Poetry Blogs (depression)
It's cold and confusing.
A bomb needing diffusing.
Strainging and stressful.
Though secretly blessful.
Her heart and soul are at war.
Depression growing like a sore.
A life filled of grief.
No hopes of relief.
Her heart cries out to God,
Her face and body, the facade.
Nobody sees the real me.
Feelings behind the walls you see.
Restrained by her own mind.
Tuesday 20th February 2018 10:34 pm
I'm afraid to have kids
What if they get my depression
Or fucking alcoholism?
What am I supposed to say to them?
Suck it up.
You'll soon find out,
Life just fucking sucks"
It's just not fair
To pass on an ongoing burden
To watch my kid suffer
Knowing that I can't relieve them
They're supposed to be protected
But I can't save them from themself
It just kill...
Friday 16th February 2018 5:22 pm
So sharp and so cunning
Is the pain that run through me,
Hideous yet so stunning.
I want to keep it here,
I want to feel it's cold aching
Blood spilling from me
My heart is still breaking
What if I want it to stop?
Please, leave me alone!
It'll be there. Waiting.
For me to decay down to bones.
Maybe that's what I wa...
Thursday 15th February 2018 9:55 pm
it will be ok
I know exactly what will happen
Barely hanging on guilt of no productivity
circles in on itself
more never quite enough
more time never quite enough
wasted time cannot have enough
goals unfullfilled self fullfilling
respite from mistakes feed more
well never deep enough to stay hidden swim deeper
need more time never ...
Tuesday 13th February 2018 10:18 pm
Blunt after blunt
Beer after beer
My attempts to drown the pain do nothing as
The joy in my life slips from my grasp
Shot after shot
Numb to my emotions and logic
I’ll double down on my agony
Burn bridges half built and cut poorly tied ties
All in the name of self-improvement
Something that never comes and never will
Why would I let myself grow
When I could continu...
Tuesday 6th February 2018 1:33 am
It’s one of those nights again
Can it really be one of those nights
If I feel like this most nights
Those nights become every night becomes how I'm forced to live my life
Temporary solutions are my saving grace
Smothering my emotions to save face
Two beers in, smile wide, i’m feeling fine
A few hits in, you’d never know I’m dead inside
The pilot light is out and things are ...
Tuesday 6th February 2018 1:30 am
magic tumbled from his lips as he spoke of love filled promises,
dreaming of the day he'd feel.
empty, he was, the hollowness of his eyes prominent.
he kept his apathy concealed under a veil,
making them believe he felt the opposite.
death, to him, seemed almost.. ideal.
Saturday 3rd February 2018 7:15 pm
Wednesday 24th January 2018 2:23 pm
new year, new me
new year, same old shit, same broken me.
the games they play will never change
the lies they tell will only grow in numbers
and every one
will erode at my happiness
and reduce what could have been mountains
down to only dirt.
i am broken
i used to be
i try to be
Monday 1st January 2018 6:57 pm
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