i survived NYC
My brain is leaking out my nose.
leaving an imprint on the soles of my shoes as I walk on,
it splatters,
squelching,
as the birds pitter, patter on,
a minuscule impact behind the larger one.
the sky tilts with me,
f-lling
fall-n
fa-l (how do you spell -alling? i thnik. ha;ve I ‘forgtten’ HO?W t0 write to )
Click
Click
...
Thursday 30th June 2022 3:15 am
WAITING FOR MACCA
WAITING FOR MACCA
'Long tall Sally she's built for speed'
We're waiting for Macca
'She's got everything'
At Glastonbury
'That uncle John needs'
Oldest performer to top the bill
'O babee'
Not long now
'Yeaaaaah babeee'
We just can't wait
'Havin' some fun
Tonight’ !
@David Subacchi
June 2022.
June 2022.
Monday 27th June 2022 5:49 pm
Nishinomiya City Fogs
Expectable tracing
a light spreads a fire
a dark at night
red clouds natural science’s task of decipherment
diagrams expend texts reported by the coast
a snap, a rasp, a chatter on the seabed
Onagas castanet in Ginkgo
precursors foreshock zoology
cumbrous seismisms mackerel skies
the scenery blurs
long hairs in the north in Gamelion
Hinoko rainbow between mountains
black, yellow ...
Friday 24th June 2022 12:20 pm
girls and their nonsense.
floating in that acrid pool of nothingness,
a feather kissed the tip of my nose and whispered softly over my face.
in that moment, decided.
i watch the village of women who surround me each day,
awash with a soft awe at their mossy eyes and woolen hands.
i link arms with the girl i love most on a late night walk,
running from the boy who asked me to give apart of myself.
...
Monday 20th June 2022 3:08 pm
For ASCGDF:K
after For M by Mikko Harvey
I didn't expect you to leave
red paint on my heart.
Have you ever spoken
without the timbre of your gaze
turning words into molasses?
Well, if not, I think you should try.
Follow my lead:
Emotion tied to twisted words and Pokemon is an odd combination.
I hope you know the melody of my laughter will be found in those words.
Sometimes,...
Sunday 12th June 2022 7:44 pm
Ode to my distraction
after Ode to my Envy by Chen Chen
I'm distracted by those around, meshing their hands with the keys I can't bear to touch.
I'm distracted by the words which won't come to me but scream that poetry is everlasting.
i'm distracted by the fugue state
my eyes have decided to be buried in & remain seated for the show.
I'm distracted by the way I refuse to be elastic, forever hav...
Saturday 11th June 2022 10:21 pm
you know the bliss of evil
i've seen the smallest, tall creatures be eaten alive from the inside.
a quick glance to the left and under the bed will tell you all you need to know.
the festering, rotten bed frame.
assembled by the very thing that chained me onto it for years.
but when i finally broke my own chords, vocal and the ones restraining,
another creature crawled from under the bed and took my place.
...Wednesday 8th June 2022 10:10 pm
the day I decorated one side of my wall
on the day i decorated one side of my wall,
there was a statue that fell with a crash,
and cratered the ground.
a statue whos golden plaque was read aloud to me as a child.
and on the day i decorated one side of my wall,
with the movie quotes,
and the pretty people,
on that day my eyes bruised themselves silly.
my pockets full of hours, and grief.
non violent pu...
Friday 3rd June 2022 11:16 pm
parties are the end of the world.
ive been invited to a party this saturday.
i think i will go,
i think i will get as drunk as i can.
to feel the painful crushing weight of the sunday hangover.
im going to act as if i am in a french film.
i will tell each person a different lie,
tell them something i've made up about myself.
these people dont know me.
dont know me at all.
but whats more lik...
Thursday 2nd June 2022 11:09 pm
immature in elementary
i'm choosing to forget the stick and poke image,
of myself in my head.
my likeness is one i want to be liked.
the stick and poke is immature and elementary.
think your high school aquaintance,
who always wanted a tattoo.
but 15 was still too young.
so they mutilated the innocent skin of their thighs.
the mutliated image of my body, my face, my ugly wretched soul
b...
Thursday 2nd June 2022 3:42 pm
no place unlike my own world
its awfully strange.
i scrapbook pieces of my soul, and mind together.
together on the pages of a lined notebook,
the glue i used melts into the paper and the newspapers i borrowed evaporate.
the news dies, or fades, it disappears.
melted together with the newest form of creative escapism ive decided upon.
there are vibrations under my papercut hands, markered with...
Tuesday 31st May 2022 4:46 pm
star shaped stickers
when i see the girls who match my soft body,
when i see them wear the skirts, the tshirts, you know the ones.
well when i see them, i feel as though i must reach through to the other side
of the screen that seperates and give them a star shaped sticker.
the stickers that, while they got their flowers, we coveted on our walls.
it's awkwardly awkward trying to explain this to anothe...
Sunday 29th May 2022 11:06 pm
a bang trim
to feel as if one has emerged from a cloud of dust each time they wake, has to mean a great deal.
it's what's on your mind, as you duet with the girl on the other side of your headphones.
it must feel like the brightening of the day, the singing of the earliest bird, the sweat after the fight.
at least this is what you think to yourself.
for you it means to be able to run two steps ...
Sunday 29th May 2022 9:29 pm
TEENAGE GIRLS
who wants the teenage girl
sitting on her rustled bedsheets.
stained tshirt, stained tear tracks.
smiling, cooing and ooing at the people on the tv.
blushing when he kisses the girl she wants to be.
or when she sits alone in the cinema, grinning.
toothy smiles, outrageous laughs
too loud even for the rest.
seeing the best film in the world.
then another best film in the world.
co...
Saturday 28th May 2022 10:34 pm
NEVER BEEN KISSED
love feels like cold jealousy.
sitting across from one another.
the table could be worlds and oceans.
i sting with furious stomach churning envy.
snakes and beetles scurrying between my legs.
closed and rotten now i know what i do.
she is so much younger than i,
the times my time was always first,
no longer exists.
she broke a cycle as old as i, and therefor
as old as my time.
...
Saturday 28th May 2022 10:30 pm
I AM! I AM! I AM!
charcoal toothpaste.
teeth whitening strips.
water on a bathroom floor muddied with muttered songs.
cans of who and why on a windowsill.
forehead sweat. made to stick fringes.
quick to anger. founded in a parent not so unlike.
jerking awake. jolting asleep. comfort nul.
calm mornings when the sun alarms.
evil feelings when green and yellow lie dormant.
stuttered uttered eye contac...
Saturday 28th May 2022 10:26 pm
BURNING QUESTION
The tears cannot put out
The burning question of the heart
What a bizarre fire you have
As no one can see your flame
Deep down in your heart
Maybe we should sing a song
To let us not go wrong
Once again with unanswered questions
The lyrics are so stuck in violence
That they are drifting us apart
Deep down in our bleeding heart
The empty space is not big enough
...
Saturday 28th May 2022 1:57 pm
with reckless abandon
in its purest form
the simplest of
possible affirmations
is to be loved in return
in similar manner
the most complex of
probable affirmations
is reciprocating like affection
in conclusion, then,
it seems most apparent
to appreciate with reckless
abandon the air we breathe
for we build tomorrows
on these simplest, most
basic of molecules, our
humble bricks of being
whose...
Monday 18th April 2022 3:38 am
The Coming of a New Age
With every year's end - the advent marks the start of a new day,
as human kind we’re always growing wiser, furthermore, fully face to face with the task of taking baby steps toward a straight forward path —
It’s time to take a stand…
(With that being said: we really need to enjoy such a joyous occasion)
In an effort to boost morale; International Women’s Day should pronounce a two part holiday...
Friday 15th April 2022 8:35 am
Time Will Tell
Is it really a new beginning?
Or just a start to another finish.
I suppose it could be a way to a means.
Or a means to an end.
Or maybe just an ending to another new beginning…
Only time will tell.
Friday 1st April 2022 3:18 pm
A First Poem
Today write a first poem
write a tanka, five
lines: seven five five
seven seven metaphor
let the sun sing and moon moan
Tuesday 22nd March 2022 9:23 pm
Small moments
With one small hand wrapped round my thumb
You gave me a vision of what was to come.
A memory I will hold forever
The smallest grip, but I will remember.
I'd stare at you all day long
In my eyes you could do no wrong.
You would sleep and wriggle on my chest
Out of everything I could do, this was the best.
In no time at all you'd stolen our hearts
And ...
Tuesday 22nd March 2022 12:47 pm
I Wish I Was
I don't want nights to end
I don't want days to begin
And I know I'll spend my entire life
Wishing I was six feet under
Crushed under water pressure
Old blood stains on the stone dirty alley
Bones and grit in places unrecognizable
Picture in the papers
40 words on a daily column
Wooden frame with pretty flowers
Tears of strangers
Hushers and whispers
A wall hang...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:31 pm
Don't Look At Me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
When the bullet's fired
You see the blood
I see that blame
Would you fight back
If the war was within you?
And I lost again
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
I don't want
A bed of roses
I just want one that'd never die
And I don't want
The world to lose it
Just not to ...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:13 pm
Burning Ashes
A name and a face,
You had none but still a presence;
Lost in the sea of self justification but still alive, or breathing to say the least.
When the wrong and the right doesn't matter anymore
And when the strong and the weak both lost
I realised the wrongs and the loss and a loss and another one.
A new scar with tick of the clock
Appeared and disappeared but the pai...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:09 pm
Forever Might Take Too Long
Not my thoughts that matter it's just I don't think I have anywhere else to go
It's not regret. It's not complains.
Just thoughts you'll never utter
Everyone's busy getting their life right we stutter getting through the moment
I don't want to believe we're same but since when was it me who decided anything?
What? you think the same too?
Can't be coincide right?
Yeah right.
...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:08 pm
Secrets
If I could see myself from another star
Would everything seem alright?
Secrets I've never kept before
And now they're buried deep inside my heart
Why?
When I sit amongst the other stars
I feel like I'm in a nightmare?
In my room all alone?
Surrounded by clones who doesn't even know how to pretend to like me
Can I control the darkness that's killing me with every breath?
You've told m...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:04 pm
white
Dancing on the white
You,
A side of the world I've never seen
Before you reached out for me
Don't take your eyes off me
As I fly
Black wings and chapped smile
Changes are only what you've already got
I'll stay I'll stay
If you dance with me one last time
Friend or rivals it doesn't matter
As long as we leave for the same world
Was I ever there until you saw me?
Our ways our path...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:02 pm
In Shadows, In Truths
The light from behind hid the flaws in the lines
And the smiles that came looked too much like mine
Don't trust and you won't be betrayed
Don't hope and you won't cry when it's late
But you won't see that far with eyes struck on the ground
Who you saw that day wasn't who I found
Where the sight begins is where the story ends
And where the good side dies is where you find heaven
Who...
Friday 25th February 2022 7:00 pm
Infinity Marathon
My mahogany desk and the bright world beyond,
I reached out my hand for someone to hold on;
Nothing much happened.
And now I'm feeling so alone...
I just wanna go back home.
You don't deserve to die and I don't deserve to decide what you want.
I got a thousand more days to live and the number doesn't decrease no matter how much I count
But now I'm feeling so alone...
I just wanna go ...
Friday 25th February 2022 6:57 pm
Long Lost Troubles
If you're here,
I don't blame you
To forget what
I was thinking.
Is it wrong if
I really miss you
Without knowing
That you're sinking ?
I was afraid,
If I survived
The scars would
Never leave me.
All my blabbing,
Please forgive me.
If I love you
Would you hate me?
Can you say my name with out choking?
"I didn't mean it like that"
"I was just joking "
Every time you spill...
Friday 25th February 2022 6:51 pm
Vigil
January fifth.
The black car is almost here.
I wait
and I remember:
Early morning, deep December.
Phone rings;
heart sinks;
today, I know, is the day.
Exit day, the expected day: the day to say goodbye.
A rush hour slow-slog through thin and sickly dawn.
Idiot-bright festive lights fail to sense the mood.
Mother in the back seat – quiet, watching, alone.
A red light river – a sto...
Tuesday 15th February 2022 12:37 pm
I Love Your Allure
I would never question your narrative— as it be, figuratively.
Cheers to another year: it’s ever clear — our glasses never get drunk.
(for all intents and purposes) spirited twin flames pour out libations to a personal god
No half truths with you.
I idolize your third eyes outlook on life...
Our inner visions - seen to fruition - showcase infinite possibilities
Granted we share the same ...
Tuesday 15th February 2022 4:02 am
Jigsaw
JIGSAW
Brunette. Blonde
Black. Grey
I am auburn.
Hazel. Green
Brown. Blue
I am Grey.
Tabs, blanks
Pockets, sockets
Corners, middles
I am unique.
Flat pieces; four points
Innies and lock
The back
always Grey
Without me, you are not complete
With me, we are replete
A needle in the haystack
melancholic morning
Smea...
Saturday 29th January 2022 8:03 am
Morning Coffee
Tuesday 25th January 2022 11:19 pm
I Wrote a Poem for You
I was told to write a poem for you
I understand why, it’s a lovely gift
Provided it’s any good
But you think they’re all good
So you will enjoy the poem I wrote for you
I’m not being arrogant, not at all
My poems aren’t good or lovely
They’re just words that barely connect
No rhyme, no reason, no theme.
I still don’t know if I’m trying
If anyone will think it’s good
...Sunday 2nd January 2022 12:53 pm
This Writer is Not a Poet
I'm a writer not a poet
Sometimes my writing seems like a poem
But that is because I have no control over my self expression
I pour my soul into words
I don't spend time observing the shape they take
Sometimes they might rhyme
Sometimes they might come as stanzas not as paragraphs
But I'm not a poet, I am a writer.
You say but a poet is a writer
I do not dispute that observation
Now co...
Sunday 2nd January 2022 9:51 am
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