Poetry Blogs (2019, relationship breakup)
Nigel Astell on September 2020 Collage Poem: The Silence Still Talking (3 hours ago)
You lie awake in bed with your eyes swollen from the tears and the pain
Wondering why you deserve to hurt
You play back scenes in your head thinking , " Was it all fake!"
The smiles, the love, the times we laid together in bed, talking about children, and houses by the lake
You close your eyes and tears fall down your face and you cry to God , " Please, please make it all go away!"
Monday 25th May 2020 5:46 pm
The words you said made me realize it's all done
I cried, yelled, and wallowed in self pity
Then I showered
Did my hair
Put on clothes and said , "That is it girl get it together!"
I said, " That is it girl look at that mirror!"
You are BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, and SMART
I said , "I love me!"
"I love me!"
Tuesday 28th January 2020 9:47 pm
Wrapped up tight, covered up all warm
Then i tapped the light when i stretched my arm
The sap inside done kick me down, feelin blue
Cause' she's not around
Tears start to fall and all that is heard
Is the sound of the TV and the birds
Chirppin' loud like they do when its noon
And you do what you do as i lay so blue
It's midnight morning without a snooze
Im dead awake and on is news
Sunday 24th November 2019 9:22 pm
Searching for you
You’re the word
On the tip of my tongue
- tip - tip – tick – tock
You’re the face on my clock
You’re the catch in my breath
Like if I was to cough
Words of you
Would just tumble out
Like if I was to shout
Words of you
Would just rumble out
You’re built into my skull
You’re the clutch over my brain
You’re running through my veins...
Monday 1st July 2019 1:27 pm
A perfect match - strike anywhere.
A perfect love - what happened there?
I walked away without a care,
but turned and tripped on your last stare.
Monday 24th June 2019 11:01 am
When I think of you, I am flooded with a million emotions
A wave so big it could take out the world
And that it did
I haven’t been the same since I met you.
I’m part to blame for that
You are quick on your feet
Charming, witty, and handsome
Oh so handsome
I opened the flood gates
I welcomed in the storm
The perfect storm that you are
But little did i know it was hu...
Sunday 5th May 2019 5:51 pm
I try to ignore the gaps between us
But I fail miserably
This vacuum too huge and anti-gravity everywhere
When I'm rooted you're soaring
I would be lying if I say it didn't hurt
Cause it hurts like daggers to my heart
We may have our differences
But in the end it's hard to say goodbye
Spaces between us, grins before
Now forced smiles and chuckles
Hoping for the best i...
Sunday 14th April 2019 8:27 am
bed we made
no longer fits it
Wednesday 27th March 2019 11:11 am
I'm the salt
You're the wound
Can you feel me digging in?
Do you feel how I feel?
Let's be honest for a moment
We have all done it for that special person
"Done it" as in losing it all for that one chance
The chance to walk with them in the sun
Well, my special someone left me
With a sunburn and a heartache
Left me stranded there on the sun
Waiting for her return
Wednesday 13th September 2017 5:28 pm
a letter from you. It is typed,
in Times New Roman, font 12.
Your way of saying goodbye.
I never got to say anything back.
Face to face,
we only knew how to laugh
at each other. No point in being serious,
it can’t be serious.
I read it once and never again
because I know exactly what you mean
when you say it’s like leaping back into a hedge of thorns.
Saturday 12th March 2016 5:54 pm
Saw you again
over the wine and canapés,
and it was as though you
were dead to me all over again.
Your shining eyes were locked
with some other bloke’s and I
thought, ‘Shite, not again.’
Except there is no again,
and it’s my well-crafted lie
to believe that you were alive
to me. Then you came over and said ‘Hi’;
I echoed the same, lamely,
and you said how g...
Tuesday 16th February 2016 8:33 pm
I relish the darkness of the night,
Its cloying blackness like a friend
who will not leave you till the end
and walks behind you, out of sight.
The solemn fading of the light
covers the cracks that will not mend.
I relish the darkness of the night,
it’s cloying blackness like a friend.
My life was always fresh and bright,
a silver sixpence, yet to...
Sunday 6th December 2015 12:43 pm
The heat of a sultry summers day
and the news wasn’t good,
you were going away.
Vow’s made by the lovers brook
are just trickling memories
of a love that you took.
A heart that once was full of life
is now but an empty shell
on the edge of a knife.
A vignette, closing in on a world,
as into the deep dark abyss
my mind was hurled.
Dreams and g...
Wednesday 17th June 2015 11:43 am
You sent me a dear john letter today
That was cover in poison ivy
I knew in that moment
My world was about to end.
As I open the letter with shaking hands
With anxiety filling my lungs
My darkest fears was realize
As I read the blood ink words.
You've met someone else
Someone better than me
But I couldn't believe
The evil that was going on behind close doors.
Laying in bed
Thinking of you
You're in bed
Friday 27th February 2015 3:37 am
I really think you should cherish our time
Before all the clocks finally hit midnight
Can't you see I'm still holding your hand
I wanna let go but I'm too scared to move.
Our future seems eerily blurry
A ghostly fog leading to the unknown
Raging thunderstorms covering the sky
Dozens of raindrops over our heads.
It's summer but everything is cold
I can't see you in the darkness
Wednesday 18th February 2015 4:30 am
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