Rudyard Kooistra on
7 hours ago
conceived in a cellar, of
a Tommy home on leave,
mother waving mistletoe,
shortly she would grieve
official dad inert upstairs
exempt due to his arches,
Tommy back to trenches
bullets or forced marches
killed in action in the mud
in my blood's a war hero,
official dad a profiteer,
moral fibre less than zero
the duality in mistletoe,
fertile of ...
Sunday 6th December 2020 11:31 am
[ ] Murder is to death; killing is for a thrill.
[ ] Souls corrupted broken with no will .
[ ] Life is revelant, so death let life live.
[ ] Death we must all face that's the deal.
[ ] Written in stone, stamped, & sealed.
[ ] Heart corroded body is ill.
[ ] Slowing heart beat the flesh is chill.
[ ] Heart stops to a sudden still.
[ ] Welcome to the Grim Reap...
Monday 30th November 2020 6:04 am
I can feel you,
thick in my throat,
threatening to consume me,
slithering through my mind and body,
wielding your alpha power,
making me weak.
I curse you, drown you,
in sunshine and sweet elixirs,
but you refuse to leave.
I am stronger than you think.
I order you and your invisible army
of pain, heartbreak, misery,
away from my cosmic energy.
I did not manifest you.
Wednesday 25th November 2020 4:28 pm
Get your affairs in order,
a familiar voice whispered
out of the blue.
Thanks for the warning,
but there is nothing
left to do.
No lingering love,
no financial strings,
no unsung songs.
Only one request, if I may.
Can we skip the drama?
I prefer a peaceful,
transfer of power.
Friday 20th November 2020 4:33 pm
On a cold winter's night
They sat, hand in hand
Ravaged by time
Old in design
In a digital age
Still in analogue love
Upon a wireless hub
Sitting on a park bench
Beneath a full moon
At the end of their time
Bodies poised to resign
As frost gathers around
They glisten as one
Old parchment defined...
Thursday 19th November 2020 3:49 pm
Your smile, your laughter was the light during the nighttime
Your touch, The way your fingers would caress my soul
Your voice , like soft melodies playing in my mind
Your time, if you had to say, it was well spent
Your life, was a gift; a small brown box draped in red ribbon
our memories are embedded in my heart
I can feel it as if it were now.
In memory of Chris...
Wednesday 11th November 2020 1:58 pm
We all reach that point in life
Where Halloween holds no magic
The ragged clothes and haggard looks
The pale of face and wrinkled mask
The wild unkempt hair of cobwebs
The brittle touch of ancient hand
The racing heartbeat
Pounding out its horror rhythm
The nervous look into dark corners
Death waiting across the grey veil
A cold sweat and night chi...
Friday 6th November 2020 2:08 pm
Somebody famous once said
That people aren’t afraid of being dead
They’re afraid of being forgotten
Whilst their bodies decompose smelling rotten
That is a lie
I know because I spy
People are afraid of the unknown
Afraid of what they haven’t been shown
No one knows what happens for sure
Just know when you die their is no door
Like when you’re asleep for hours witho...
Tuesday 3rd November 2020 1:35 am
“There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in.” ~ Leonard Cohen
Halloween frightens my inner child
who is afraid of masked men,
being alone in the dark,
daggers to the heart,
a body aging too soon,
but the hollow night
gives way to a full moon rising
and a million stars to wish upon,
ushered by angels beaming light
Sunday 1st November 2020 1:38 am
From the windswept clifftop
She could see below
Far below into the cove
Where lay, a body upon the sand
And, dragged by tide,
A waving hand
It swayed like the branch
Of a wind-laden tree
Come to me
Oh come to me!
A breath of chill
Now, caressed her skin
Whilst staring down at the cove
And the figure within
And upon her grasped
Wednesday 28th October 2020 5:37 pm
Through forests dark and shadowed vale
He follows the damnation trail
Along the river’s twisted course
Through bracken thick and clutching gorse
The ancient path cut through the land
He walks with devil’s hand in hand
And where his steps flatten the crops
No more will grow the wheat and hops
For he has footsteps cast in death
He steals the fa...
Wednesday 28th October 2020 12:25 pm
Where am i?
I ask my mindless brain as I disassociate
I disassociate to the point that everyday feels the same
Everything i do blends into one giant blob of nothingness
Nothing matters. Does it?
It doesn’t. Nothing has ever mattered.
That's why we alter our state of reality.
We alter it to feel something out of all the nothingness.
We take the shot. We take the h...
Monday 26th October 2020 6:13 am
Another crisp Autumn morning.
I wake before dawn,
hoping I won't think of you,
but I do. I always do.
Though you are not with me,
I feel you, in the brisk breeze,
spreading golden leaves,
on sacred ground.
Thursday 22nd October 2020 5:54 pm
Shimmering lights dance in her eyes
Shimmering lights cannot dispel
Like the fire inside my soul
A cold darkness that grasps at my soul
A velvet touch cannot disguise
Persistent beeps, and sanitised smells
Two hearts that yearn to be whole
Infesting a heart that I stole
Beneath the fabric of power and love
Unfaltering floors with a sinister gleam
Monday 12th October 2020 11:08 pm
This poem is deeply personal to me and is about my time I spent as a crisis worker helping people who were experiencing mental health emergencies or attempts of suicide. The subject of this poem is suicide; please know that its contents could be triggering. If you or someone you know and love are experiencing suicidal thoughts or need to reach out, please don't hesitate to talk to someone. You are...
Saturday 10th October 2020 7:40 am
I am the hunter of whispers.
I am the gatherer of brothers and sisters.
I am wind beneath wings, soaring in a summer sky.
I am the chiseled smile.
I am sparkles on snow.
I am a symphonic echo.
I am the horns and halo.
I am afterglow.
I am the you everyone wants to know.
I am everywhere you go.
I am the aha of heartbreak.
I am gamma rays beaming through dark days.
I am ...
Tuesday 6th October 2020 5:58 pm
Life is pure
Life is pure torture
Life is pure torture with you
Love is freedom
Love is freedom denied
Love is freedom denied by you
Hope is eternal
Hope is eternally gone
Hope is eternally gone in you
Death is coming
Death is coming fast
Death is coming fast for you.
Monday 5th October 2020 10:22 pm
Messiah Of The Fields
They left me hanging on a cross
The saviour of the summer crops
Just rag and straw so no great loss
My blood is in the wheat and hops
I faced the black and vicious hoard
Their coal cruel eyes and sharpened beaks
I am the ragged overlord
Who scares the crow yet never speaks
They pray to me to save their soils
From dark boned devils ...
Sunday 27th September 2020 11:21 am
Society is lost,
Consciousness is gone,
They have rejected their spirits,
It didn't take very long,
Yet physically farther than ever,
People don't want to face themselves,
It's a thought they dread to endeavor,
The clock is ticking,
Just take a deep breath,
Your losing your mortality,
The omnipresent threat of death,
Sunday 27th September 2020 7:48 am
You left nothing but your last breath that I cherish and hold dear
But tell me how I’m supposed to breathe when you’re not here
I’m constantly living in fear
The person who loved me the most just gone
But I can still hear her calling
I still hear her song
Everybody says life is too short but I think it’s too long
I don’t know if I’m going to see her again though I need her n...
Tuesday 22nd September 2020 5:31 pm
Our total deaths have ballooned since I wrote this and it was reported over and over on the news that sober total deaths of 31,000.. At first during lock down I felt quite prepared isolation isn't new for me but after learning all your life to get out then being pushed back inside all thoes early feelings resurface again.
Arriving later than a British...
Wednesday 16th September 2020 9:40 am
To The Saint Of Lost Causes
Brown sugar blues
In the same vein
As your father
But you never made it
Across the river
To the other side
When you combine
The names of flawed giants
Who have fallen by the wayside
More than once
There is a grim
You leave us
Those sweet moments
From the Tennessee sun
Tuesday 25th August 2020 2:36 pm
Life in a Kiss.
Sugar-sweet kisses on a bald baby’s crown,
all-comers love you raising dull frowns,
cheek peck kiss... hello my mum,
spit out that dodo, cuddles from gran,
a lift to school in dad’s meat van.
Ta-ra son... his coat smells of lamb,
won’t be a butcher, an also ran.
Bike shed babes’ promises
two-timed in two- tone
a huge let down.
Lend an ear to M...
Sunday 23rd August 2020 3:45 pm
Sunday 23rd August 2020 12:40 am
As originally published with Clay Literary's Raven: https://www.clayliterary.com/post/design-a-stunning-blog
‘Neath the blistering heat, California poppies cast
themselves to the hillside sun as wayward children
start to lose their breath, as you now fight for yours,
running to chase the summer blues away.
The young and old all begin to fail; heatwaves
take the lun...
Thursday 20th August 2020 7:50 pm
Shadows of a face I see
Pain oozing beyond every pore
mocking empty arms
Worthless words that shatter my core
Shadows reflect in the mirror for me
Dust resting in places not seen
Caress faded floors
Memories blurring from what could have been
Shadows saturate the world that I see
Dying embers of defeated hope
Thursday 20th August 2020 8:55 am
Cancer you came into our lives once before when you took my grandfather to his final resting place,
We only had a short time to spend with him, and it was hard to look him in his face,
My mama used to cry a lot; regrets, fears, and meaningful words, how hard it was for her to comprehend,
All she wanted was a few more years, without the hurt, pain, and overflow of tears,
The family ...
Tuesday 18th August 2020 10:48 pm
The day was hot
Hot and humid
Into a dog day afternoon
The boy was young
Young and stupid
Beneath the furnace sun
The tarn was cold
Cold and ruthless
Along the sunny banks
The swim was exhilarating
Exhilarating and cooling
And heading for the shore
Wednesday 12th August 2020 12:36 pm
Decades have passed.
The world has changed,
along with its people.
It no longer brings joy to my heart,
as it did in my time.
All because of them.
What happened to the days,
when the only thing one could do during a lovely day
was to step out the front door and pamper one's self
with the five senses that Mother Nature had provided?
Sunday 9th August 2020 12:57 pm
In the moonlit dreamtime as the
Warblers rest and stars kiss the midnight sky
I want to die
As the sun rises flirting seductively with
The horizon and cotton candy clouds
Tiptoe across the dawn
I want to die
In nameless parties with empty faces
And monsters growing with every sip of
Poison they ingest
I want to die
Thursday 16th July 2020 4:15 pm
Far above us
The sky bursts into colours-
Blue, purple, grey, orange,
With red and all the hues in its range.
Miles beneath our feet
Are secrets buried,
Arcane and deep.
Their ampoules once known to everybody.
What goes overhead
Suffuses stars and their milky shells.
The departure from earth melancholic but serene,
Leaves behind shimmering trails that spe...
Sunday 5th July 2020 2:45 pm
If the flames
do not turn your bones into ash
your bones will rot
deep in the ground
but only for Them
for You’ll come around
and as They’re carving into stone
You may walk again
through countless fields
and endless roads
They will remember you
for only a blink
of the Universe’s Eye
but the fields and roads
shall know You
for all Eternity
Wednesday 1st July 2020 10:49 am
At first they said ‘infect the herd’
but experts told us ‘that’s absurd,
you will cause deaths in the old.
What sort of shepherd risks the fold?’
So they put the cattle in the pen
only to be let out when
the time was right, or so they said,
they didn’t want their people dead.
The woolybacks baa’d and the daft cows moo’d
And farmer Boris calculate...
Friday 26th June 2020 1:52 pm
Resting his knee,
he holds his face
to bury his sobs
as she is laid to rest
We hold hands
as I gently squeeze
knowing too well
this may be our last embrace
Feeling his warmth,
his mighty strong hands,
he held us together
when she left this land
It’s only one slip away
before you’re gone too soon
On the drive home,
our last goodbye became true
Thursday 25th June 2020 4:16 am
The greatest things in life cannot be seen,
Like happiness, love and serenity,
Anger, malice, wrath and rage,
I'm sick of these feelings as I grow with age,
There's more to life than being locked up,
Slamming dope and running amuck,
Looking over my shoulders the paranoia doesn't stop,
The fun is all gone and the streets are too hot,
Life on the run has turn into a drag,
Wednesday 24th June 2020 11:09 am
There once stood a chocolate tree, a bearer of desires.
Its leaves melted when it inhaled passion.
Its fruits of fire
Set ablaze lands, verdant and barren.
Its bark was festooned in ribbons
Of rich gold and smooth caramel.
Like Midas' touch, gluttony abundant,
The tree was nothing short of magical.
I basked in the shadow of the canopy
Atop the chocolate capped grass bl...
Tuesday 23rd June 2020 7:57 pm
all nine deaths
the anti cat
Saturday 20th June 2020 12:46 pm
How many times do I have to kill you
as you run across the floor, damn you,
trying to frighten me with your creepy
crawly legs all working a magic and
carrying my pounding heart on your
little body suspended above the ground
taunting me, well my friend, I won’t
play your game anymore, I will not
kill you this time but let you run free
for you are free to run forever. Now...
Monday 15th June 2020 12:42 pm
The Truth Of Colour
The colour of humanity
Is not white skin
Or black skin
Not brown skin
Or yellow skin
It is the red blood
Of a beating heart
A blue shield
Is not the colour of humanity
When it takes a life
And all the greys
of muddled opinions
cannot change the truth
that a man could not breathe
because his skin colour
Saturday 6th June 2020 3:53 pm
As Homo Sapiens crushed the
Neanderthals so robots have got our
Measure its a matter of time before the
Take-over then no more humans
No death those endless crude
Historical blip and naturally
No health means no NHS
Imagine the savings!
Just an on/off switch where the
Mouth was no
Stone Age ventilators or
Expensive buggering about in
Wednesday 3rd June 2020 10:54 am
It has been two years today
Since I have had a fight with my then girlfriend
And, crying bitterly, I entered the living room
Replied to my father’s concerns
And let him know his daughter was dating a girl.
No wonder he hasn’t spoken to me since.
But, this poem isn’t about me
And nor is it about a cousin sister of mine
Whose phone was found in the living room
Full with smuts and gay storie...
Friday 29th May 2020 2:06 pm
I saw a young man kneel today
He hung his head as if to pray
But he would take a life away
To honour and protect they say
Another black man has to die
Before the country questions why
They let enforcers kill and lie
and let another mother cry
Fear and hate mix with malice
A city faces the abyss
A cocktail of vinegar and piss
On the streets o...
Thursday 28th May 2020 2:35 pm
My entrance on a pale horse
Raising the black standard with white rose
Is anathema to most
These bones are survivors
Of the battle between
The worlds of living and dead
This black armour
From the land of eternal sleep
The clergy, kings and peasants
Fall beneath my hooves
When she flips me over...
Wednesday 27th May 2020 11:29 am
The very machine that gives life
could easily take mine away
The piercing from exhaustion
punctures my living, my breathing
Every bodily function is affected
as I reach my hand towards the pulsing and thumping
racing through my chest
I don’t want this to be how I end
I can’t let my kids see their mother this way
I hold on tight to life as I feel my chest tightening
Tuesday 26th May 2020 5:05 am
My house is so full of empty spaces
where you used to eat, sleep and be
My days are now full of silence
because you are not here with me
My thoughts are full of worry
was it too soon to say goodbye
My eyes are still full of tears
I hope you didn't see me cry
My body is full of loneliness
you were my companion to the end
My memory is full of good times
Thursday 14th May 2020 1:48 pm
I can't take it,
I'm only asking,
Please Lord help me,
I'm tired of relapsing,
Over and over,
My veins are collapsing,
I know you hear me,
I'm sorry for babbling,
I don't understand,
Why this keeps happening,
I'm covering the pain,
It's so everlasting,
The hurt burns deep,
It never stops dragging,
Life is a slow death,
It's truly a sad thing,
Sunday 10th May 2020 3:20 pm
Lock-down's the best thing that
Ever happened to me.
No more mad commutes or
Pen-pushing, watching the clock
Among people I hate.
Out of the
Mindless hurly-burly with its
Endless fugues of anxiety I'm free
To take stock and
Think about my life
The humdrum marriage
A defunct love-life
Three ungrateful kids
The money I squandered
Friday 8th May 2020 11:19 am
Audio reading: https://soundcloud.com/tomalexwrite/renee-by-a-thread
Down the corridor, comes a scream
Was it physical pain
or the horror of finally learning
the way this game is turning
They took your clothes
gave you a gown
there was nothing to do but lay right down
Now, the machine breathes
hung by a thread and leaving soon
Faint flashes behind tired eyelids
Tuesday 5th May 2020 4:53 pm
You’re standing still at the top of a hill, the breeze gradually increasing, staring intently at he picturesque view of the voracious desert terrain that could ultimately devour you with a single touch. the breeze has been blowing, constantly blowing for many months, you forget what it was like to have still, calm air around you. But the breeze is picking up, you start shaking, not because of the ...
Thursday 30th April 2020 1:13 pm
I died yesterday
With a pen in one hand and a diary in the other.
The latter's pages were inlaid
With prints of my curry stained fingers,
And splotches of tea,
And smudges of ink,
And spools of memories,
And streams of ridiculous cravings.
I fashioned the contents with the loose threads
I'd been stockpiling since forever.
Vibrant, prismatic, but half-completed...
Friday 24th April 2020 5:59 pm