it's not always prudent
to speak one's mind
ignore the old adage
"cruel to be kind"
some words are better
when they're left unsaid
some thoughts are safer
harbored inside one's head
we want to believe
that we know what's best
that life's taught us well
that we're up to the test
yet time and time again
that we know
Friday 4th October 2019 8:05 am
as i lay me down, awake
i beg the depths of sleep too take
my mind away from all this stress
and warm my heart with tenderness
i listen to this jagged breathing
not asleep, it sounds like seething
and though it twists and tears my heart
pray bridge this gap, words and worlds apart
it's astounding the space that exists in one bed
once the seeds of doubt take root in one's...
Tuesday 1st October 2019 10:36 am
we argue about the give and take
it's upsetting that i can't stay awake
and afterwards when you're not here
i can't get back to sleep my dear
i think about the things i could have done
and the words i should have said
now that you're not here to hear them
they're doing cartwheels in my head
Friday 27th September 2019 2:16 am
All I want to do is hold you close and show you.
Because with all of this space between us...
Sometimes words are not enough.
Sometimes words are too much.
Sometimes when it all feels too rough.
Sometimes the only thing that will suffice is touch.
Saturday 14th September 2019 8:58 am
this house is just a comfortable box
to hold my clothes, my shoes, my socks
it keeps me warm and safe at night
my shady cave when the world's too bright
yes, it's a place i can be off-guard
to hide my pain when life gets hard
it's a place i'm allowed to scream and shout
but i don't want to be safe now
i want to go out
Thursday 29th August 2019 11:43 am
screaming is never the key
to lift her veiled eyelashes
whisper and the curtains part
Thursday 29th August 2019 11:27 am
when I'm alone
loses it's color
and i begin to fade
Saturday 24th August 2019 11:27 am
I need a drink of water. I love you.
I love a drink of water. I need you.
I need a drink of you. I love water.
I love a drink of you. I need water.
Wednesday 21st August 2019 9:41 pm
I wish I may I wish I might
write a new poem for you every night.
And although I try so very hard
I can't seem to live up to the life of a bard.
I quiet my brain and I open my heart
and every night I come up with a start.
Next I begin to rhyme and riddle
I twist my words to create the middle.
But often I get stifled then.
Hung up in the struggle to form the end.
So my unfinish...
Monday 12th August 2019 8:56 am
"I love you like the sunlight loves a shadow,
always trying to catch and consume it
but also enjoying the contrast too much
to ever take it over completely."
Saturday 10th August 2019 12:40 am
when you talk
like an eager child
jumping up and down
excitedly urging the story teller on
anticipating the part where i am the star
"tell me the part about me!"
Saturday 3rd August 2019 1:29 am
It was the moment when you became my everything
It was long before I was willing to admit it
It was long before I even started to deny it
It was long before I could no longer ignore it
It was long before I was able to accept it
It was long before I began to embrace it
It was that first accidental conversation
It was nothing more than a passing comment
It was as important as...
Wednesday 31st July 2019 12:51 am
I feel poetry and delirium whenever I am without you
It's all white noise closing in and I don't know what to do
Nothing makes sense. My vision blurs and my body feels hollow
I close my eyes. I push off into the winding tube of darkness below
I start to slip and It feels like I'm flailing on a loop-de-loop slide
I hope you are there to catch me when I fly out the other side
Tuesday 23rd July 2019 12:37 am
i'm jealous of the wind that caresses your skin
each breath of air that you breathe in
i'm jealous of the birds that catch your eye
their flight so elegant across the sky
i'm jealous of the song that sticks in your head
and the cotton sheets that cover your bed
Friday 12th July 2019 8:17 pm
i was alone but not wanting
i was content in my solitude
i was enveloped by the quiet
i was cocooned in beauty and softness
i was safely cradled in silky comfort
i felt a stirring in the air, causing the gossamer to ripple around me delicately
i did not bristle
i felt at ease
i did not retreat
i felt myself expand
i lifted my head above the mists of my keep
Wednesday 10th July 2019 3:11 pm
here I come
moving faster than I ever imagined possible
careening toward what
I never know
you can't tell me
but here we go
I try to look out the window
everything flies by in a blur
I remember last time
off the road. over the cliff. out of my mind
when the dust settled I climbed the muddy bank and looked down at the wreckage, smoldering below
Tuesday 9th July 2019 5:04 pm
should we talk about the weather?
is there nothing more to say?
we said things would soon get better.
now it's all drifting away.
Friday 5th July 2019 8:01 am
Picking flowers in your garden
lamenting which to choose
I feel the mist dampen my cheeks
as the sky begins to bruise
"So winter finds me at last", I say
"On this bright and sunny morn."
All at once the clouds roll in
and in my haste I miss the thorn
Eyes forward, there it is in the distance
Trying to run but I meet resistance
The terror comes fast, through my veins it flows
Tuesday 2nd July 2019 12:23 am
she believes if she gives him what he wants
he will give her what she needs
she drapes herself in misery
fields sown with barren seeds
each morning when the sun comes up
she catalogues his deeds
dry promises that raped her soil
he digs until she bleeds
he finally crumples to the ground
there shall be no more thneeds
Monday 1st July 2019 4:46 pm
I rung to ask if you are okay
I wanted you to know that I am not
you tell me you are doing fine, then say you trust I am
you want me to lie to you, to say all is forgiven
yes, I can read between your lines
I pretend I believe you, and I say goodbye
I sit still, holding the phone and wondering
what went wrong
Friday 28th June 2019 6:15 pm
and it's the middle of the night where you are
but I'm here
wondering what you are dreaming about
Thursday 27th June 2019 3:23 am
I'm a cliché, a subtle curve in the great cycle of life.
I hold the same importance in the grand scheme of things
as a drop of water or a grain of sand,
yet an integral part of an ocean,
or a monolithic mountain boulder,
a particle of mist in a hurricane
Perhaps we take the form of a hybrid,
Thursday 27th June 2019 3:15 am
love inspires so many ifs
all of them are felt in different ways
each one felt and intended completely
each one flows like this milk
covering my morning cereal
(it will surely be too soggy to eat before I lift my spoon)
if I controlled the stars
I'd make them shine for you
if I kept time instead of losing it
my tea would not get col...
Thursday 27th June 2019 2:52 am
I seem to wear my heart upon or hidden up my sleeve,
always trying out new tricks but failing to deceive.
As the song says, "I'd rather be hard to love than easy to leave."
Tuesday 25th June 2019 1:04 am
A perfect match - strike anywhere.
A perfect love - what happened there?
I walked away without a care,
but turned and tripped on your last stare.
Monday 24th June 2019 11:01 am
when even sleep is not an option
you are what is left
Sunday 23rd June 2019 1:34 pm
and I wonder if there's someone else that you wish was giving you the attention that I am
and I wonder if you are giving someone else the attention that I wish you would give me
and I wonder why this imbalance follows me
always always nipping at my heels
and yet somehow manages to also remain
two steps ahead of me
this imbalance of desire
Monday 17th June 2019 12:11 am
"boop boop beep beep boop bup bip beep" go the alerts and synaptic responses
too fast to process, too repetitive to want to
"spit that out, it's toxic" I warned
as he slurped up drama in great mouthfulls, as if she were kool-aid
he would slice open a vein and welcome drama directly if she asked him to
surreptitious texting continues beneath the table
eyes downcast, thumbs flying ...
Sunday 16th June 2019 11:34 am
i am as a sapling in the shadow of a hundred year oak
try not to breathe, not to stir
i wish to remain unnoticed at the edge of your meadow
here in my solitude
i dare not disturb this perfect silence
inexplicable and deeper than night
nothing casting it
a black shadow wavers in the bright sunlight
it covers the the meadow floor
pulling at my curiosity I am lost in it's mystery
Sunday 16th June 2019 10:44 am
*Original date true, minor format edit in '²²
maybe you're amazed by mayhem. sweet mayhem.
chaos colored lipstick screams, tumultuous as she licks her lips
a wild and tangled disarray, her hair - a disheveled decadent disorder
cascading down past swaying hips
rolling, undulating as she slips
her thoughts into your consciousness
ideas driven by desire i...
Sunday 16th June 2019 10:34 am