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In Case I Lose This Fight
I almost killed myself tonight,
I ran out of reasons to live and reasons to fight.
Each day is a battle just to survive,
How is it that I am expected to thrive?
The loneliness in this house is overbearing,
I feel like a fool for even caring.
All I need is to be loved and feel wanted,
But my reality is the opposite while my brain is haunted.
Nothing I say or do wil...
Friday 15th March 2024 1:43 am
Acknowledge me
It reaches further than "please fuck me" or "don’t touch me"
It’s a liminal in-between
A line we like to call blurry
But I never asked you to undress me
My body abandoned me
My words went slurry
Tongue too thick to go beyond a mumble
Kind sir escorted me to save me from stumble
Four times play on my mind
One of them I even forgot
Until it accosted me during a usual d...
Friday 12th January 2024 5:07 pm
I: skeleton
Face like stone
Hard to read
I find myself taking pride
In my totem pole
Of expressions, I can hide
Masterfully deceptive
Every bit secretive
All heart without sleeves
Makes it easier to breathe
But being naked
Really stripping off
And just letting everyone watch
That is true strength
True power
Is knocking down this tower
Being bare
Just a sk...
Monday 11th September 2023 7:56 pm
Leverage
I’ve peeled off my skin for you
I’ve let you crunch my bones,
Consume beyond my flesh
Beyond my visceral tissues
Beyond my beating heart
Beyond the fibres of my being
Down to my soul
I’ve let you gobble up my spirit
I’ve let you slurp up my mind
Lick the lasting crumbs
of my emotions
Everything in me
Everything making me, me
All that constructs me
All...
Monday 27th February 2023 6:22 pm
To be Loved by You
What do you see
When your eyes land on me
What do you fear
When I am near
What is written on the wall
That's guarding you from all
I long to give to you
Do you know
Do you really know
That I would never let you go
Do you understand
I only wish to be with you
In the end
When I look at you
It's like the whole world is new
A better place for all
...Tuesday 25th June 2019 5:50 pm
Map
Something has changed,
Not in the usual way:
The natural adjustment,
The evolution of life.
No, this something,
It's foreign to my mind.
Oh wanderer of new lands,
On an unwalked path.
As fog clears,
Unveiling the whole trail,
"X" marks the spot,
The same spot it always has.
But this journey
To meet it,
It was written in invisble ink,
Only to appear
W...
Wednesday 22nd August 2018 1:34 am
Knock Knock
You and your trust issues
Me and mine
You have your fears
And your doubts
About me
And I have mine
But every time
We try to rationalize
And prove to each other
That the pieces don't fit
The sentences get left
Unfinished
Back and forth
Like whiplash
Seeing how far I'll go
Until I look back
Keeping me comfortable
At a distance
Have...
Wednesday 27th June 2018 1:11 am
I see why love is red.
I can’t tell you.
But last night, you entered my chest
for play, some kind of game, like ‘Operation’
and then I couldn’t sleep
I jolted – shivered – jerked – quirked,
now my eyes don’t close
and my body is a pulse,
you tiptoed across my ribcage,
leaving foot prints enlaced by landmines,
you slept on my lungs,
short wired my arteries,
you clipped the circuits of my ...
Wednesday 27th September 2017 2:10 am
Numb
Once a darkness wrapped her soul,
A willow weeping, a devoid whole.
Stole her hope, her pride, her lust.
Pain twisted taking trust.
She wandered vulnerable but free,
Deathly pale but not drug free.
Chemically calmed, sedated, numb.
The only way to cope for some.
Twisted visions of the truth,
Forever lost beauty and youth.
Broken wings no longer fly.
Long ago she prayed to die....
Thursday 11th May 2017 7:14 pm
The stranger on her neck
Can you see the track marks up her arms?
I spy
With my wide eye
The stranger upon her neck.
Like the birthmark of a bloodhound,
Like a grisly flesh pinch,
An angrily sealed wound,
A Chinese burn,
A beating burning bruise,
A bloody blush:
The bite of the hungry.
Teeth she counted like cash,
The molars which paid her fine
And got her Alice's very own wonder
-ful escape...
...Monday 22nd February 2016 9:13 pm
The Samaritans charity's YouTube channel links to my Video poem 'So Sad WAS I'
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