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cold, not calm
i want to work on myself
what kind of work do i need?
am i a car stranded in the middle of nowhere,
waiting until the mechanic comes, only to pass me by
am i an equation, frows burrowed in deep thought
an excuse for the mathematician to silently slip away
am i a philosophical question, everyone has a different opinion
that they will rarely ever voice, for when they do it echoe...
Sunday 6th April 2025 4:36 pm
dream of fire
memories light my heart to start again
warmth in my veins like medicine
i open the door, gaze at my collection
candles in every crevice and corner
my house is overrun with light
but i am warm
so i let it burn
candles on my nightstand flicker
as i dream of fire consuming me
and awake to see the light i kept too close
fell during slumber, catching every other glow
i...
Wednesday 2nd April 2025 2:13 pm
First My Soul, Then My Voice
which will break?
first my soul, then my voice
i wait outside the door and hear laughter
the good kind, this time
for a second, i see my reflection
in all of them standing together
until i remind myself not to be too hopeful
i meet all of them, wishing to be in their frames
but there’s been a change of plans, they say
CRAACK.
first my soul, then my voice
it’s just...
Thursday 27th March 2025 9:13 pm
"If stressed "
Dance openly, if stressed
Record yourself speaking nonsense, gibberish and pointless
Take rest, relax, and unwind
Cry out loud, let emotions shine
Don't hesitate, let shouts resound
Don't overthink, let feelings abound
Make yourself weep, then sleep peacefully
Don't put yourself down, just be wild and free
Be your own clown, with heart aglow
Embrace...
Sunday 8th December 2024 5:25 pm
My Senses Fail
The feeling comes gnawing, gnashing, crashing into me from within, a reminder of the things I lack, the things I could have been.
The thought of failure torments me, slashing, stabbing, holding onto my heart, a reminder of those who always thought that I was just playing an imaginary part.
The pain comes sharply, sneakily, forcing my mind into behaving, a reminder of the moments I have lost ...
Tuesday 12th November 2024 12:47 am
Emotions Unveiled
In the fair of emotions, I lose my way
Among fruits and laughter, a mystery at play
Your eyes, like ripe avocados, invite me to peel
To take a chance, to discover what’s real
I want to know what love is
If it’s samba on sidewalks or a sorrowful fizz
Is it dancing in rain or a dream that won’t last?
A wish for the future, a tie to the past?
The clock ticks away, but my heart skips a bea...
Sunday 13th October 2024 9:00 pm
Lobe u
I lobe u
You know this
The feeling is strong
Even if the spelling is wrong
My tiny stubby fingers
Take little time to linger
Over the disproportionate keys
Stubbing along with a head full of bees
You ask what I lobe best
As if I'm not up to the test
But my lengthy gaze tells you
It's me that sees you
Especially when the words arrive late
I lobe...
Tuesday 1st October 2024 2:28 pm
Emotions
Emotions are a funny thing
They work in mysterious ways
Sometimes it's hard to keep up with the tides
Other times we learn to surf the waves
Anger feels like being set on fire
But no one else can see the flames
Sadness flows like a river
Or it can pour down like rain
Happiness can feel like a ray of warm light
Glowing through our veins
We...
Saturday 15th June 2024 12:13 pm
Whispers of Loneliness
Wearing a smile, but it's just a show,
Loneliness whispers, won't let go.
In the crowd's noise, a silent plea,
Heartache murmurs, longing to be free.
Behind laughter's mask, a tale untold,
Loneliness unfolds, a story unfolds.
They feed on tears, a bitter taste,
In solitude's grasp, emotions embraced.
Moving with shadows, the soul steps back,
Loneliness stay...
Monday 15th January 2024 4:58 pm
Trust...
They reach me,
And,
I give them my all,
Yet after that,
They leave me Alone.
They will come back,
Once again, for sure,
With a different face,
A different name,
A new personality,
All along,
And once again,
I will give them my all,
Will they, this time
Stay by my side?
I don't know,
But that's how Trust works,
That's how Life works.
Friday 22nd September 2023 10:49 am
Everything...
I can be Warm,
As Fire,
Or Cold,
As Ice,
Flexible like Water,
Or Rigid as Stone,
I can be,
As simple as Joy,
Or complicated as Rage,
Worse as Fear,
Wounding,
Or Beautiful as Love,
Comforting.
I can be Anything,
I can be Everything,
Everything,
Depends on You.
-N
Monday 18th September 2023 4:20 pm
Jaroor koee baat hai?
Hai nahin aasaan phir bhee,
doobana mujhe aa gaya.
beech dariya door hai,
main to kinaare aa gaya.
chamachamaate-timatimaate
hain khilaune haath mein.
kyon hai udaas phir bhee vo?
jaroor koee baat hai.
jal raha hai ghar vo usaka,
bas roshanee use dikh rahee.
kya mila hai isako aisa?
kyon yoon muskura raha?
jaroor koee baat hai,
jaroor koee baat hai?
- Jitendra Suryavans...
Monday 17th July 2023 4:00 am
HARD TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT
Displayed on my dentist office wall, "A smile is a whisper of a laugh"
I quietly sit there in intending doom
It is meant to be a soothing thought
While screaming seeping from another room
Wednesday 24th May 2023 8:28 pm
Consumed
There are days
Where my emotions
Consume me
Like they are engorging
Themselves upon a
Seven course meal
And sometimes
They preserve me
Like they are slowly
Methodically
Slurping down a bowl of cereal
On a lazy spring morning
Today is not a lazy spring morning
Tuesday 14th March 2023 5:54 pm
Overconsumption
We go through life trying to fulfill
By feeling full
It’s easy to live in comfort and abundance
But maybe you drown,
Don’t live
And you just exist
Strip away luxury…
Could you be with just yourself,
And basic needs?
With only your thoughts for company?
Because we go through life trying to fulfill
By feeling full
We consume with our mouths
Pack, squeeze, cram...
Monday 6th February 2023 11:34 pm
EMOTION
During moments of purity
I find my chest tight
The familiar feel of panic
As I wonder how long it will last
Pressure building
Like an elephant
Placing its foot upon my center
These moment of purity
Are not always happy
But sometimes they can be
When the raw feelings build up
Yet they don't come out
Almost trapped
Inside of the vault of my body
And I forgot the passcode
They scream ...
Friday 9th December 2022 8:06 pm
Teacher
Today I sit here in my car, trying to hold back tears, trying to stay strong
A teacher....
Teach your students colors,shapes, letters, numbers, teach them about life, and now keep them safe from guns
Today I sit here in my car, trying to hold back tears, trying to stay strong, remember you are a teacher
Teach your students to not be afraid, yet in your heart you know the world is again...
Wednesday 25th May 2022 5:03 pm
Charade
Charade
Is my confusion an illusion
Is my mind just playing games
All the demons and the monsters
Quick enough to lay the blame
Many questions left unanswered
And many answers make no sense
My only coping mechanism
Is self destruction or self defense
On the outside I may look happy
But I’m crumbling inside
All the feelings and emotions
Just so much easier to hide
If the lock could b...
Wednesday 18th May 2022 7:54 am
sheltered soul
A sheltered soul is not soulful.
He’s hidden with worry and exhaustion.
Because the thought of pursuing is tiring,
Is damning,
Is embarrassing.
In a space that is too wide
There’s too much interpretation for the open.
So instead he closes himself softly,
Harshly.
He’s never been told.
He’s never been asked.
He’s never known that a sheltered soul is not soulful.
...Tuesday 22nd February 2022 5:52 am
Path of Tears
Thursday 30th December 2021 11:34 pm
Platitudes at the Breakfast Table
If I bled out in front of you
would you finally see the goodness in me?
What will it take to resurrect the person I am inside from the hollows of your eyes?
I'm suffocating at the pressure of you obligatory love
confined by propriety and severed from my spirit
Cant you see my fingers turning blue?
Cant you hear my desperate gasps?
These tortured lungs’ salvation lies in one breath of forgiv...
Wednesday 17th November 2021 12:30 am
Undetectable
I’ve been sitting on the precipice of this
For a while
Unsure how to express my feelings
When I don’t know what I feel
You see
I’m hysterically nonreactive
I’m worryingly unworried
A switch
From nothing to everything
Because - like Whitman -
I contain multitudes
Many great thrashing waves
Like creatures
They slip through nets
Can’t be caught
They...
Thursday 21st October 2021 9:40 pm
Take Stock
If there was a shop selling skeins
Of all the emotions people need,
All at different prices to reflect
The value these things usually collect...
Then Joy and Laughter would be prized,
There'd be lots in stock to entice
Customers into the store
Of that we can be sure.
And Hope and Ambition, in various conditions,
All to be there for those who need,
Amongst the store of many other thin...
Saturday 13th March 2021 3:43 am
Void
Her universe was split into a mass of struggles and compressed emotions within an sunken space.
The collisions of depression and anxiety grew stronger forming dark energy made up of misery; it’s high density crushed happiness quicker than the speed of light.
There were once stars in her eyes, shone brighter than any quasars, but it burned away creating the black hole in her being, leaving...
Thursday 25th February 2021 2:26 pm
Path Finding
Imagine all the paths that we
Might take from where we are.
Those that keep us local.
Those that take us far.
Imagine going round in circles
Or off tangentially.
Think of trekking to a mountain
Or travelling overseas.
Imagine all the sights and sounds,
The people we might find.
The things we haven't done yet.
The places left behind.
Imagine now the path of air
From breathing in ...
Wednesday 24th February 2021 5:37 am
The Storm Inside
When I’m sad the sun sets and clouds roll in
When I’m sad the world’s cold and grey
Rain lashing down
With its somber, lonely sound
When I’m sad the worlds not okay
When I’m angry and annoyed the storm rages on
When I’m angry clouds beat on their chest
Sharp light in the skies
Piercing through my closed eyes
When I’m angry I simply can’t rest
When I’m afraid...
Monday 1st February 2021 11:12 am
Fireflies
He looks out of the open window
at the end of the street,
cold and grey it seems like melancholy
& there she stands afar
calm and still,
like the depths of the ocean waters;
as the time slips and the
night sky drops on this world,
the moon shines bright as ever
envied, as it looks at her glaring eyes,
radiating without the help of another star
like firefl...
Thursday 17th December 2020 12:50 pm
Boy and Kite
kite and boy
a paper kite
flutters in the wind
making wonderful sounds
back to the boy holding
the end of the string
kite dips and smiles
at boy and dances
little jigs as its string
is held taut
boy smiles back
a strong wind begins to blow
kite string breaks with a snap
startled boy looks up
and sees kite start to
fly in erratic patterns ...
Friday 2nd October 2020 7:01 pm
Some tips to write a good poem
There is no need
to set your poem to the music of the heart, or let it sway
to the rhythms of the hurt, at least for today.
There is no need
for you to panic, or dive into the pyre of rhyme
Burn later, if you will, but for now, wait out your time.
Let it corrupt a little, breathe in the zones unlit
Break and crumble, and feed on itself, bit by bit.
For you se...
Thursday 20th August 2020 2:39 am
⚡ Thunderstorms ⚡
Thunderstorms
Running through my head
Rumbles getting louder
Scared things might be said
Hide away in a closet
Because the sound is so loud
Hide from the truth
Because the truths not allowed
Thunderbolts they are striking
Flashbacks of a lad
A childhood in silence
Adolescence was sad
But storms they get stronger
They gain strength with time
The rain is now pouring
I’ve a hurricane m...
Wednesday 12th August 2020 9:04 pm
Help to get me through (I’ve got you)
Trying hard to save me
Fighting hard to stay
Sorting through the feelings
That never go away
I may look harder from the outside
But no-one sees the me within
Cuz if they saw for just one moment
They would see I’m crumbling
I need help to get me through
Another day of feeling blue
Of feeling weak, I’m not that strong
Of feeling who I am is wrong
But I’ll get through
I know it’s tr...
Monday 27th July 2020 1:48 pm
TRYING..
She was trying
Trying to be calm
Trying to mute the
Monologue inside her mind.
Full of contradictions to herself,
Full of arguments
Full of endless thoughts
She felt like being pulled
In a spiral
Down and down and down
With each breath she took
Swallowing her own soul
As if she split up
Into two halves
Halves against each other
She was he...
Thursday 23rd July 2020 5:13 pm
The Old Ball And Chain
I'm so sick of my spinning thoughts
Up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down
Ecstasy, melancholy, wistful wanderlust, crippling fear, I know no other method.
I want to love, I want to grow, but my body and mind are barely crawling forward, their muscles aching, their breath ragged.
There's only one constant that fills my being.
Exhausted. Exhausted. Exhausted.
Sunday 12th July 2020 5:58 am
FIRST LOVE
I would be lying if i say I didn’t miss you
Because deep inside i know i did
You were the love of my live
But soon I realised it was best to let you go
Pain was piercing my soul with each passing day
And it was time for me to say my last goodbyes to you
It’s been two years and
Life has been good lately no pain no sorrow
But deep inside the thought of you st...
Saturday 13th June 2020 7:07 pm
Pain
I was reading a story
When i felt a sudden spark of pain in my heart
I was feeling like someone was piercing needles deep inside my soul
It was unbearable and tears were rolling down
I closed my eyes, it was all dark
And then i saw you
I tried opening my eyes but I couldn’t
Because deep inside I still wanted to see you for maybe one last time even when nothing was real
B...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:14 pm
Everything is right yet it’s not!
Sometimes even when everything is right
Nothing feels right
Everything is complete
But deep down all you feel is emptiness
Your life is going smooth
But all you feel is sadness
You’re happy
But all you do is cry
You don’t know the reason
But all you feel is pain enduring you
You don’t want to give up
But all you do is losing hope
...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:07 pm
A really bad day...
A REALLY BAD DAY
I got up really early, the sun was in the sky
I thought "i'll do the laundry,i'm bound to get it dry,
I sorted out the lights and darks, and put the first load in
It washed it and it rinsed it, but then refused to spin.
In anger and frustration, I opened up the door
the water left the washing and drowned the kitchen floor.
I went to make a coffee and the kettle b...
Wednesday 18th December 2019 8:44 pm
In search of an identity......
All I see is a mist of darkness,
With nowhere to thread my feet in,
In World where there is absence of kindness,
I see a light of hope so thin.
I can’t go on; my body and my soul are giving in,
There’s no fire in belly to seek reasons for my quest,
With efforts and motivation of my kith and kin,
Now, I go along the path where the birds fly in the air so clean.
Then, I arrive at the gates o...
Wednesday 4th December 2019 5:03 pm
Inner child
I have a really little child inside me who wants her all the time and if she don't get it she cause all kinds of emotional havoc and chaos. She wants to center of the attention all the time and if she not. She do best to make me misable. So I try to tell her everyday. That she is in loving way that I am in charge and not her. ...
Sunday 29th September 2019 12:31 am
Beautifully Broken
Beautifully Broken
People surround me but inside I stand in solitude. I have slowly become victim to the sickness parade giving it way to ravage my passion and spirit.
Despair clutches my soul tightly in her hand creating a continuum of anguish and relentless torture. My vices allow her to slumber, but soon she wakes refreshed with the energy of a young fawn on an early spring day. She a...
Tuesday 27th August 2019 2:36 am
Feelings
Feelings
I never like to be ANGRY as it is an awful feeling.
As often we do regretful things when all tempers hit the ceiling.
Because after that YOU might be the one who ends up getting blamed!
And then it may be YOU who feels the GUILT or SHAME!
I never like to feel BORED and have all my interests unoccupied.
Where we find we cannot doing anything whether we have or haven'...
Saturday 24th August 2019 11:14 am
To Harbour a Feeling
Could I but harbour a feeling,
Tie it down so it wouldn't escape.
Could I but box in a sensation
And wrap it in sticky tape.
Could I but enjoy working,
Then I would appreciate rest.
Could I but feel elation,
Without later becoming depressed.
Could I but organise my mind,
Put memories in some sort of order.
Could I but spend all the rest of my days
In exci...
Thursday 22nd August 2019 6:05 pm
Darkness and a pretty smile
In the depth of the ocean
darkness surrounding me
my invisible enemy
lurking in the deepest part of my soul
drowning,
emotions surfacing
faced with only
my own thoughts
my pretty smile
disguising my lies
my tears,
tell a story.
I am, ok!
my favourite line,
while tears
find their way into my heart
Saturday 10th August 2019 5:18 pm
Magic
I want to be magic...
Enchanting, charming, casting spells of delight..
I want to be magic..
Swirling and shining like a crystal ball of light..
I want to be magic..
Unearthly, coalesced, in sync with the wider cosmos..
I want to be magic..
Spinning simple tales of lives, nothing any grandiose..
I want to be magic..
Absorbing and enfolding myself in the soulful poetry
I want...
Wednesday 3rd April 2019 7:11 pm
Sitting by the river on an old bench behind an abandoned church
Our secret spot for my punk and I to witness the changing season in the colours of the leaves and identifying the signs of the new season where we shared our fears and dreams
Ate junk food and laughed even though the reality of our life was a mess
And I didn’t let it show I told my baby-girl we were on vacation when we were h...
Monday 4th March 2019 5:45 pm
The far away
There is calmness when he is around..
An aura of warmth which is so alluring
A balm of intimacy that pervades and surrounds
Life is crazy and beautiful in thousand ways..
Slowly seeping into the core of my existences
He has filled my darkness with splendid rays
A connect felt so acute even from far off distances
Sunday 3rd March 2019 4:05 pm
Tears
They trickle down ebbing the pain of bygone days..
They celebrate joyous times fervidly
Silent spectators, intensely flowing with craze..
They best know my soul and captures it so vividly ..
Tuesday 26th February 2019 2:51 pm
Abolish anger (it's a wasted emotion)
So much beauty
so much anger
so much comfort
so much danger
so much hate
so much love
so much push
so much shove
so much warmth
so much cold
so very young
so very old
so much intelligence
so much ignorance
so much despair
so much bliss
I can feel it in your punch but I'd rather it a kiss.
Saturday 24th November 2018 3:00 pm
Love's Expounded Complexities
Love is a noun
in the need of finding it,
once found, a verb.
Love is a beast
so wild
haunting on its prey.
Love is a drug
leading to addiction.
Love is a novel
starting at prologue,
...
Monday 3rd September 2018 8:56 pm
Choice Made
Choice Made
This is what I don't like about my parents dying
The awful fucking grief that kills me inside
The knowing I won't see them again in this world
I will have to wait till I cross to the other side
How will I find myself for the rest of my life?
Wondering knowing feeling hating these emotions
And thoughts that have never ever been like this before
It almost feels li...
Friday 8th June 2018 9:39 pm
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