Poetry Blog by Vautaw
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Willpower and Discipline
Willpower and discipline,
have long been two of the
most despised words in the
english language to me.
What character flaw prevents
the willpower and discipline
necessary to be the person
I imagine myself capable of being?
A half-lived life is heartbreaking.
There is no acceptable excuse,
not age or disability.
Even people with no limbs
live empowered lives
built on willp...
Saturday 12th October 2019 3:29 am
Abandoned
Feeling down
because my muse
abandoned me again.
Maybe to teach me
another lesson
about leaning on him,
instead of mining inspiration
from deep within.
Seeking satisfaction
outside ourselves
is perhaps the greatest sin.
It is a game no one wins.
So, back to the blank page I go.
Just me and my pen.
Friday 11th October 2019 3:40 pm
Betrayed
While the world
goes about their day
talking about trival things,
laughing their troubles away,
I am struck with
paralyzing pain
that I try to contain.
Everyone close to me
is oblivious
to my suffering.
Why should they care?
They have their own
drama to deal with.
There is nothing
anyone can do anyway.
Meanwhile, my body
betrays me more
each passing day.
I want t...
Friday 11th October 2019 5:25 am
Moments
Do you ever want to
hold on to a moment
because it feels divine?
A moment when the stars align,
and everything is fine.
A moment when you make peace
with your past, and your pain.
A moment when there is
no sorrow, no shame.
A moment when fear
takes a hike.
A moment when the sky is clear,
the air is forgiving,
and sun shines bright.
A moment when everything
feel...
Wednesday 9th October 2019 5:41 am
A Love Letter to My Muse
All day long
I think of you.
I can’t wait to get home
to be with you,
to feel your ink drip
between my fingers.
You are my love,
my passion,
my muse.
I know you will
never leave me.
We are bound
by a legacy of words,
that braids our soul.
Our poetry echoes
through time and space,
leaves a soft place
for broken hearts to land.
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...Monday 23rd September 2019 5:40 am
Silent Light
Hello silence, my old friend.
It's good to embrace you
once again.
No flashing phones.
No clashing tones.
No distracting memes.
No broken dreams.
Just breathing in gratitude,
marinating the moment,
exhaling ego,
connecting to the prophet within.
Listening, learning, loving,
awakened
by the naked light you bring.
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Sunday 15th September 2019 11:48 pm
At Last
I can’t believe I found you at last. I haven’t seen you since I was 17.
A few times I felt you near, but couldn’t see you because I was blinded by my attachment to shining knight fairy tales, white picket fences, and the American dream.
What a relief to know you never really left. You have been here all along, patiently waiting for me...
to smile at my reflection in the mirror.
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Sunday 15th September 2019 4:04 am
Interpretive Dance
Shoo,
go away.
I only want young, thin, pretty girls
to look my way.
I don't care if they have anything
intelligent to say.
I just want them to ooh and awe
at my game.
Of course I have no shame,
my past is to blame.
Yes, this dance could drive
the thinker insane.
So, leave with your dignity,
while I toss back another one,
and twirl my ring.
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https://yo...
Thursday 12th September 2019 4:03 pm
Can We Pretend
Can we pretend
social media highlights
are every day life.
Can we pretend
children aren't starving,
neglected or abused.
Can we pretend
Mother Earth will
pardon our plundering.
Can we pretend
animals don’t suffer
for our gluttonous pleasure.
Can we pretend
greed doesn't
fuel disease.
Can we pretend
God is real and
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Saturday 7th September 2019 1:02 am
Delusions of Grandeur
How can you adore me one day
and forget I exist the next?
Was I just another notch
in your belt?
Why can’t you see that your world is
darker without me,
the one who loves you
unconditionally.
Someday it will all make sense.
Meanwhile, I’ll keep convincing myself
you still care.
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Saturday 31st August 2019 4:27 am
Spanish Rose
My beautiful Spanish Rose,
the most fragrant flower
in a crowded garden,
withstanding harsh winters
and choking weeds
to remain
unplucked.
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Tuesday 27th August 2019 6:32 pm
Go for the Glow
Go for the glow
of good health.
Go for the glow
of a clear conscious.
Go for the glow
of forgiveness.
Go for the glow
of dreaming fearlessly.
Go for the glow
of giving generously.
Go for the glow
of loving unconditionally.
Go for the glow
of a life well lived.
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Friday 16th August 2019 4:41 pm
Third Eye Blind
Mind spinning faster than a cyclone.
Do this, do that ad infinitum.
Worry about things beyond my control
until the scowl line blinds my third eye.
Waste life surfing the net,
following every link that promises to take me higher,
faster, farther than the languid loop of my existence.
Why does it never seem enough?
I long to escape the stoic-ease,
walk hand-in-hand among redwood t...
Tuesday 6th August 2019 7:26 am
My Entity
Wherever I go,
there you are.
I see you
in stormy skies.
I feel you
in twilight.
I smell you
among the pines.
I hear you
whispering at night.
I taste you
in the words of every love poem.
You are nowhere to be found,
yet always around.
My entity,
you are the part of me I long to set free.
Monday 29th July 2019 3:50 am
Good for You
Good for you,
found your flow.
Good for you,
got that healthy glow.
Good for you,
navigating storms like a willow.
Good for you,
used your pain as fuel to grow.
Good for you,
no more living on tiptoe.
Good for you,
no longer afraid of the scarecrow.
Good for you,
escaped the tornado.
Good for you,
found your rainbow.
Good for you,
taking time to...
Sunday 26th May 2019 9:10 pm
Father
You ask if I believe in God...
How can I not?
To deny my Father
means I leave my existence
to some 30 year old predator
who impregnated a girl half his age
and left her to raise their child
in the wilderness, among wolves
that feed on loneliness and despair.
Without my Father, I would never know
that after suffering comes deliverance,
pain leads to compassion,
forgiveness breaks b...
Sunday 19th May 2019 7:16 pm
Daughter
Forgive me, for not
being the mother
you needed me to be.
For being too busy,
too naive to see
what was happening
in front of me.
For being silent
when your father
screamed and demeaned.
For when I thought it
was sweet that your
boyfriend carried you
to your room when you
"fell asleep".
For not enough hugs
and too many lectures.
For not seeing the signs
of addict...
Friday 17th May 2019 3:29 pm
Mother
You neglected me,
didn’t protect me,
abandoned me,
chose an abusive man
over your children...
I forgive you.
I give you the
unconditional affection
never afforded me,
because I love you
despite everything
and I don’t want
the past having
power over me.
Thursday 16th May 2019 9:35 pm
Moral Abyss
Meet me in the
moral abyss,
the interwebs
of eternal bliss,
where we will
confirm our love
with virtual kiss.
Saturday 11th May 2019 7:51 pm
Twisted Love
Love once bloomed
like a fragrant flower
in eternal spring.
Through years of
torrential summer tears,
then droughts,
the scent faded.
All that seemingly remains
are scorched petals that drop
like dead leaves in fall.
But, far beneath
the frozen surface,
intertwined roots run deep...
Making our twisted love
hardy, to weather the
toughest seasons.
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Wednesday 8th May 2019 1:57 am
Poetry Understands
Poetry understands
walking dead,
monsters under the bed,
voices in your head.
Poetry understands
wounded souls,
storms, walls,
severed rainbows.
Poetry understands
broken hearts,
rainy days, lonely nights,
moon light.
Poetry understands
star-crossed love,
hopeless romances,
second chances.
Poetry understands
twin flames
guilt, shame,
the blame game.
Poetry understand...
Wednesday 17th April 2019 12:09 am
Wild Life
Life is too full of people
willing to share their soul
to focus on those who
aren’t open to your light.
You were meant to soar with eagles,
not wallow with nocturnal wildlife.
While they may be beautiful,
mysterious, alluring,
they thrive in darkness,
a place you escaped long ago.
Friday 12th April 2019 4:35 pm
Shepherds
When I was 7 years old, I went with my mother to visit her friend. I heard a dog bark when we knocked on the door. I love doggies! "Where's your doggie?" I asked. "I put him out back. He's an old police dog and isn't used to kids."
"Stay away from him," my mother warned.
Despite her warning, I went in search of the doggie and found him chained to a stake in the ground, head down, dark eyes...
Friday 12th April 2019 4:37 am
Mortality
Mortality stalks me
like a jealous lover.
Breathlessly follows me
wherever I go, incessantly
banging a gong,
chanting,
it won't be long,
come to me, let
the pain end.
My eternal soul sees
this game of mortal gods
and challenges me
to go where mortals
fear to tread...
Meditate in silent space
past the black hole,
beyond illness,
depression, despair
to that ...
Tuesday 9th April 2019 5:35 pm
The Writer's Plight
For some, the writer's plight may be staring at a blank page, fear of rejection, or resistance presented in various forms. For me, the writer's plight is being available morning, noon, and night to welcome a steady stream of pop-in visitors with expectations of providing conversation, cooking, cleaning, even childcare for hours on end.
With a Mona Lisa smile, I weigh the importance of what my d...
Tuesday 9th April 2019 4:23 am
Fools
Fool me once
shame on you.
Fool me twice
shame on me.
Fools forever
chasing love
and destiny.
Think it through
before you give up
friendship
for a moment
in the sun
on the sinking ship
of fools.
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Tuesday 2nd April 2019 6:55 pm
A Poem a Day
Oh NaPoWriMo
how you challenge me.
Calling me to rhyme on time
when I would rather procrastinate
with this talent of mine.
A poem a day keeps the doldrums away.
Read it, write it, recite it,
makes no difference
to me.
Just do what you can
with what you've got
and see how happy
you will be!
Monday 1st April 2019 5:46 pm
Kintsugi
Precious china,
shattered
after the fall.
No longer valued,
or wanted at all.
Enter the ancient
mending art of
Kintsugi,
where the broken pieces
are filled with gold.
Alas, they are stronger
than before,
a sight to behold.
How befitting God
did the same thing for me.
Filled my shattered heart
with His love, mended me.
Kintsugi.
It’s stronger now.
withstands...
Monday 1st April 2019 2:57 am
Dear Muse
Hide away
if you must.
I don't understand
what prompts you
to surface anyway.
I will do like I always do,
show up on the page,
stumble through what
I was put on earth to do,
share my truth.
I know even though you
fly away again and again
to do whatever muses do,
you will come back,
when I least expect
and light up my soul
with your beautiful words,
like you alwa...
Wednesday 27th March 2019 8:25 pm
Love Lessons
He loves her but,
she loves him,
but he loves the mirror
like his lost love loves selfies.
Adoration, pointing every direction,
like weather vanes in a hurricane.
Each unware their
love affair
is bound to end.
Love lessons often repeat
until we understand that
real love begins within,
then overflows to others,
making the circle of love
complete.
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Tuesday 26th March 2019 3:39 am
Creators
You are a creator.
I am a creator.
I created you
and you created me.
Together we create
our destiny.
Will we fill our life
with strife or harmony.
Will we hide behind fear and doubt
or flesh our gifts out.
It is up to you.
It is up to me.
To be all we created
ourselves to be.
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Monday 25th March 2019 3:08 pm
Love, Me
Beautiful dreamer
take solace with me
and a soft melody.
I will soothe you,
woo you,
set your spirit free.
You are never alone
when you love me.
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Sunday 24th March 2019 2:12 am
Gilded Cage
Time after time
I give you another chance
to prove you still care.
You respond with
the venomous bite
of a rattlesnake.
How much more
poison can I take
before I am consumed
by the same dark spirit
that possesses you?
I know I should run
far away
but I have convinced myself
of the old cliche...
better the devil you know
than the devil you don't.
I know what to ex...
Saturday 23rd March 2019 1:44 am
Enlightenment
Every time I think I have become enlightened and can handle anything, a new challenge shows up to test me. Whether it's toxicity in my body, family illness or death, rejection of a lover, friend, stranger, job, point of view, whatever... ego is the first to show up on the scene, like a paramedic giving CPR to revive my pride. Pride dies, only to come back a little weaker next round, like a cat wit...
Wednesday 13th March 2019 9:45 pm
Dear Poet
I wish you could
see yourself
as I see you.
You see
an outcast,
rebel without a cause.
I see
a tormented soul
with so much potential.
Silver-tongued sage,
healing hearts
with the flick of a pen
on a tattered page.
Tuesday 5th March 2019 10:41 pm
Wild Flowers
In the blue-green meadow
of my silent soul,
scorpion grass -
dormant for decades,
now grows wild and free,
sustaining me,
spreading love
for the aching world
to behold its beauty.
Monday 25th February 2019 3:27 am
Super Snow Moon
Super Snow Moon tell us
the secrets you keep
when you orbit earth
as we sleep.
Tell us it is
an optical illusion
adding to our mass confusion.
Tell us of war and peace,
famine and feast.
Tell us please...
How are we so different
when it's the same moon we see?
Oh Supermoon, how we hunger for
your guiding light from above
to fill us with w...
Wednesday 20th February 2019 4:39 am
Clouds
One of my favorite games
to play as a child
was seeing shapes
in the clouds:
Dogs, cats,
elephants, giraffes,
airplanes, unicorns...
It was one of the
few pleasures
of my childhood.
As I grew up,
I began to see
scarier things:
Dragons, demons,
torn hearts,
flaming arrows...
Now in the archway
of my golden years,
I see beauty that
brings me to tears:
Sunday 17th February 2019 7:18 pm
Becoming
If you become
what you think about
most of the time...
I am becoming
poetry, a lyrical
fantasy floating
in rhyme.
I am becoming
love and light,
Doing my best
to do what's right.
I am becoming
forgiveness
and peace.
Healing souls
like Wayne
and Louise.
I am becoming
who God intended
me to be.
Leaving a loving
legacy.
I am becoming
free.
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...Saturday 16th February 2019 1:56 am
Stupid Cupid
I see you lurking about
making him say
sweet nothings
to lure me out.
This time
I am being smart,
walling off
my broken heart.
Using your
flaming arrows
to paint the sky.
Let the world know
you are really
not a nice guy.
You are a trickster
who makes girls cry
with your stupid lies.
My schooled soul
knows the truth
betrayed.
Romantic love
is an illusion,
pas...
Friday 15th February 2019 2:40 am
Echoes of Life
What are the chances
of two lost souls
light-years apart
colliding twice in life?
Astronomical. Yes!
The dance is sweeter,
with ego out of the way.
All that remains is love
purified by the same rock-bottom
pressure that turns grains of sand into
pearls, coal into diamonds.
Not lustful love, agape.
Godly, unconditional love for humanity.
Forgiving. Acce...
Thursday 14th February 2019 3:37 pm
Ghosting
He ghosted me,
then I ghosted too.
Maybe ghosting
spreads like the flu.
Leaves the ghosted
feeling sick and blue
when a loved one
suddenly starts ignoring you.
You haven't a clue
what to do.
So, you stay in bed,
with the covers over your head
wishing you were dead
so you can get some relief
from the ghosting disease.
Eventually, you get up
sal...
Wednesday 13th February 2019 5:06 pm
Sad Eyes
Are you sure you want to know
the story behind my sad eyes?
Can you handle truth
buried in lies?
Abused, abandoned,
left for dead.
Still, I raise my
weary head.
Hoping against all odds
for love and a warm bed.
Tuesday 12th February 2019 4:41 am
Soul Mates & Muses
You found your
soul mate?
I’m genuinely
happy for you!
Mermaids
and unicorns
are more common
than soulmates.
Please, do the lost
and lonely among us
a favor of great
significance,
Make her
your muse
so we can
feel love too.
Sunday 10th February 2019 4:21 am
Oasis
What a welcome relief
your tender words are
to my weathered soul.
I get so busy in life
tending to other’s needs
that I often neglect my own.
But when I come to the
oasis of serenity and
see a good heart reflected,
my faith in love is restored.
Saturday 9th February 2019 1:48 am
Soul Flames & Star Dust
I am sorry
to see you go,
but know you
will fare well.
You survived hell
and have a great
story to tell.
I know our paths
were meant to cross
and count your departure
as a big loss.
Even though you may
drift far away,
your essence remains.
Our lives are
forever changed
from your soul flames
and star dust.
Friday 8th February 2019 3:49 pm
Cha-Chi Legacy
I inhale the tears
welling up in my eyes.
Feeling like I don't have
the right to cry for
letting so much time go by
without saying hi,
how are you doing,
what's new in your life?
I "kept in touch"
watching your
adventures
on social media,
restoring
power
after a
hurricane,
providing water
and food for
people who didn't
know your name.
I was proud of you,
...
Monday 4th February 2019 4:04 am
Dancing with Addiction
How do you help
loved ones that
insist on
tap dancing
with the demon
of addiction?
I want to scold
them like a child
for their own good,
but I know it
would fall
on deaf ears.
I want to hold them
tight, tell them
everything will
be alright, but
they aren't buying
that lie.
Is my only option
to waltz around
my candy-coated world
and watch them
self-destruct?
I...
Friday 1st February 2019 8:32 pm
Kings and Scribes
How easy it is to judge
from the throne of
self-righteousness.
How comforting to
cast off what
doesn't fit our
moral code.
Perspective is
colored by our own
evolution and lingering
insecurities.
The soul of a scribe
cannot help but
share truths
that set spirits
free, no matter
the cost of their
own liberty.
Friday 1st February 2019 7:41 pm
Match Point
Standing your turf
wielding a giant pen.
Power serving words,
determined to win.
Into the net,
foot-faulted
out of bounds,
disqualified.
Will you be the
pinnacle of calm
or pull a McEnroe?
Steady your pace
or steamroll every
opponent you face?
Time tames
the temper
as many
professionals
know.
Love,
match point,
grow.
Thursday 31st January 2019 6:56 pm
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