As pain and jealousy give way to wonder and gratitude , I realize the beauty of a love that opens ones eyes to life. The time between the yearned for reunion or unfathomable new beginning, fades like the forgotten darkness that comes in the blink of an eye. Whether a rekindling of old love - renewed by perspective - or the birth of new love - when one gathers the strength to carry the hole in thei...
Saturday 30th October 2021 2:21 am
Am I mad to miss the pain of your loss?
After initially numb, flattened by the utterly incomprehensible gift of spiritual closure, of forgiveness,
I am now bereft.
Was this bloody burden truly such an integral appendage as to leave me stumbling at the absence of its crushing weight?
I seem to have forgotten the me that lay hidden beneath the shroud of loss. It’s cloying, gropi...
Saturday 30th October 2021 2:01 am
It’s hidden well, but I search deep within the crevices of your mind.
I interpret your words and actions to depict intention and longing, want and need.
They’re masked behind masculinity; hidden within the social construct that disallows you to be free....to feel.
That which praises to the appeal of lust; turns love to dust.
Strong enough to break a woman’s heart, but no strength to trust us.
Friday 1st October 2021 1:58 pm
You won’t go to therapy
Your clothes everywhere
It is because your Daddy never cared?
Run away from your problems
Change friends all the time
Is that why you smoke weed all the time?
And wine every day
No wonder you pushed all your friends away
Video games are a way of life
like it depends on...
Wednesday 29th September 2021 1:43 pm
Sunday 29th August 2021 10:20 am
Do you grieve in heaven?
Do you feel hollow too?
Do you feel like something's missing?
Like our incompletion without you.
Goodbyes were not granted to us,
Does this upset you too?
Does grief hit you by surprise?
An oppression you never knew?
Or is Olympus free of mourning?
And you have no suffering heart?
Will we meet in the city of immortals,
Will it feel like we've been apart?
Thursday 26th August 2021 2:29 pm
that year we met, i trusted you.
i believed you liked me for who me and wanted to be friends.
but you didn't. it was all a lie.
you wanted to be friends just to get inside.
i confided in you and listened to all your problems.
always there to brighten your day.
yet, you would always go back to her.
i was your back up---someone to fill the void.
a void so deep and ...
Tuesday 13th July 2021 5:05 am
When you left, you took a piece of my heart
When you left, my whole world came tumbling down
I became so lost
I was left in the dark
You took with you my light
When you left, I learned to fight
I learned to navigate this world without you by my side
I learned to be strong to no longer rely on your love
You thought I was weak,
For feeling too much
Now, you're the one ...
Tuesday 30th March 2021 5:31 pm
Perhaps from a distance
my love is not strange to you;
this passion may be a punishment
and not even have the fortune to see you again
I look for you in my fingerprints
in indelible memories;
I discover that everything was a mistake
of bitter remembrances and misunderstandings
This long wait is a punishment that chokes me to death;
wishing to have you with me...
Tuesday 23rd February 2021 6:34 pm
Broken feeling all alone
The dark surrounds you and all is still
Time stops ticking
Your heart no longer wants to beat, it no longer wants to live
You hear a voice whisper
You hear a voice call your name
You fall on your knees close your eyes and pray
You feel his strength
You hear his voice say , "No more!"
God says , "Rise and grow!"
Have COURAGE to let go......
Friday 5th February 2021 1:19 pm
I feel it itching under my skin
clawing away deep inside
I thought i could be myself around you
now i am just sorry that I ever tried
I find myself bending over backwards for you
trying to leap through these flaming hoops
Still, it isn't a choice that you choose
For that wouldn't ever, benefit you
We're winding down this endless road
neither of us can find any hope.
Still we hold ont...
Sunday 31st January 2021 1:44 am
The suffering, the pain, it’s over now
All that is left is a pounding heart trying to heal and move on
A heart that fought so hard to stay alive
A heart that held on until the last minute the last goodbye
Thumping, beating, pulsing
The pain, the suffering made the heart strong
So strong that it grew a thick wall
A wall that cannot be broken
A wall that no longe...
Tuesday 12th January 2021 4:19 am
Your cell walls fresh-free
of their love.
must be dumbly plucked from each pink pore,
thrown to landfill,
labelled 'Hazardous biowaste, may cause hideous burns'.
Third, make re-chaste your newly bleach-scoured bone and blotted clean flesh
with a sore blessing of Domestos and clov...
Saturday 9th January 2021 2:05 pm