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Longing
His love for her was strong but still,
a longing in his soul
took him to where he could be free,
but ocean’s take their toll.
He never did return
although she waited faithfully.
Day and night she sat there watching,
hoping she would see.
She prayed that his ship would return
but fate will have its way.
She waited til her time was spent,
until her hairs ...
Thursday 13th March 2025 2:03 am
Niche Soul
Sunday 23rd February 2025 12:10 pm
December Rainy Night
Starring out my window this December rainy night,
all I can do is long for you again.
Sometimes I feel I’m over you, like maybe I just might
move on and forget about all that’s been.
But as the raindrops fall, all of the tears I hold inside
come tumbling down as blue skies turn to grey.
And then it doesn’t matter much, how hard I have tried
to let you go and go another wa...
Thursday 20th February 2025 11:13 pm
Milk Carton
How long is too long before concern spreads like the cancerous disease that precursors worry and anxiety?
A week? A day? TBD may be the answer -
A close-up of her face will do. 4 inches by 4 inches, with a description that would inspire all to help me find her. Strawberry, 2%, Whole and Chocolate. As long as I get the message out.
...
Sunday 9th February 2025 8:48 pm
Talks
Everyday is the same old
We talk and laugh full of love
And then everything goes cold
When is it ever enough?
I tell you about my day, you listen
You talk, I smile- it’s a routine now
But why is there so much tension
How much more can I allow
I hate this wall that we always come to
We used to strain from it, it never found us
Now it turns all our days dark a...
Monday 25th November 2024 7:53 pm
My Senses Fail
The feeling comes gnawing, gnashing, crashing into me from within, a reminder of the things I lack, the things I could have been.
The thought of failure torments me, slashing, stabbing, holding onto my heart, a reminder of those who always thought that I was just playing an imaginary part.
The pain comes sharply, sneakily, forcing my mind into behaving, a reminder of the moments I have lost ...
Tuesday 12th November 2024 12:47 am
confessions of a madman
“Confessions of a madman”
In Writhing of winters:
The shallow puddles of moisture,
Days off in a sweater,
Sounds that resemble symphonies of flicker,
Tropical wind that shutter,
Making heart and hands flutter,
Both might shatter,
The serene cold of winter
Before you go
Don't you
Forget, I want you ,
more than you'll
Ever know.
Leaving ...
Friday 8th November 2024 7:32 pm
Wavering Passion
Desire is the root of all suffering.
In shadows, deep my wishes lie,
Desire speaks, a tempting sigh.
From ancient tales to modern woes,
It stirs my heart, but pain it sows.
Each yearning wish that dares to rise,
Comes with a cost, a heavy sigh.
In gardens light, I seek the sweet,
Yet I find myself at sorrow’s feet.
The Greeks warned of hubris’ fall,
Desires’ echo, a haunting call.
...
Monday 30th September 2024 3:56 am
Dear Absent Friend
Dear absent friend
Are you still there?
Do you still lurk in the places we used to?
Or have you moved on to pastures new?
Dear absent friend
Do I ever cross your mind?
Even on days with no rain from the skies
It rains from my eyes
Dear absent friend
I long to hear your voice
For your asks I could not fulfill
But I miss you still
Dear absent friend
I hope that you are happy
H...
Monday 16th September 2024 9:24 am
Pursuit
Caught in mundane trivalities in my environs secure
Something seems amiss, of which I am not so sure
No shackles tie me down, still can't seem to express
Odd feeling at the nucleus, now difficult to suppress
Endowed though sufficiently no concerns as of now
Need stoking stimulus, to find new trigger somehow
All familiar seems daunting, must try & explore anew
To bring a bit of sembl...
Wednesday 11th September 2024 2:46 pm
I am capable of love
Words can be weaponised
Be careful with the words you use
What might be a throw away sentence to you
Forever imprinted, taunting anothers mind
When you chose these words
Did you remember the things about me which only you know
The secrets I don't share freely
But entrusted with you
People have preconceived notions
Ready to label and validate assumptions
You saw behind the mask
Y...
Friday 6th September 2024 8:35 am
what's that word again?
I've been in my feelings
and in my head for years.
I've built walls and
called them boundaries only
to wake up one day and realize
that I've boxed myself in
and that's the tragedy in it all;
in keeping myself safe
I've locked everything out.
and what a sad way to live,
peaceful and
picking my own muse
to pieces until the only thing
left is
a bloody pile of
everything I used to...
Thursday 8th August 2024 4:20 pm
driving with my mother
She said 37 words in fifteen seconds on the start of the drive home. 37 words in fifteen seconds. I don’t know what she said. I was too busy counting. She says I live inside my head. I don’t think she understands the irony. 37 words, she wasn’t even breathless. I don’t know if it was an attempt to fill the silence or if it was her way of closing the distance between us by opening it, or she was si...
Monday 17th June 2024 7:36 am
Sunset Memory
An old porch swing made once for two.
Cool night breeze calling out to you.
Ten thousand memories rise above,
the sunset waters of our love.
Just like the day slips into the night,
the love we had that was oh so right
it slipped away. It slipped away,
like day slips into night.
Was our love doomed to come and pass,
one day as fire, one day as ash?
Night afte...
Saturday 16th March 2024 10:40 am
Til Time Stands Still
It was a beautiful story,
I wish it was my own.
It makes me think of you,
so every now and then
I turn it on.
Was the first song we danced to,
it made us fall in love.
Now every time it plays
I see your face,
you’re all I think of.
Why does it seem true loves
are always kept apart?
Is it cruel fate,
a form of bait
that’s used to crush the he...
Friday 23rd February 2024 1:37 am
The Cruelest Moon
There you were again
last night
Always dressed so well
exactly the clothes I’d choose for you
precisely the right smile
My dreams aren’t long enough
the scene shoots by
too soon
You come, you go
I long for you to stay a while
but you’ll never stay for long
Your wild mind, your hungry heart
yawn and snarl
before you turn and go
leaving me alone
Back into the night
you shuffle of...
Monday 18th December 2023 10:37 am
An Eyelash Breadth Between Us
Lit monochrome by the moon
we dance across silver sands
The waves scrawl
like these scribbled lines
written by my yearning hand
tonight
All this turbulent energy
flung into the swirling air
Conducted by my pulsing heart
This fool, who thinks he has control
of all you do to me
A wanton wind whips up the spray
and all I want to do
is turn the beat inside my chest into
sentences sho...
Wednesday 15th November 2023 8:14 pm
To Love Is To Die
A love so fierce,
has taken ahold of me,
that ‘I’ is no more.
My form, my soul,
is now entangled with hers.
Where do I end and where does she begin?
I now only exist,
as an extension of her.
When my name leaves mouths,
I pray for it to always
be accompanied by hers.
Whenever she is in my vicinity,
it feels as if I could ascend into infinity.
To love her,
...Sunday 17th September 2023 12:36 pm
Hearts Of Hers
Heart of mine
Won't you stand at my side?
Stop your traitorous speeding,
So that my cheeks may stop heating.
What is it about her,
That her whole being allures
What is it about her,
That has me needing more
She,
Who gazes at me as if I
Am the one who in the east rises
She,
Who sees me wholly,
Not for who I pretend to be.
She,
Who has replaced my blood,
as my life's elixer,
...
Wednesday 9th August 2023 3:29 pm
Addiction
It runs in my family
I thought I was lucky
That the gene had skipped me
But I was wrong
It's not a substance I cannot give up
It's you I am addicted to
Years went by
And the fire that once raged
Was nothing but a barely glowing ember
I thought I was done
That I was in the clear
But I found you again
And the feeling is creeping back in
The weight on my heart
I feel it with every bre...
Friday 30th June 2023 8:08 pm
Love's Servant
As I was laying in the desert,
I desperately longed for the sea
and its waves to crash over me.
How could it slip over my head
that water can dry one out too?
There in the desert,
my throat was empty.
Constricting and relaxing around nothing.
Desperately trying to salvage
the little droplets of water,
it could claw out of my mouth
to satisfy my needy self.
...Friday 16th June 2023 9:14 am
Words Hidden Beneath Ink
A delicate touch on my skin.
How long has it been
since someone softly caressed me?
A touch so unknown,
yet Comfort finds their home.
As you trace the ink on my skin,
your eyes rake down my body,
drinking all of me in,
as if you have not drunk a drop of water
for as long as you’ve been.
Your fingers on me,
feel like the first sunbeams that grace a leaf,
after a...
Tuesday 23rd May 2023 12:02 pm
Waiting For My Nobody
Tired souls sigh together,
lovers have given up on getting better,
but I will continue to stay with the withered tree until the end of times.
We have exchanged the word 'forever'
and thus I will patiently wait untill we are back together.
I will wait for you, my Nobody,
until my body cannot anymore.
Until my body decays
and my bones slip into Mother's embrace.
Even then...
Monday 27th March 2023 6:38 am
I Love Myself (Unfortunately)
I love myself.
Not in the way one would think.
I truly am in love with myself.
For there is no one in this whole wide world
That could understand me,
See me,
Hear me,
Apart from me.
Therefore it is only myself that I can love
And it is only myself that can love I,
Whose song differs from the other whales.
I love myself.
Not out of free will,
But out of...
Sunday 5th March 2023 10:31 am
Return To Me
Cold and dark
here I lay
waiting for you at bay.
The orange pearl is sinking into the seas.
Thousands of sand grains surround me,
yet I still feel so lonely.
I have given my heart to you
and now it’s sinking slowly in the seas.
I will wait for eternity
may the seas direct you back to me.
Saturday 28th January 2023 11:20 am
Mmmmm
Mmmmmm, she said
and only I knew what she meant
Mmm, she said
and then she sounded mad
Hmmmm, she said
in clearest tone of inquisition
Hmm, she said
as if she didn't know what to say
You see
I know what you mean
You don't need to say
But could you please
It would mean the world to me
Friday 2nd December 2022 5:22 am
promises, promises
promise me, darling,
when you’ve moved out and moved on
when this endless summer
becomes a misty-edged memory,
promise that you won’t forget me.
fall into an easy love with some girl
who deserves you more than i ever could,
but promise when you look in her eyes
that sometimes you’ll see a glimmer
of me in her, and you’ll wonder
what i look like now, what i’m doing,
...Wednesday 20th July 2022 7:21 am
Every Night
Every night I have this dream me and you walking down the stream
hand in hand down the narrow path your words resonates in my heart
we talk about here and now ,past ,present and future somehow
suddenly you stare at me asking why me
neither I am rich neither I am poor but somewhere in between dear
neither my looks are worth a dime
so why do you give me so much time ?
Heari...
Tuesday 22nd March 2022 7:06 am
Kenyan Morning
*
Is it possible to yearn for a place and time
solely for its colors?
Green is my favorite color
so familiar, but not in our old garden
Everything was an out-of-this-world green
looking out our backdoor in western Kenya
nothing could match the crackling vibrancy
of glowing full-blooded chlorophyll
it seemed too good to be true
Open the back door, imagine a valley
shrouded with luminou...
Wednesday 10th February 2021 5:11 am
We Sat There
***
Two vacant park benches
under an old gray pine
are slate and damp
with dingy mold,
moss & pine needles
coat cracked seats
& tables crisscrossed
by mucus slug-trails–
A gray squirrel grips a stray
acorn between razor teeth
to sit and nibble under chilly
ashen bowers; this somber
winter day of the newborn
year. We sat there.
Tuesday 9th February 2021 8:43 pm
Have You Noticed
Have You Noticed?
after Mary Oliver
have you noticed how certain poems linger
in the echoes of yesterday
how certain triggers replay
a certain phrase
how hanging onto words
engulfs an empty room
how walking through fields
begets velvet moonlit nights listening to you
how spinning a record after dropping a needle
births a mountain of longing and sorrow
have you ever notic...
Monday 7th December 2020 4:21 am
Siren
Sleek, below indigo
A mastery of dancing light,
She swims among waves.
Floating nothingness surrounds
Time stopped on beauty
As her deep eyes look up.
Diamond scales
And ivory hands
Reach toward sunlight.
Mysterious soul,
Treasured, rare wanderer,
Gyspy of the sea,
Song of timelessness,
and enduring breathlessness,
She swims eternal;
A captor of her s...
Saturday 10th October 2020 7:27 am
Just a Bit Torn
My whole body reacts
to the image of you in my head,
As I lay impassioned in bed.
I have never been more aware of the material that encapsulates the mounds on my chest.
My hips move involuntarily, my cl*t pulsates,
seemingly to my quickened heart and shallow rapid breaths.
I can see clearly your lips, your mouth,
those discerning eyes that I love and hate in equal amounts.
...Wednesday 23rd September 2020 11:48 pm
Work of Art
~You let me into your intimacy
From a thousand miles away.
My eyes gripped the small of your back
And cried at the renaissance of your skin.~
Tuesday 15th September 2020 9:16 am
Transference and its counter
Am I making an impression...
Do I leave you bewildered with every expression...
Do you look forward like I do to our weekly sessions...
Or are my scribbled musings akin to aggression...
An unbecoming, pathetic vie for attention...
I find you delightful and have a genuine fascination...
I am curiously eager, feelings bordering on intoxication.
But, apparently in therapy t...
Friday 4th September 2020 4:14 am
A Client's Woe
When shadows go into hiding
And dreams run wild
I imagine you all stripped down and bare
All facades shed
Thoughts of me invade your head...
Or so I wish, a girl can dream
I miss you, I want you
If only I could scream
These words out loud
Remove the shroud
Say them loud
Say them proud...
But I mustn't disturb the peace
What is unknown must remain ...
Thursday 3rd September 2020 10:20 am
no return address
sew my eyes shut
tape my mouth closed
board me up in a box
& send me off
attach the postage
drop me off
at the post
don’t open
until i see you there
and i hear you say ‘my love’
and i feel you
next to my warm skin
until then, leave me here
Tuesday 11th August 2020 9:21 pm
Deconstruction Site
How many times do we take the leap
Before we realize we’ve jumped in too deep
How many times do we stop to realize
We need to protect our insides
How many times does this heart have to break
This love, you too shall take
He was the one,
Healing the deepest scar,
The wound he created,
Only to tear it open again
As he twists the knife
Churning everything inside of me
Monday 6th July 2020 5:35 am
Train to Nowhere
Based on the opening scene of Stardust Memories.
...
The clock ticks in desperation to move us along, to where we belong.
Our eyes remain forward, no longer looking back.
The man in seat 2B sobs with tears streaming down his face. He’s left his life in his old place.
I soak in the faces of passengers around me, stern looks all around.
All longing for company, for answers that c...
Saturday 27th June 2020 6:26 pm
the lack of you
There have been numerous occasions where I'd have to close my eyes to stop from crying
Watery; blurry; black
Nights without you are sleepless
But I'm pretty sure you can sleep just fine
Even if you prefer another next to you, it's not that you prefer me
I could count the stars all night, but I'd still never sleep
And maybe I'd always blame insomnia for being the lack of ...
Monday 22nd June 2020 5:07 am
Entreaties
Entreaties
My gums are bleeding again.
There’s a stack of papers that need attention
But I can’t find my glasses.
My truck is making that funny noise.
I sleep too late
Because no one wakes me.
I don’t write
I feel it’s all been said.
I find I’m repeating myself
No one takes me seriously
Your point’s been made:
I am selfish and fickle,
Say whate...
Sunday 10th May 2020 4:55 am
Half-Life
We were reckless with love.
Swans dancing on a lake of fire;
unfinished art searching for the
Louvre.
Quiet & loud.
Hungry & fed.
Bones full of broken stars
and twilight;
sapiosexual
astronomers
with the temerity
to traverse galaxies
hidden between the
braille on our skin,
foolish enough to believe
desire this strong would
take a half-life to
decay.
Sunday 3rd May 2020 11:04 pm
Meeting in Solitude
Minds meeting
words spoken
stories shared
world is hushed
but inside we are all screaming
waiting for the tomorrows
when our meetings will be filled with embraces,
with kisses,
with reading a silent stare
and we will know what they mean
not just from a frozen screen
but for a reflection of all time
We are all waiting for the tomorrows
we will no longer meet in solitude
but a meetin...
Friday 1st May 2020 5:11 pm
Cold
Just lay your hand
in mine
when I´m shaking
because the frost
is running through my veins
Just lay your hand
in mine
when my eyes flicker
and all I can see
is darkness
Just lay your hand
in mine
you don’t have to do
anything
you don’t have to say
anything
Just lay your hand in mine
I just need to know
I´m not alone
out here
in the cold
Wednesday 15th April 2020 9:06 pm
Desire
Corners caress the bricks
breading that familiar shape,
in which to pace fingertips,
reimagine and fall
the abode of cliché,
the same smitten desires,
plotted here in prints of feet
the way they moved,
the way they moved,
the way they moved,
nostalgic tracks swoon you low
to the floor, roused but not here.
Friday 10th April 2020 8:37 pm
The Flower
Once when I was young I chanced upon a flower
Wild and free it was the most beautiful thing I had seen
And I wanted it for my own
To care for this flower
To show it off to the world
This beautiful flower that was my own
Through spring and summer
I watered, I watched and I helped it to grow
And the flower basked me in its glory as it did so
But I had to le...
Monday 6th April 2020 6:15 pm
A Sea of Red
A sea of red lights
cars stopped
sitting
the hours of rush
is all hurry up
and wait
they race against each other
only to be home alone
or tucked away with their lovers
they spent all day
dreaming of their escape
now they must wait
a brief pause
the reason
the cause
only too much
in the way
between
them
and
what they long to see
[a...
Tuesday 10th March 2020 3:11 am
Another Love Poem
How many times does it cross your mind
Maybe a thousand times
I’d rather have you near
Than only have your poems reciting in my ear
Sure, they comfort me
But most days and nights I need you miserably
And those heartbreaking songs
They make me feel like we belong
Despite the truth of our existence
I wish to be in your presence
So here’s another love poem
Wr...
Sunday 1st March 2020 5:27 am
Remember Me
Darkest days
Be my brightest night
When I felt that sun glow touch
Emanate from your soft smile
Coldest wind be the
Torture of my skin
While your love seals me in
The violet of the dawning sky
The scarlet of the new sunrise
Is all I feel when you’re nearby…
Wait no…
This is but a memory…
Grab my heart and never let go
Do you remember that ...
Monday 17th February 2020 9:06 am
You
Enchanting, charming
Kind and caring.
How I fall for this disarming lie
Cunning, swift
Capturing and setting adrift.
A mind so confused
Looking for a missing muse.
There was a sign
Didn’t you see?
A warning of note
But no, you let it free.
Heart so soft and bruised
She doesn’t need to be used
But…it’s her fault
She must bring it to a halt
...
Monday 17th February 2020 8:49 am
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