It’s hidden well, but I search deep within the crevices of your mind.
I interpret your words and actions to depict intention and longing, want and need.
They’re masked behind masculinity; hidden within the social construct that disallows you to be free....to feel.
That which praises to the appeal of lust; turns love to dust.
Strong enough to break a woman’s heart, but no strength to trust us.
Friday 1st October 2021 1:58 pm
aghast, I'd not seen her for ages
a ghost of love my mind engages
but fate had turned cruel pages
beauty once soared from these features
hottest among human creatures
Nefertiti of love's teachers
still young, my experience rare
she'd flown me gently to her lair
the first woman I witnessed bare
two hawks preen on a pyramid
pecking morsels of new killed k...
Friday 1st October 2021 11:24 am
When they say to stay gold
Is it for bright days to sit between your ears?
All the cotton clouds, two or three, right there?
Or is it to find strength for your arms to pull you over the mossed edge?
Mama cried after every light accomplishment
Whether it be reinstated love or you set a day aside for treks and hikes
Or graduated from University
You seen Mama cry when t...
Thursday 23rd September 2021 4:06 am
She had moonlight in her eyes
Starlight in her hair
Her smile became the sunrise
That burned away despair
She took me to the clouds
Weaved rainbows from the grey
And showed me all the colours
That life had on display
And under starry skies
Where galaxies unfold dreams
We ran into the cosmos
To find its hidden seams
But I lost you to the star...
Tuesday 21st September 2021 1:28 pm
I think it's the third twinkle down
In the constellation of Ursa Major
Where she sits
All sparkly with stardust
And cheesy-gobbed from moon food
Gran said that God had came and
plucked her right off the earth
A car was an odd choice of plucking
But, that's what he chose
With all her beautiful smiley curls of gold
And shimmery eyes of sapphires
Monday 30th August 2021 12:40 pm
Sunday 29th August 2021 10:20 am
Why must you? If I could just understand the reasons for your soul-reaping hand.
Who decided the time was up? Or that we must endure this grief? Tell me, Death- Do you enjoy your role as loves thief?
You broke my heart into pieces a few times before and now you've done it once more.
I'm not sure I can forgive you for such dark spite because you've taken my world and turned out its ligh...
Wednesday 25th August 2021 12:03 pm
And on a lonely seat in a cold winter night where it all began. Yearning for what once was, but not still and never again.
Was it hope bewitching my mind. Thinking all ache has passed. Or was it true serenity that was too rare to last.
In the dark of night my mind wanders free. Seeking a relief beyond my reach.
Then the day comes and it's darker still. Though the sun shines bright, my sunrise i...
Tuesday 24th August 2021 7:29 pm
When you told me you thought you were dying
You grabbed my hand in desperation almost crying
You took me outside alone to tell me ..
I asked your reasons you couldn't tell me
I looked at you why were you shaking
You told me some things that didnt seem to fit
You confessed you had a habit but still that wasn't it
You repeated to me "im dying "
As I write this I'm crying
And this is over t...
Wednesday 21st July 2021 1:14 am
I am so scared
My heart will not stop pounding
I miss you so much
It was wonderful seeing you today
We connect and click in every way
But I am so scared you are going to choose him again and not me
I am so scared we will never be
I am so scared that if I am not with you
Then my life is most certainly through
I am so scared.
Tuesday 13th July 2021 1:46 am
My lover lives inside of long exposures
She breathes inside of my flashlight
The shutter gazes wide eyed into darkness
I write her notes with this wavering beam
Capture my fast fading dreams by sunrise
Saturday 22nd May 2021 8:01 pm
Soaring clouds cloak rising sun, vigorous brightness, morning whiteness
Lightness, creeping upon those weeping sightless, dark blindness lifting in slightness
Rightness becomes a non factor, heart like a melted down reactor spitting smoke
Go for broke, break it all, the inevitable fall comes swiftly, will twist thee into submission
Nature's battle of attrition, cruelty ingrained into life lik...
Monday 12th April 2021 7:56 pm
When you left, you took a piece of my heart
When you left, my whole world came tumbling down
I became so lost
I was left in the dark
You took with you my light
When you left, I learned to fight
I learned to navigate this world without you by my side
I learned to be strong to no longer rely on your love
You thought I was weak,
For feeling too much
Now, you're the one ...
Tuesday 30th March 2021 5:31 pm
One whole year's
Like lace leaves
From the cold trees
You are missing
Boxed deep and dusting
With bristles flaking
From the broken spine
So no silver lines
Our crisp, black-branched pine.
Tuesday 30th March 2021 10:26 am
I can’t breath, my lungs are burning
Everything around me is twirling.
Everything inside me squeezes eminently, grabbing away my desire to live on.
I am filled with pain, till my last bone.
My eyes are full of blood rivers.
He is dying in the roaring silence.
As I opened my eyes,
I saw dazzling stars dancing in the sunset
It was as quiet as a de...
Tuesday 16th March 2021 7:07 am
The distraction machine, our plastic dream, sew last seam through bottom lip
Tipped off of ship, sheet bound tissue is ripped, living form clipped to fish food
Always in a bad mood, waiting on the never happens, inevitabilities stacking
Reef wrapping around your sea urchin heart, leaping off cliffs with no running start
Failure practiced as art, life pushed around in a cart, walking on rusty n...
Wednesday 10th March 2021 4:20 pm
amid starlight she reposes
my life's in her lizard face
that library of dusty looks
records my fall from grace
she took the best from me
sucking me dry every day
each wrinkle taunting me
dry pointers to my decay
I pray she does not wake
no pity runs in my veins
but violation at the sight
of what sleep she feigns
she's a monument to loss
Tuesday 23rd February 2021 10:37 am
They say hope is such a wonderful thing
Keeps us strong against anything
But be careful what you hope for
Or it will do you in.
So many times I thought I understood
Who people were, and what was good
Only to find, what's left behind
Is broken dreams.
And they say grief is a natural thing
As we get used to what's missing
And find out how to do without
What we used to need.
Saturday 20th February 2021 10:51 am
A Love Song
There was a time
When love defined
All of the things
life could show
By routine & time
Upon our own tide
we ebb and we flow
A fork in the road
A different abode
What would these old eyes
Of mine now see?
Perhaps without love
Perhaps then I could
Get over how much
You mean to me...
Sunday 31st January 2021 11:38 am