Poetry Blog by Brooke
Nicola Beckett on where is my mind (Mon, 12 Oct 2020 07:28 pm)
Nicola Beckett on small minds (Fri, 31 Jul 2020 06:30 am)
Nicola Beckett on big lots (Wed, 15 Jul 2020 12:13 am)
Nicola Beckett on one night (Wed, 8 Jul 2020 08:15 pm)
i DONT belong
i don’t belong here
i don’t belong anywhere.
i belong alone .
i belong dead.
no one understands me.
i go in groups and try to talk but nothing useful comes out.
i try to get people to like me but no one ends up liking me.
im so far in my own mind i can’t connect with anyone around me.
i hate myself. i hate who i am.
Thursday 12th November 2020 4:01 am
Where am i?
I ask my mindless brain as I disassociate
I disassociate to the point that everyday feels the same
Everything i do blends into one giant blob of nothingness
Nothing matters. Does it?
It doesn’t. Nothing has ever mattered.
That's why we alter our state of reality.
We alter it to feel something out of all the nothingness.
We take the shot. We take the h...
Monday 26th October 2020 6:13 am
You stuck your fingers up me and didn’t even know my name
You grabbed my ass and blamed it on the drink in your hand
You kissed my neck and pulled me into you
I was yours for the night---that one night.
I was too drunk and you knew. Yet you kept going
You kept going down on me further and further.
My bra somehow came off and you began to suck
I didn’t know what was going ...
Monday 12th October 2020 5:12 pm
i invite you in my life to feel something again
to turn my numbness into happiness;
you are my happiness
you make me my happiest
no one loves me as much as you do.
day in and day out i consume your love and affection.
soaking up every last bit. the feeling of feeling something for someone again excites my soul.
feeling anything is so hard these days.
but then i a...
Wednesday 30th September 2020 7:29 am
small minded girl
small minded little girl
never a good thought in her mind
she spends all day imagining dumb stuff in her stupid little mind
everything she thinks means nothing
her perspective is useless in the eyes of everyone besides herself
dumb, stupid, air-head they call her
degrading her day by day
stripping every last thought from her microscopic mind
causing her to conform...
Sunday 26th July 2020 10:30 pm
he wakes up everyday---but only for them.
he showers, eats, and goes to work---but only for them.
he holds back his sadness and depression---but only for them.
he doesn't want his useless and meaningless state of life to affect their outlook. if anything they should be happy.
although he never hugs or says i love you, they know.
although he never showed up to any of her games, she s...
Monday 13th July 2020 8:31 am
a long silence fills the room---piercing my lonesome ears with pain
there she is
sad, distant, lonely staring at me dead in the eyes
her mouth opens and screams
no sound comes out.
theres not a way out for her.
i turn back around, taking a deep breath to tiredly dress my face with a sense of geniality. perfect i say to myself.
Monday 13th July 2020 8:12 am
i drive by the place we used to spend hours at, in the back of the car . up on that shitty hill behind my work.
i still feel the musty hands wrap tightly around my ill-ridden waist. teenage love they say.
love is hooking up in the back of a Ford F-150 with Joji playing in the background. love is pretending to be infatuated when in reality they want you to get them off. that is all.
Monday 13th July 2020 8:02 am
one touch, two touch enough to get a taste
three touch, four touch enough to feel the waste
five touch, six touch i like you now
seven touch, eight touch don’t put me down
nine touch, ten touch this is a mistake
eleven touch, twelve touch is this really fake?
thirteen touch, fourteen touch i really need to go
fifteen touch, sixteen touch thank you for the show
Tuesday 7th July 2020 10:50 pm
the time he grabbed my ass
he never asked.
just because I'm nice doesn't make it okay
i didn't know what to say I just let it drift away
because who really gives a shit if I was inappropriately touched
no one. no one cares about anything. this life we live is pointless and people treat other people so poorly for no reason with no shits to give. I don't understand how people can liv...
Tuesday 7th July 2020 9:22 am
is seen as attractive but sometimes that is all guys see
they want to have sex and leave just because I have a decent body
they don’t care about who I am as a person or what I like to do or any of it
they are just nice to me to use me
and i fall for it
i fall for the fake charm. the elusiveness of being wanted pulls me in and then i face plant when i realize the...
Tuesday 7th July 2020 9:17 am
powdered, light-tinted dust strokes the crevices of her porcelain face.
red liquid plasters the outside of her perfectly shaped lips.
black goo strikes the thick corners of her luscious eyelashes.
the girl staring back at her she does not recognize.
Perfect. Beautiful. Good. the voices in her head say.
A faint smile warms her face;
painted, covered, and disguised in the lies...
Thursday 15th November 2018 3:46 pm
Cut deep into my flesh.
Tear me apart like a pig being slaughtered.
Take my heart and rip it to shreds
Make me feel again.
Tell me endearing lies.
Look into my eyes.
Paint me in the skys.
Take me in between the lines.
Show me your sorrow.
Show me everything.
Thursday 30th August 2018 4:41 am
It shattered across the floor
I knew this was coming, it was no surprise
I couldn’t take it anymore
Oh, the fire in his eyes
His hand against my neck
His breath against my cheek
I pulled away hoping not to wreck
Yet his presence felt so meek
The way he talked to me
The way he spat on the ground
The way he grabbed my knee;
It had me all turned around
Tuesday 20th March 2018 4:29 am