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I thank you for not being good enough
You pulled me into your orbit
when I needed your help
and so, I made you my centre
to centre myself
That was my first mistake
I looked inside you
for places where I could hide
I hoped to run from reality
into the delusions of your mind
I was happy to believe you were one of a kind
chuffed upon chuffed that you were mine
and I felt adored
grateful to m...
Friday 28th April 2023 11:54 pm
NOT JUST SOME BIRD
Lately in your eyes less than perfect
Look in my eyes never perfect
If you are bringing drama best be worth it
I feel alone though.. I don't feel like I deserve it
You're in the room still I feel I've been deserted
I'm far from perfect
For what it's worth.. you should know that I am worth it
Know me better I can work it
Got me thinking for a minute I'm not worth it
...Friday 18th February 2022 3:49 am
Self inside
I am more than my sexuality. My job. My pleasure. My image.
I am my past
my future, my lessons,
my life, my heart, my fears.
My skin aches to be loved and my eyes to be seen,
my ears to be heard,
and me
.. me... ME... to be seen.
My passion, is not simply created and finished between my legs,
between my thighs,
but flows within my body like glitter in the wind.
...Friday 31st December 2021 9:20 am
Dream On
I don't suppose you'll cry to lose
A broken heart.
There's certainly no use in tears
On spilt milk.
But teddy bears are often loved
The more for being old and used,
And holes give special comfort to
Those shoes unfit to walk in.
Dream on,
Why not accept the truth?
Even apples are despised and scorned
Once bruised.
Sunday 2nd May 2021 3:54 am
To Those That Hurt Others
I pity you for the worldview you have acquired.
I pity you for the hurt you have suffered.
I pity you for the opportunities you have squandered.
And I pity you the friendships that have foundered.
I pity you for the fear that propels you.
I pity you for the decisions that shape you.
I pity you the isolation that awaits you.
And I pity you the path actions take you.
I pity you who canno...
Tuesday 22nd December 2020 8:46 am
The Impact That I Have
I am not my clothes
I am not my house
I am not my possessions.
I am not my knowledge
I am not my thoughts
I am not my body.
I am my words
I am my actions
I am my expressions.
I am the impact that I have.
Tuesday 15th December 2020 5:04 am
Grandeur
Living beneath the wind,
How easy it is not to reach for the stars.
But sleeping beneath the moon,
How can we not yearn?
Touched by infinity,
Where do we place the next step?
Conscious of eternity,
We must ever go on.
In all of this grandeur, I should feel so small.
Soaking it into every pore,
I wonder.
In all this variety, I must seem so dull.
Watching the intricacy,
I learn.
Tuesday 8th December 2020 10:25 am
A Drowning Dream.
To learn everyday was what taught to me,
Sinking in an ocean, moving steadily;
It was the ocean of knowledge and believes,
Suddenly the world changed, and power came to cease.
'Look at him, look at her', comparing to the whole world,
Trying my very best, to win in every word.
Becoming a good son, a dear brother and good friend,
But that 'I', was lost in the end.
I became what you want,...
Friday 10th July 2020 3:05 pm
The day i met you
The day I met you, my spirit was awakened
I heard your voice and my heart leapt for joy
You unlocked the chest that held my secrets
The memories that haunted me, yet I feared to let go
Our encounter was life changing
Our meeting predestined
I never thought I could be well understood
I was always an enigma, that none dared to explore
You wiped my tears, and mended ...
Tuesday 14th April 2020 3:22 am
I saw my future before my eyes for the first time in my life
It wasnt just ideas but plans with who I
pictured my wife
The mother of my children and my partner
through strife
But I lost it
It was almost here and gone in a moment
It felt so good but now there's pain and I
ow it
Started to slip away so I desperately tried
to hold it
But now it's gone
Was it my fault? I'...
Thursday 24th January 2019 8:06 pm
Cliff Hanging
I feel my mind slipping,
almost dangling from a cliff.
Obsession and love are different,
Yet similar with a twist.
You left me in the cold,
And so I left you behind.
Although it breaks my heart
this is my time to shine.
To fend for myself,
That was the first lesson,
A scared little girl,
With no direction.
Which way do I turn?
D...
Monday 7th January 2019 4:46 pm
Save me from myself.
Staring up at his ceiling fan, thinking about this disgrace
Looking in his closet door mirror, with this horrid weed that was laced.
Sending me into a trance of pure disgust
I have to stop this now, it’s most certainly a must.
I walked out the door
With no kiss goodbye
He turned around so fast
Like the quickest speed of light.
My heart pounding as we speak
I’ve gotten to a Cert...
Friday 8th June 2018 2:57 am
Shouty Face
I think that you are quite unique,
From ear to ear, then down to feet
Sat atop your mind you speak,
Sometimes funny, sometimes sweet
Lots of people seem the same,
They live their lives and play their games
Now and then they use their brains
But not too often, ain't that insane?
You are you and that's what matters
So ignore, the chitter chatter
Small minded t...
Thursday 22nd March 2018 2:13 am
Love MySelf
What do have to offer. yourself
internal wisdom beneath the facia of my concious
the untenable barrier that holds the flesh together, but connot be devoured only boiled down
and essence consumed
waste
waste not use it for what it is
extract its power
use the sinew to construct a rope
strength beyond
only useful in parity with what is beneath what is beneath useless witho...
Monday 5th February 2018 7:22 pm
Rational Identity
I am from the sun, the moon and all that lies between.
I am from the dark, the light and that which isn't seen.
I am from whence the wind blows and home is ever out of reach.
I am from the all lives I've touched and the lessons within.
I am love, I am fear, I am truth, I am sin.
I am where I belong, though I yearn to fit in.
I am mocked, I am scorned and all the persecu...
Monday 15th January 2018 6:19 pm
Divided
I wish to be heard. To bridge the divide
auto-ostracising me from common
experience. Common understanding,
inclusion and collusion in present’s
moment. I think ahead what response my
actions engender. My words carefully
controlled, observation
based: precision vocabulary I
once envied – recycled at will,
effect calculated. For reflection
on me, upping my status, ...
Thursday 24th August 2017 9:02 pm
My Head
Consciousness' stream
Batters sensibility.
Defies any logic of control.
Mind-channel's pelt through anxious nonsense.
Respite remote.
Unattainable.
Peace a distant thought,
Foreign land. And there is no place to hide.
No breakwater, behind which
cowering folk
find lulling calm.
This torrent is totality,
whose subject matter
majors upon all those memories,
...
Sunday 14th May 2017 6:42 pm
Love Yourself
I'm my own worst enemy,
It's funny how that works.
To see nothing great in me,
To question, "what's my worth?"
Looking in the mirror,
All I see is filth,
But the mirror isn't dirty,
It's just the figures spilth.
People try to compliment me,
But I only disagree,
Not seeing what they see,
They must say not what they mean.
I need more motivation.
My job is nothing great.
I need to...
Thursday 22nd December 2016 7:47 pm
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