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Mr Bojangles
MR BOJANGLES
Like Mr Bo...
my heart jangles
when your smile
misses your eyes.
The face of a clown
soft shoe shuffling
through my soul.
White hands clasped.
The generous frill
framing your mask,
flutters like a wing
across the circus tent
of my broken heart.
Funny shoes walk strong,
confidently skirting around
landmines of feeling
clothe...
Saturday 17th May 2025 4:50 pm
Temporary Feeling
You barely uttered “ I love you” on your way out,
And I hardly call that a kiss, we only skimmed each other’s lips,
Whenever I upset you, does a piece of me in you break off until there’s nothing left?
Did your words "I'll always be yours" lose its meaning over a spat?
Thursday 24th April 2025 2:33 pm
Baltimore To Somewhere
BALTIMORE TO SOMEWHERE
You wished upon a star
and got left out in the rain.
You gave it all your heart
and it just got broke again.
Oh… It just got broke again.
You dressed unto the nines,
and I guess he’ll never see.
You painted a whole world, clearly it
is not meant to be.
Not meant to be.
Oh... not meant to be
He let you down again
...Saturday 15th February 2025 5:59 pm
Exphoria
If my sins had a smell would you sit near me?
I Wouldn't.
The tangy odour of deceit
A concoction of broken promises
The web of lies
A stench that embeds itself in ones skin
Needs more than a fix of TLC
Sorrow is my PLC
Yet it bothers you none
Through the shadow of my heart you see my smile
You feel my delicate underbelly
I am not a stain
I am more
Convinced of my plight
Stern i...
Saturday 28th December 2024 6:26 pm
Fresh streams, Tainted Depths
Stagnant
Like rainwater sitting out for days,
Attracting flies,
Like moths to a flame.
Serving no meaningful purpose,
So we remain
Unfulfilled—
Nothing’s changed.
Entrapped
In a recurring cycle,
Appearing to be renewed
As more rainwater starts to fall.
But new drops only meet the surface,
Clean merging with the murk below,
Clear streams swallowed by t...
Monday 18th November 2024 2:57 pm
Can tell
Can tell
Give me your heart, you lied from the start
Looked in ya eyes ain what you want
I can telll James got ya heart
That’s who you wanted it from the start
Cut me off, youn wanna talk
Let me die you could just walk
Really had the key into my heart
Why you wanna do me this when I’m soft
Hurt
All in my thoughts
Left me dying, now it’s my fault
Crying
Lonely in a empty lo...
Sunday 3rd November 2024 2:08 am
For When I Was Lost
For when I was lost
I gazed into you
Like the flame of a single candle
You lit up the darkness
Kept the beauty of light alive
But as I gazed too long
Your glow began to melt
And then the light went
Not in you, but me
Your soul within mine
The touch not of a burn
The glint not of a flame
But the sleek of a mirror
I can see in this d...
Sunday 20th October 2024 4:53 pm
Come on Home
You’ll never know, how much
I’m feeling
You’ll never know, how much
I need you
So come on home again
Please
Come on home again
Friday 18th October 2024 3:09 pm
Unexpected Feelings
Your feelings for me were beyond what you lead on
Did us talking regularly
Soften your heart unexpectedly?
Unknown to me but very known to you
It came to the point where “love you” became “I love you”
Slight change to our goodnights
Nothing to overthink
We’re friends right?
You got “busier”
Our talks lessened
I still see you partying though
I’m confused
...Friday 27th September 2024 5:05 pm
Dear Absent Friend
Dear absent friend
Are you still there?
Do you still lurk in the places we used to?
Or have you moved on to pastures new?
Dear absent friend
Do I ever cross your mind?
Even on days with no rain from the skies
It rains from my eyes
Dear absent friend
I long to hear your voice
For your asks I could not fulfill
But I miss you still
Dear absent friend
I hope that you are happy
H...
Monday 16th September 2024 9:24 am
I am capable of love
Words can be weaponised
Be careful with the words you use
What might be a throw away sentence to you
Forever imprinted, taunting anothers mind
When you chose these words
Did you remember the things about me which only you know
The secrets I don't share freely
But entrusted with you
People have preconceived notions
Ready to label and validate assumptions
You saw behind the mask
Y...
Friday 6th September 2024 8:35 am
To have loved how we loved
To have loved how we loved
Eyes locked, skin tender
To have loved how we loved
Hands clasped, lips traced
To have loved how we loved
Sea of brown, sea of blue
To have loved how we loved
Bodies ignited, spirits calm
To have loved how we loved
Unsung harmony, fragile peace
To have loved how we loved
Hidden darkness, returning comfort...
Saturday 31st August 2024 1:41 pm
Heal my wounds
I pull the black dagger
From my heart
The weight of my armour
Now a fluid mercury
Not a poison to me
A release
I steep to one knee
Chest free
A pour of soft gold down your slender arm
Sheds the silver mercury away
Fills the wound that I
Cast upon myself
Your fingers brush me
As though they are lillies in my garden of Eden
Lustful inhale of...
Friday 30th August 2024 3:35 pm
Was It Worth It?
I can't help but wonder, was it worth it?
Was your transient moment of pleasure worth making me feel like shit?
It seems to be a never-ending cycle of me losing my mind over you,
Your words display such innocence while your actions prove they're not true.
Defending, deflecting, giving every reason instead of the selfish thoughts in your head,
Unintentionally cementing my newfou...
Thursday 29th August 2024 1:15 am
Ancient Hearts
We are ancient hearts
A beat so strong
We are the petals of love
A touch so gentle
We are the faintest shadows
A dance so deft
We are the flicker of candles
A flame so gentle
We are the trace of embers
A light so dim
We are one
A fate so destined
We are absent
A presence so cold
Monday 19th August 2024 3:11 pm
A tapestry of lives gone by
A tapestry of lives gone by
Rich threads from what we cry
Frays of the past evoking
Gaze of the future corrupting
My stream carries its fallen leaves
Its purpose only defined by what it receives
Broken mind and beaten guilt
A blackened soul only I have built
Tears like beads down a porcelain doll
She is there to no longer make me whole
As I possessed a poiso...
Sunday 18th August 2024 8:24 pm
Rise/Fall
In the sun you hear me cry
In the moon you see me stand
I rise to your call
I fall to your mercy
My hands rest on your knees
My head bowed in your heart
Too much for me
Too much for sin
Sunday 18th August 2024 11:22 am
Face in the crowd
I pick your face out from the crowd
And you're all I can see
As we pretend to be strangers
I waited the one hour train journey
Hoping you would join me
But you never did
We remained separated by a single carriage
Little did I know you had far more in your arsenal to separate us
A Trident like deterrent
How did it come to this?
Well actually I do know the answer...
Friday 14th June 2024 11:52 am
Day 2
"idk, but we can try"
what does that mean?
and why do you continue to
contact me?
W H Y ?
you said you want NO ONE.
then that includes me,
my time,
my love,
my care,
and my company.
If you want to be truly free,
then be free without
any parts of me.
so i did not respond,
but i am tempted.
how would that work?
how would we......
how ...
Wednesday 5th June 2024 3:27 pm
Day 1
Yesterday, was day one.
A day of being alone,
thinking.
Thinking about how my mind
has yet to understand what happened.
what makes you everything they want,
but not wanted at the same time.
what is it?
for someone to bring you in on their journey,
then blame the journey for the reason
they no longer need you .
they need freedom,
...Tuesday 4th June 2024 4:27 pm
can't fix love (Matheus L. Duarte)
You hammered nails into our bed’s headboard
The wardrobe’s frail, but you said you could fix that too
And I answered: “do we even have glue?”
You always complain when I try to think forward
But monday’s gonna rain, what if we have to buy more?
Who’s driving to the store?
Isn’t it dangerous to drive in the storm?
Isn’t it best for us to just conform that... some things cannot b...
Tuesday 28th May 2024 12:59 am
Uncalculated Coitus
You touch me with your cold hands that have touched too many.
Finally making me feel seen and desirable.
As I gaze intently into your eyes, I notice you are not searching to see my soul.
You are simply seeing the face and lips that lie before you.
I hold hunger to be in your world, you only hold hunger to be in my body.
Although when you hold me tight, everything seems to be alrigh...
Monday 29th April 2024 11:57 pm
she's so pretty
I watch you with her,
I’m stupid for caring,
I watch you with her,
Gosh she’s so pretty,
It’s not fair,
Her hair,
Her eyes, her smile,
I’m scared you’re stuck in her trap,
But gosh she’s so pretty,
On the outside and within,
I see why you fell for her,
It would be so easy,
I wish you would fall for me,
I understand though,
Why fall for me when she’s so pre...
Tuesday 9th April 2024 4:52 pm
scattered constellations
the walls are crashing,
my head is banging,
I hear them in the back laughing,
my pants too big,
my stomach too chunky,
why should I care?
I don't compare to the accepted chicks,
the ones with perfect hips,
straight teeth, clear skin,
I have jagged fingertips,
my cheeks are bare,
my lashes staggered,
all my feelings are shattered,
why would he choose me?
he would never choose me,
th...
Tuesday 2nd April 2024 5:05 pm
where we once stood
can’t you tell by my face?
i romanticized the idea of you,
putting you on a pedestal,
we were surrounded by people but alone,
everyone thought we were incredible,
but i could tell by the tone,
of your voice,
by the look,
in your eyes,
your perspective was changing,
and so was mine,
scared to be alone with you,
felt alone next to you,
now alone without yo...
Tuesday 2nd April 2024 5:03 pm
Treading Water
We sit across from eachother
Our hands clasped tightly over the table
And in this moment we have everything
And yet we have nothing at the same time
Eyes locked on our targets
I can see your soul
It's calling me like a beacon
And I feel awoken
We lean in closer to this moment
Feeding off the energy like vultures to flesh
I could drown in those blue eyes
If I ...
Thursday 22nd February 2024 12:09 pm
cobwebs
there’s cobwebs
on your side of the bed.
not the same bed,
across state lines
in a town by the coast
where no one knows our names.
I am afraid to disturb them,
to make a space as unfillable
as the miles between my window
and the haunting moon.
I am afraid most days,
as memory slides into silk shadows
lurking on the edges of rest
like cobwebs
on your side
...Saturday 3rd February 2024 8:50 am
Wednesday
Wednesday was always our day
The only constant across the many variations of “us”
Drinking as friends in the pub
Drinking as “friends” in the pub
Your hand on my knee in the pub
Definitely more than friends in the pub
Kissing in the pub
Sharing our scars in the pub
Falling in love in the pub
Laughing less in the pub
Difficult conversations in the pub
Crying in the ...
Wednesday 31st January 2024 7:19 pm
The splinter inside me
The memory of your love remains like a splinter inside me
I can get by now most of the time, with it undetected
But every so often it will still catch on something and snag
The essence of you has gone through me like a thread through the eye of a needle
I continue my life, with you stitched into everything that I do
It gets heavy, carrying around the weight of this loss
I remin...
Tuesday 30th January 2024 11:00 am
Home is where the heart is
We have something
I know this because I keep trying to tell myself it's nothing
To help me walk away
But we always come back like the tide to the shoreline
Coming back to you is like coming home
Coming home in the dark of night when you've left the light on
The rush of warm air that greets you as you step inside
Close the front door behind you
Home
You were my home
Monday 29th January 2024 6:08 pm
Oxymoron
How can one be so consumed by emptiness
Isnt that an oxymoron
The presence of your absence is felt always
We talk in terminal language
Yet it still feels unfinished
A connection was made which cannot be undone
I am forever changed
Your love is not unrequited
See there are things we still share
Monday 29th January 2024 12:45 pm
Last Lies
I told you I wouldn’t write you any more poems,
And in that, I lied
For don’t you know
You’ll always be the apple of my eye
However this poem is different, it’s unlike mine
I mixed others I’ve read
Hoping you’ll someday see what has been said
May you read the rhymes and know it’s me
But the mix-up of phrases I wanted you to see
That despite my best efforts
The...
Wednesday 17th January 2024 1:47 pm
Desperate Despair
I am trying to move on
As I’ve realised this time you’re truly gone
But what am I supposed to do
When everything reminds me of you?
Every day, I have been searching
For you, my lonely heart has been yearning
With a pit in my stomach and a lump in my throat
I found your account and now I know
All my suffering has been in vain
My broken heart and all my pain
I...
Sunday 14th January 2024 6:21 am
Lost Love
Words cannot express the pain
I feel at your hands once again
My entire heart has been torn apart
Smashed on the ground into tiny shards
Like the Christmas ball that bore our names
Scattered over the floor, all in vain
And while I hurried to pick up the sharps
I looked up only to watch you laugh
In my desperate attempt to fix what’s broken
For you to tell me I’m...
Wednesday 3rd January 2024 1:22 pm
Turned Tables
The sadness that swells inside my soul
Is taking hold and I cannot control
The pictures and memories that make me so blue
I wish it was though I never knew
Why can’t you leave me alone like you’ve done before
While I chased you all you did was ignore
Now the tables have turned and you're crying for me
When all I want from you is to be set free
You’ve done too much now...
Tuesday 14th November 2023 9:21 am
Solemn Suffering
To the depths of despair I shall descend
As this pain I feel sees no end
The pain you have made me feel
Runs so deep it makes me ill
I doubt that I’ll ever heal
From the words and images that you’ve laid
Far too deep in my brain
I cannot sleep I cannot eat
I’m at my ends, my last defeat
Oh how I wished we’d never meet
For then I’d never know about your wrongs
And h...
Tuesday 14th November 2023 9:12 am
Us
I sang a song
upon that hill
wishing you would hear
but the trees and birds
were all that heard
for you were nowhere near
I raised a note
so full of hurt
up to the heavens high
and without you,
I laid my pain
upon that midnight sky
I cursed the stars,
forevermore
my words so black with hate
but they cursed back
and left me ...
Tuesday 31st October 2023 6:26 am
Birdsong
i’d lock myself up
so sealed away
in a tower, high up in the sky
away from all else
bleak, sorrowful peace
would give my own tears
time to dry
i could wake up alone
in this castle of hurt
and feel my dreams fade away
but the scene about us
where you stand at my side
is the one i still dream
to this day
i could hear the birds sing
as...
Wednesday 6th September 2023 6:24 am
Tearboats
Cry me a river
so I know you can feel
the heartache which splits me apart
in hopes you will come
with a stick of glue
get me a violin
and sing me a song
for I’d play
until my fingers fell off
just to hear you sing along
or come kiss me goodnight
bless me with your gentle touch
and look at me with those glittering stars
so I may fall asleep
an...
Tuesday 29th August 2023 6:51 am
Rosebush
I want to drape the page
with memories, love
with wandering thoughts and
painful regret
I want to wonder
what I could be, and would
if I took my words and
made them come true
or is that unwise?
to wish for a change
for the dreams to leave my mind
and join the sunlight around me
I want to climb the tallest mountains
and trees
I would fall i...
Saturday 5th August 2023 1:10 am
Bitter Beer
I used to utter your name delicately
like it was poetry.
Just as how perfume lingers on a person,
The sweet smell of cherry blossoms
accompanied your name
whenever it walked out my mouth.
But now all it leaves,
Is a taste so foul.
Your love was like alcohol to me,
It left me feeling euphoric at first,
But after the effect had worn out,
All I was left with w...
Monday 29th May 2023 12:52 pm
I thank you for not being good enough
You pulled me into your orbit
when I needed your help
and so, I made you my centre
to centre myself
That was my first mistake
I looked inside you
for places where I could hide
I hoped to run from reality
into the delusions of your mind
I was happy to believe you were one of a kind
chuffed upon chuffed that you were mine
and I felt adored
grateful to m...
Friday 28th April 2023 11:54 pm
Just A Man
a dream of mine came true
as I lay next to you
losing my worries in the wind
little did I know
I had naught to show
from the heart I was eager to win
as I carried on
in blinded pursuit
my path lit by your auburn eyes
I lost myself there
in your hands and your hair
waiting for my doubts to die
now left here I am
to think of what was
and ...
Monday 17th April 2023 5:30 am
Leverage
I’ve peeled off my skin for you
I’ve let you crunch my bones,
Consume beyond my flesh
Beyond my visceral tissues
Beyond my beating heart
Beyond the fibres of my being
Down to my soul
I’ve let you gobble up my spirit
I’ve let you slurp up my mind
Lick the lasting crumbs
of my emotions
Everything in me
Everything making me, me
All that constructs me
All...
Monday 27th February 2023 6:22 pm
Temporaries
You were supposed to be temporary.
A Mr. Right Now
But you were so persistent when I was so hesitant.
You opened your arms when I shied away.
So believe me when I say, that it hurt to be betrayed.
You looked me in the eyes when you told your bold face lies.
I wanted to believe you, I almost believed you, because deep down I didn't want to lose you.
Monday 20th February 2023 5:02 am
not-love
to pass you by is to long
for you close, lips sweet despite her
claim’s acrid taste. you wave.
your wandering hand runs up my thigh like
vines cling to ancient stone structures.
we make a sick picture, half-past-drunk
on years of tension, crushed
between mouths and confession in the dark.
you look at me as though
i might not run laps around the room
in hopes of catchi...
Tuesday 24th January 2023 10:40 am
Starting Today
As of today
I'll only be in your memory,
a trunk full of remembrances
you’ll want to throwaway
and remove forever
imagining you’ll forget me
From today on
I'll just be an empty space in your bed
you cannot embrace
and my scent on your pillow
that you will not forget
Starting today
I'll only be
a worn out image in your dreams
that will hush the pa...
Tuesday 17th January 2023 6:43 pm
December Birthday Blues
December Birthday Blues
You've created in me this
despair of lonliness..
My voice trembles,
tears fill my eyes,
I don't want u to see me..
I would'nt stand your coldness,
not again!
All the love you used to give me,
no longer there...
These feelings of crying..
can't take it,
I'm not that strong!
Saturday 17th December 2022 1:39 am
refusal is slow
I
i'll be honest,
I refuse to love you.
my chest sits in knots
even in this revelation
the would-be butterflies remain trampled
and God knows they fly all around him
im not sure they even had the chance
to cocoon, your slime-gripped words
of small flames devoured their bloom.
No. Yes. No, im not bitter. Im selfish.
I'm greedy with want, a desire-is-me factory of production
I hold ...
Sunday 27th November 2022 4:26 pm
Darkest Times
In the darkest times, there is always a light,
Someone who will hold you, or just sit with you,
when you are feeling doubt.
Maybe it's a person? Or maybe it's a dog? who looks at you with non-judging unconditional love,
and makes you know everything will be alright!
That makes you put on your armour and continue to fight,
Because warriors might lose battles and even have scars,
...Wednesday 2nd November 2022 3:48 pm
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