I saw my future before my eyes for the first time in my life
It wasnt just ideas but plans with who I
pictured my wife
The mother of my children and my partner
through strife
But I lost it
It was almost here and gone in a moment
It felt so good but now there's pain and I
ow it
Started to slip away so I desperately tried
to hold it
But now it's gone
Was it my fault? I'm more confused than
ever I have never felt a pain following such an endeavor
My life changed when I met her
The things I had planned for my life got
better
Was it ever real?
Sometimes it seems like a trick
She went back on everything she ever said it left me so confused and clouded that my
head - split
Why did I stay?
Looking back I should have left, not because of the pain but it was best
If I left we could have avoided all the pain,
to come back when the storm had passed
Avoided all the conflicts and scars we've
amassed
It's not my fault
Well not entirely
I made mistakes but you had issues and they set their marks on me
It took two therapists for to get that through to me
Will she come back?
The world may never know
Now I have one job, don't let this heart grow cold
Maybe one day we can reunite and grow old
What about my love?
My love for her burns deep but so do the
scars, our future is cloudy I can't see very
far
This is life changing I can feel it in my soul,
the whole time I've been thinking what's
been my role?
What did I contribute that led to our
separation? What mistakes could I have
avoided to prevent this deperation? I point
at myself for every mistake made but
therapy tells me I'm not the only one to
blame.
I know my worth
I made mistakes but I'll be damned if it's all on me
I gave you my everything and made you my main priority
You gave me what you had but I know it
wasn't your best
I think the timing holds more blame than I'd like to confess
What now?
So for now I guess I'll wait and go back to
what I was doing. Working on myself
secretly hoping that what we had isn't
ruined. One day we'll get a shot, at least
that's what I'm praying. I want my heart theheal before then, I hope the Lord
understand what I'm saying.
