im practically a vampire
i sleep all day, covering my windows, blasting my fan
and keep watch all night
my eyes waver from pillow to screen
my brain tries to figure out what it really wants.
i wonder from pinterest to instagram
from right to left
from pillow to pillow
and still can't decide if im hungry instead,
i tiptoe to the fridge
lights illuminate from grapes to ...
Thursday 2nd June 2022 1:26 am
Rest time at bed time is not always the best time
When I can't sleep.. they say to count sheep
But my sheep don't help me they keep me awake
My eyes scared to close incase my soul they take
I know it's an exercise to rest one's mind
My sheep in my head are not very kind
I try to count them jump as they say
Some of them run in the opposite way
Tuesday 13th April 2021 2:03 am
Reason suggests that I should function.
This world doesn’t sleep and nor do I.
Reason brings me false assumptions:
my reason sees reasons to lie.
Monday 5th April 2021 2:27 pm
Dreams play hide-and-seek,
Thoughts trying to catch my sleep
Caught, but nightmares creep.
Saturday 13th February 2021 6:06 pm
gets up in the night to cry
my sleep is being disturbed
wont tell me why but these
disruptions must be curbed
I find her downstairs in tears
hugging herself as if in pain
last night it took three hours
I dont want to see it again
in her eyes a degree of guilt
something preys on her mind
deep-rooted fits of remorse
as if for someone she pined
Friday 29th January 2021 11:01 am
The floorboards above
Crack like rheumatic bones
Late at night
The house groans
And wind whispers
Through the open windows
The curtains open
The lights out
The darkness presses
Against the window
A streetlight drops
White light on the path
I can see a pale moon
Crawling through the trees
A cat sashays
Beneath the porch opposi...
Wednesday 8th July 2020 11:36 am
There have been numerous occasions where I'd have to close my eyes to stop from crying
Watery; blurry; black
Nights without you are sleepless
But I'm pretty sure you can sleep just fine
Even if you prefer another next to you, it's not that you prefer me
I could count the stars all night, but I'd still never sleep
And maybe I'd always blame insomnia for being the lack of ...
Monday 22nd June 2020 5:07 am
My absent comrade
A fickle and inconstant friend,
of whom I rarely see enough.
It’s within you my dreams reside
but without you, I feel rough.
You’re absent when I need you most,
then sneak up on me, unexpected.
Can’t you see, you’re broken and disjointed
when I need you to be connected?
But if we weren’t to meet again
I doubt that I could I cope.
Thursday 13th February 2020 12:12 am
(This is my real curse)
Insomnia a horrid curse
can't sleep can't converse
everyone in the house well away
got to be up early as well today
insomnia had it all my life
it sucks, I am tired that's life
wish I could close and drift away
awake all night till the break of day
hubby snores so loudly each night
to try and nod I fight and figh...
Thursday 23rd January 2020 2:08 am
in the anxious hours
when white noise
no longer lets you sleep
In the mattress springs
your percussive heartbeat
one thought then another
one worry trailed by the next
did what was said make sense?
was it understood
will this be good enough
suddenly so awake
in the anxious hours
Thursday 2nd January 2020 12:20 pm
How I long to sleep tonight
forget these thoughts
Ease my body free
of anxiety and worry
but the more I try
the more I fail
I fidget fast, roll in frustration
cursing my debt
and conversations that won't end
Where are those waves of darkness
when will they wash my brain
Where is that tide of sleep
Six hours now
Wednesday 19th June 2019 9:23 pm
Getting acquainted with the moon
we exchange so many glances
and on my back
a thousand heart-attacks roll past
My fingers beside, cross and uncross
as you sleep, so black
back in the real world
paid up entirely
on your subscription
to actual reality
O would you bring me a souvenir
from the envious depths of endless peace
perhaps a child or a patient nurse
or some cont...
Tuesday 20th November 2018 6:29 pm
The battle begins -
Poetry behind my eyes
Will not let me sleep.
Tuesday 9th October 2018 7:39 am
A midnight black sky
Seen in the bedroom mirror
By eyes that won't close
Monday 8th October 2018 5:31 pm
I rely on sleep
It’s the only thing
To keep thoughts at bay
Hours when my mind
Releases its grip
That strangles my sanity
Now, in its own
Sick and twisted way
Keeps sleep at bay
My mind is evolving
Tightening its grip
And slaughtering my sanity
Thursday 3rd May 2018 1:03 pm
When the night doth come, weary follows distantly.
Toiling farther from the dawn with each passing sunset, offers not the distraction so sought out by its woeful captor.
With worried mind and worried soul and yearning for slumber. Not for rest, but for release.
Relentless is the repeat of ruminating reasoning. Soul wrenching speculation scews sensibility, until slowly and sluggishly sle...
Monday 13th November 2017 12:48 am
Angel to ghost
the night cold
heavy heart torn
rain hails bones
brutal ache my mistake
to go back in time
to a place in my mind
blue ice fire
cracks a pain so deep
only sounds like these
evoke awake demons
buried brittle knees
a radio waves
echo cellos past
Saturday 14th October 2017 5:25 am
actually it’s early
brain never stops
mix between good thoughts and bad
this should be over since the end
of my drinking life
my dogs life
is this one of those nights I’ve been waiting for?
what to do…???
my best pal comes to town tomorrow
happy about that
maybe this shouldn’t be over
maybe this is just the beg...
Saturday 6th February 2016 10:24 am
Insomnia. Intoxicating thoughts seeping through your neurons. The struggle of finding rest late at night. The path less traveled, because no light is there to guide you. Darkness becomes your greatest friend, it becomes more comfortable as the sleepless nights persist. Struggling to find peace with the war inside, metamorphosing your ordinary mind,
Into a machine of co...
Sunday 27th September 2015 7:22 pm
I fail at sleeping
in a show of unconditional accusation, the reproachful slander of your hereafter,
amongst the placid hours,
I try to be the grand man, but I shake too much
unhinged by the overreach of my skeletal height
much to the delight of every unskilled whistler
tough love and rougher hate interprets the shuddering motions, as my left hand lingers
over a poss...
Thursday 28th May 2015 2:08 pm
This must be my longest night
the moon laying its heavy light right down
this room swims in so much gossiping
conversations; always imagined and impossible
This must be my longest night
the blurred echoes of all we did ring ‘round
there’s no sleep to be had, just counting stars
and scenes replaying; rose or shit tinted now
I found the jagged edge of love
it cut right across my heaving...
Thursday 26th March 2015 3:40 pm
Like an old friend,
I stare at the clock,
"Should I sleep now or later?"
For I am not sure anymore,
What is expected
Of a single man,
And I stare at this empty bed,
And miss her body,
And her warmth... And her.
Monday 23rd June 2014 10:31 am
The radio on your alarm switches on at 3am,
unbeckoned. The voice of a nighttime preacher
speaking forgiveness onto dead waves. It begins
in your dreams, and only later do you realize
his voice is not water spilling from a crack in a brick wall.
You bring your fingers to your face, listening
to the voice, which is not fire, telling you
you are loved by an empty sky. He...
Tuesday 10th June 2014 1:43 am
a night too quiet
yet, even in it’s silence,
not quite enough for me
now in my head those words were read
by Richard Burton
but then she came calling in the hours
when there aren’t yet enough digits on the clock
and I ignored the advice of William S Burroughs, or some other I forget,
and told her to fuck off, leave me to the monotone
test card transmission, t...
Tuesday 28th August 2012 6:04 am
LET SLEEP COMETH
Around and around the sad and dreary night spins
in my tortured world full of wakefulness.
It’s the same every time, unable to fall off the edge
into oblivion and peaceful sleep.
I feel so heavy with fatigue, like my limbs are weighted with lead,
the tablets I had an hour ago haven’t worked so what must I do now?
Suicide would be an answe...
Friday 9th March 2012 6:00 pm
In a war, conflict breeds loyalty not selfishness in your partner, not like chavy England. Basking in the illusional glow of my make believe achievements. More bad nights adding to my bank account of insomnia.
She has fortitude in strength of character. I hate my own reality. What would it of been like to go and to His Latest Flame with Bernie? My most amazing gig with a real women...
Saturday 6th August 2011 4:44 pm