm
Momma, I Can't Knock Them Out.
Don't call it a comeback
My depressions been here for years
I still smoke myself to sleep
And calm my anxiety with 3 or more beers
It's just goes to show
That I should stay in my lane
I stare at the bottom of an empty bottle
Just to focus on something other than pain
I knew it'd come back
I knew it was too good to be true
Depression isn't a state of mind
It's something that controls you
...
Friday 2nd March 2018 3:12 pm
Curtain Call.
I only write when I'm sad
Cause I use my words to cope.
So what am I supposed to say
When I feel the slightest bit of hope?
Love poems and positive thoughts?
I've tried that but it's all been said
I start writing and all I can think about
Is the times I wanted a bullet in my head.
Pretty typical stanza coming from me
Everything I write is basically the same
Oh no, I broke down the fourth...
Tuesday 27th February 2018 1:37 pm
Haunting Lulaby.
There's a ghost in my room
That sings me to sleep
Whispering in my ear
A sweet symphony
With a simple melody
That has a heart mending remedy
But the words that it sings
I can't remember for the life of me
The voice is familiar
But can't put it to a face
I remember something similar
When my mind was in a better state
All I can hope
Is that it never leaves
Because if it were to depart
...
Saturday 17th February 2018 1:13 pm
Family Tree
I'm afraid to have kids
What if they get my depression
Or addiction
Or fucking alcoholism?
What am I supposed to say to them?
"Sorry kiddo,
Suck it up.
You'll soon find out,
Life just fucking sucks"
It's just not fair
To pass on an ongoing burden
To watch my kid suffer
Knowing that I can't relieve them
They're supposed to be protected
But I can't save them from themself
It just kill...
Friday 16th February 2018 5:22 pm
She Said.
Boy just take it easy
Boy just take it slow
Please don't give up now
You have so much further to go
Put that gun down boy
Step away from the ledge
All the demons your fighting
Don't have to stay in your head
Let me help you boy
Let me be your light
You and I together boy
We'll give 'em a hell of a fight
This is it boy
It's time for war
With me by your side
It'll be easier than befor...
Thursday 15th February 2018 1:41 pm
Song Bird.
Like the morning bird
You sing the stars away.
Just like that
My darkness burns to light.
Thursday 15th February 2018 12:58 pm
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Punk Rockers Don't Sing The Blues.
Put on my pants
Put on a show
Fake a smile
No one will know
Don't show weakness
Fake my emotions
Bury my anxiety
Just go with the motions
I gotta play fast
Need to sing out of tune
Because don't you know
Punk Rockers Don't Sing The Blues
Friday 2nd February 2018 2:43 pm
Mephistopheles.
I'm sitting in purgatory
A deserving end
To my shitty story
You think you know who I am
But you don't know what I've done
Some call me the devil
Some call me his forgotten son
I'll take your heart at the start
And say you have mine
Once you realize I'm empty
I'll leave you all alone, crying
I've done a thing or two
That I can't say I regret
I'll dig into your memories
Make it impossi...
Wednesday 31st January 2018 2:23 pm
No Title.
They say people don't hurt the same
And I wish that wasn't true
Because going through this alone
Is something I'm not sure I can do.
Tuesday 30th January 2018 1:57 pm
Best Friends Forever.
I've got me a best friend
His name is Jack
I put him on rocks
Then mix him with black
He and I hang
With a lady named Mary
Jane is her last name
Though I'm careful not to carry
When we're all together
My troubles slip away
I don't worry about anything
But I have to watch what I say
We get into some trouble
But most of the time we're
All alone in my room
With a twelve pack of beer
J...
Thursday 25th January 2018 10:05 pm
Not A Poem, I Just Don't Want To Forget.
I had that dream again
Same place different time
I asked Chris if we can have a minute so he exited, stage right
We were laying and I was holding you so damn tight like if I let go you'd float away.
Wood was falling from the roof and it was coming straight for your head
It probably would have killed you but I stopped it and saved you instead
You were so relieved we both started crying and I ...
Tuesday 23rd January 2018 3:14 pm
Your Unread Letter.
Inhale
Exhale
Your very first
My most important
Your hand
My thumb
You held it so tight
I couldn't hold my tears
8pm
2am
Every night
To make sure you're fed
My side
Her side
You in the middle
Across from your neglected crib
Left foot
Right foot
Your first steps
Corners were quickly covered
Fast forward
Slow down
You're getting so big
I always did my very best
She yelled
I ...
Friday 19th January 2018 2:46 pm
No Questions Answered.
If I went to a professional they'd probably say it started when I was younger
Which begs the question why it didn't affect my older brother
Maybe it's just the way my brain is wired
I'm just so god damn sick and tired
Of being so damn sick and tired
Why am I always so fucking tired?
I just go through the motions
All the days just blend together
The only thing keeping me going
Is the hopes...
Monday 15th January 2018 9:52 pm
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Tiny Round Friends.
It's been a while since I've written
It may be 'cause it's been a while
Since I've really felt anything at all
One little white pill
"It'll take all the pain away"
But the dealer never told me
My new friend was here to stay
So before you say yes
There's something I need to say
You'll lie awake wishing for pain
At least then you'll feel something
But it'll never fucking come
Because you...
Wednesday 10th January 2018 2:16 pm
The Man That Gravity Forgot.
I still think about you a lot
But in the most selfish way
Wishing I could float my way to heaven
And find the words to say
Are you scared
Are you alone?
Are you happy
Is it home?
I'm scared to move on
I'm alone inside my head
I'm happy when I think of you
Your home is here instead
I wish I could trade you places
But I know that's wished a lot
At the very least can I be
The man that ...
Monday 11th December 2017 1:52 pm
The Theif, The Craftsman, The Artist, The Liar.
I'm afraid to kiss you
Because of the fear of being left breathless
Gasping for air
The theif you are stealing life from my lungs
I'm afraid to leave you
Because without you near I'd surely fall apart
Picking up the pieces
The craftsman you are, putting me back together
I'm afraid to be loved by you
Because of the unrealistic, idealistic picture you paint of me
Every brush stroke
The...
Tuesday 28th November 2017 1:05 pm
The Traveler
There's a traveling man with no place to go
He's got a bottle of Jack and a bag full of snow trying to settle down and find himself a home
He's been wanderin' for years leaving a piece of himself everywhere that he goes
He tries to settle down but by the time he gets warm all that's left is a pile o' bones
He's got a crooked yellow smile and a heart of gold
He took a shot of whiskey and put ...
Monday 14th August 2017 11:42 pm
New Orleans
I have nothing to show for these past 3 years except a broken heart and a taste for whiskey
Now the early mornin' hours is when I think the most
Though you know I'd really like to get some sleep
See my body has a home but my soul is all alone and I know that it's all my fault
So I'll pour another drink and light up this roach while I sit and think 'bout the last 3 years wishing that this whisk...
Wednesday 9th August 2017 9:53 pm
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