Poetry Blogs (2019, break up)
it hurt so much
to breathe, to think, to laugh
to smile, to worry
it’s almost like you’ve taken out
all the good parts, the sad parts
leaving me incredibly bare and numb.
i feel restless, raw
open and exposed.
like i have no barriers, no protection
just sitting there with weeping wounds
and a broken heart
brittle as my nails
wrecked and sharply cut...
Friday 10th May 2019 6:15 pm
BACK IN TIME
if you could
read my mind
back in time
when just looking
in my eyes
was enough to
make you smile
across the floor
look at me
what can't be
Thursday 4th April 2019 3:10 pm
February was just fine,
although I was walking on thin lines,
never had the doubt that you weren't mine.
Then the first Saturday came,
our sanities were the ones that remain,
something so plain,
brought us joy,
one sentence only comes to mind,
nothing will ever ruin this.
Yeah, the week went by,
never believed that time can fly,
but here we are,
and you ...
Sunday 3rd March 2019 3:25 pm
Today I learnt to cry alone,
Soon I’ll learn to live alone too..
Walking through the grass
Running on the fields
Climbing the mountains
You were always a shield...
Never imagined a life without you,
Neither in dreams we were away,
In laughter in tears I was with you,
I was with you each night each day,
From feeling of hope to thought to love,
Saturday 26th January 2019 2:01 pm
I still loved you but I walked away.
I know you still love me, but I'm not comming back.
You still try to reach me, I know you do.
Every text you send I read, never ending your silent plead.
I know you're hurting I'm too,
but I know I can't be with you.
You were my everything I hope you know.
now I can't give you roses of red colour.
I was hurting, my heart was bleeding,
I didn't let ...
Friday 28th September 2018 4:11 pm
Twelve years and you still don't get it. I crossed that bridge packed my bags and hit it. No more tears I left my fears lying on the floor. I quit, I’m leaving and I ain’t coming back no more.
Sitting in a silent cave losing me while giving you one last save.
While I was trying to be what you needed, you started a journey and couldn’t complete it.
Walking around in the madness, you did you, and let m...
Monday 11th June 2018 8:50 pm
How u go do a ni$$& like that
How u go stab a ni$&@ inna back
Thought that you really loved me like that
F@$& yo spine I had ya back
Now I’m looking forward I ain’t going back
Thursday 31st May 2018 3:30 am
You know at first anytime I showed you vulnerability and affection I felt weak ,then I realized that I am a woman and vulnerability and love was my super powers . So then I realized that abandonment and not feeling good enough, and seeking for approval, and love ,became the norm when dealing with you and it felt so familiar bc it was .Daddy issues of my own ,hoping you can save me from them ,looki...
Thursday 5th April 2018 5:36 am
Do you remember how we used to savour the pins and needles on our tongues?
Do you remember how we used to bite into bitterness?
lick the spit of life
I was turned on by brokenness
maybe it’s cliche
that I craved pain
swallowing broken bottles
it's lined my pockets
it's swollen my stomach
Do you remember when we saw ‘sad’ as just another crayon
to colour ourselves in w...
Sunday 1st April 2018 4:06 pm
Baffled, mystified, perplexed and confused,
my darling I have lost my muse,
and at what cost?
Is it worth a tormented soul
just to be kept in your control
I jump when you say
and ask you how high on the way,
every command you convey
I grant wishes in three;
falling down on my knees
to please all your needs
as you stomp on my heart
Drawn and q...
Thursday 8th March 2018 7:26 pm
I want to say all of the beautiful sweet kind things
I want to lay my heart on yours and feel our rhythms unite
I know this terrifies you
I know I terrify you
My sweet love
When I am with you I gaze upon you with such delight
Your movements excite my eyes
I can't imagine a more joyous experience than to kiss your mouth
To feel your breath on my neck
To hold your...
Thursday 8th March 2018 7:22 pm
is not yet an old soul. Such apprenticeship has not yet begun.
Studiously she watches as you cite your second hand wisdom.
Bested by her innocence, such familiar nostalgia withers like the thick layer of dust it hides beneath.
Shaken and bruised like brine against an ice cube, the vermouth of your ideals is poured into an ill fitting glass.
Left feeling dirty you turn to d...
Saturday 23rd December 2017 6:57 am
The moon glows in the twilight night
The sun shines during the luminous day
The moon can’t glow without the sunlight
The sun can’t shine without the moon’s darkness
I wish you’d understand the philosophy
There’s no me without you
You’re the oxygen in the air
The reason why I breathe
The days we spent together
The hours we wasted together
The minutes we counted together
The seconds we l...
Sunday 25th June 2017 2:18 am
After a breakup, pain may linger with you a while,
but one morning you will wake once more with a smile,
Until that time comes write notes to throw away,
notes that hold your pain, to leave you free one day,
There's no clock with the means to predict the date,
don't let heartbreak turn love over to the icy grip of hate,
for positive feelings are those we all seek in our liv...
Thursday 26th January 2017 11:13 am
Call me the doormat,
The infestation of rats,
The ‘oh she ain’t all that’,
Call the kettle black!
Call me the diva, the princess, the moan bag,
The emotional one, oh isn’t it sad?
The hot head who can only nag nag nag,
That period trainwreck – a handful for a lad.
Call me whatever deflects most from what reflects
When you stand by the mirror and boast,
Thursday 29th September 2016 3:40 pm
haven't you heard of me?
I've heard of you though..
I've seen you smile and cry.
But it seems like you haven't noticed me.
I was there long before.
I was there when you needed held.
I hold your hand in the dark.
But its been so long.
Distance tore us apart.
But it's sad how it came back together.
And now I'm in holding reach....
Tuesday 19th May 2015 8:00 pm
Tunnelling in the dirt below my feet
I've been digging here all week
carving this hollow so deep
today, I hit bone
This is heavier work than I imagined
surveyed the ground from beyond the fence
And we both agreed that this was right
but now the toil is breaking me apart
As a new day rises
I'm bawling in the shower
never knew I could feel this pain
with the taps turned up to ten
never knew this hurt was in me
Tuesday 17th September 2013 10:40 pm
When we first chatted over cake and tea
You told me you spent your days
In front of PC, saving the world from itself
But you failed to mention
You had a PhD in brick layering trade
As time passed we drank less tea with even fewer pleasantries
You built your personal Berlin Wall
Injected cracks with grouting
Mixed with a single gr...
Wednesday 4th September 2013 8:40 pm
A face of steel is easy
When hidden behind.
Lost in false hope,
Drowning under memories
That my shoulders cannot hold;
They buckle in sharp flaws.
Watch me break at dawn
And vanish into dust.
My soul entrenched
Under a cotton shroud,
Unable to rise.
I will never again stand
Time, the only healer,
And I am lost
In forgotten thoughts
As hopelessness ensnares.
And in the dyi...
Friday 1st February 2013 9:31 am
To dare is to do, I don’t do dares,
So I dare you to, Give me a truth,
Whisper to me, Honestly, truthfully,
‘I love you’. I don’t love you.
Beauty is, I’ve no beauty,
As beauty does, ...
Friday 13th January 2012 9:32 pm
I saw her heart break yesterday
the watchful face of late
smile that had only known sunshine
and said in words
careful and rounded
the news that he would not be coming home
trembling of the tiny chin
the mouth turned square and agonised
in an eternal instant of distress
I heard the clic...
Friday 22nd October 2010 7:00 am
So then, stick by stick
tonight we tear off strip after strip
the newest feathers first
then the older twigs and vines
with each one
my heart drops
until there's nothing left
and nowhere lower
just empty branches
where our sweet home once was
Inch by inch
we pack and divide the moss
all the soft things we've collected
years of careful, loving selection
pecking them away, each and e...
Monday 26th July 2010 1:08 pm
Through the corner of my eye
I can see it all falling apart
it's entirely his call
yet it seems it was on the cards
right from the very start
it's like I'm staring through a window that
I can't get in,
her lips touch his, her hand on his skin
I want to beg them to stop
except neither can hear me
the sight chills me to the bone but
as long as he's nea...
Thursday 18th March 2010 8:52 pm