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The Angels
I saw the footsteps of an angel
Within the deep pools of blood
No one noticed the scarlet halo
Because angels are meant to be good
No one mourned the demons
No one shed a tear
No one noticed the angels descend
Until there was nothing to feel but fear
The angels smiled as they hurt you
And laughed as our children cried
There were no demons left to save the pe...
Sunday 10th December 2017 8:52 pm
Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #18 {He Just Don't Realize That I Still Care}
{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #18} {He Just Don't Realize That I Still Care}
He treats me like
I never really even
existed to him even
when I did `n` now wish
I didn't exist to him
but in his reality I
don't or never did but
I still do care though
`n` he doesn't care about
me or never really did
because if he did he
would at...
Sunday 10th December 2017 10:26 am
Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #6 {His Rhythm}
{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #6} {His Rhythm}
His rhythm of
his songs played
like the sickest
twisted dead of a
deafening whistling
whisper's through
the cold northern
lights that only
the animals could
hear that kept
them howling
by the bay from the
amusement of his
meaningless song
that continues to
play his sickened
twist...
Saturday 9th December 2017 5:01 am
Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #4 {No More Love Here}
{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #4} {No More Love Here}
No more love here
No more time for
you here
No more loyalty
here for you
No more of my
valuable time for
you
No more hearing
my say I love you
too
No more of me
holding you tight
all night because
that's now long
gone `n` so
through
No more of me
having to listen
...Saturday 9th December 2017 3:25 am
We Stand Army Strong
{We Stand Army Strong}
We stand under the American flag with us being stronger than before because we are united and Army Strong
But when thing's gets dicey outside around us we pick ourselves back up two by two while filing out of the doorway two by two with our weapons in our hands with our military brother's and sister's standing strong by our side even while we may be un...
Thursday 7th December 2017 8:38 pm
Black And White
A hundred thoughts in my mind
Yet struggling to pen down some lines.
There is this rainbow, all over me;
But I am all white
Just being black and white.
Bullet is cheaper than love;
Tears wiping away smiles.
Death winning over life;
But I am alright,
Just being black and white.
A hundred arrows pierced my heart;
Haven't split a pint of blood, yet
Gazin...
Thursday 7th December 2017 4:54 pm
I Will Not Let You Beat Me Down
{I Will Not Let You Beat Me Down}
Darling I won't
let you beat me
down and it's
high time that
this cowgirl
picks herself back
up off of the
ground and get
to moving on
down the long
lonesome road as
I kick the hell
out them blues
you have got me
going through
and now it's time
to forget all
about you
little
darling
...
Thursday 7th December 2017 2:44 am
No Guarantees
{No Guarantees}
There's no guarantees
that you actually ever
loved me at all
And
There's no guarantees
that you was even
worth my tears over
these year's
And I'm not gonna cry
and I sure as hell ain't
gonna shed no more
tears for you since
you left me to be with
her and tore my world
apart while breaking and
wreckin...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 11:02 pm
My Forever Sleeping ? Angel Daughter Lily
{My Forever Sleeping ? Angel Daughter Lily}
My forever sleeping angel daughter Lily as her eyes became to heavy to hold open any longer because she heard Jesus calling her home so she cried out one last time and took one big gasp of air into her tiny lungs and then she was gone and now me or her daddy's life isn't never gonna be the same because we don't have beautiful our little Lily...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 9:35 pm
She's Trying
{She's Trying}
She's trying to forget:
She's trying truly to
force herself to
forget about the
conversations
between them
She's trying so hard
to forget his voice
She's trying to forget
how he made her laugh
even though she felt like
she's was dying on
the inside
She's trying to forget
all the beautiful
romance...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 3:59 pm
The Awaited Love Of A Lifetime
{The Awaited Love Of A Lifetime}
This shy girl awaited
for the love of her
lifetime to come a
long into her lonely
life that made this
delicate ? rose
stays so closed off
to the outside world
around her and even
more so to men
because the way she
has been hurt before
so she closed the
doors for finding her
love of a lifetime and
she me...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 3:32 pm
She Misses Him Badly
{She Misses Him Badly}
They shared something
so beautiful and something
so deep and true but that
was so truthful lustful love
affair ended to soon because
he didn't believe her so she
went on her way no matter
how much she cared or loved
him and so much she wanted
to stay but she knew that
they would only hurt each
other in the end and they
did bec...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 7:33 am
I'm About To Lose My Mind
{I'm About To Lose My Mind}
I'm about ready
to lose my cotton
picken mind
because the same
pain each day when
I open my eyes
is about ready to
drive this
woman totally insane
because the throbbing,
aching, blurred
vision, sensitivity
to light and
sounds along with
the headache on top
of a bad migraine headach...
Monday 4th December 2017 5:11 pm
The Pain
{The Pain}
There is pain in my? heart that always hurts so deep that it never departs from my aching? heart
And it's the pain of us being apart
A bad pain of our two heart's being so broken and torn apart
That never makes it's final departure
©One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer/Tina Glover 12/01/2017 all rights reserved
Friday 1st December 2017 11:02 am
I Did Once Love Him
{I Did Once Love Him}
It seems like a million year's ago now that I did love him but the everescents of his memory lingers with me today the ? heartache never seems to disappear from my world as this isn't what I expected in the end but I guess it wasn't never a guaranteed any more than he gave me which was nothing but endless heartaches and in the end it was a bad hurtful dream that is s...
Thursday 30th November 2017 2:30 am
Haven't Changed
HA! I guess I haven't changed since then. All these schemes and dreams in my head of me doing something impossible to win you back. Wrong choice of words. To open you to me once more.
Once I daydreamt that I somehow got in touch with Al Barr and we went drinking up in Edmonton at your favorite bar every day for a week until you strolled in. You were star struck, Al was a cool wingman, you fell ...
Tuesday 21st November 2017 12:45 am
don't burn.
to you,
i am nothing.
every memory
every laugh
every smile
every tear
every mistake
every argument
every compliment
is nothing.
i could never compare
to weed
according to you.
i could never compare
to autism and down syndrome jokes
according to you.
my love for you
the fact that you're my best friend
the things you've help...
Sunday 19th November 2017 1:18 am
I hope. I want. I remember.
I hope you think of me every night in your dreams.
I hope you see me in everyone you date.
I hope you wish I would come back.
I hope you see me and feel the pain I felt while we were together.
I hope you hear my cries, feel my pain and see my tears.
I hope every time you close your eyes you see me with him.
I want you to hate yourself for everything you’ve done to me
I wa...
Monday 13th November 2017 10:27 am
The messages
What words have passed
What said
What read
What meaning cast?
What recall flows
What thought
What tort
What grievance shows?
What edge is crossed
What line
What sign
What friendship lost?
What nightmare grown
What meme
What seam
What darkness sown?
What text is read
What hyped
What typed
What despair fed?
What lov...
Wednesday 18th October 2017 2:22 pm
Ice
Angel to ghost
I go
alone
the night cold
heavy heart torn
rain hails bones
brutal ache my mistake
always alone
always alone
trying trying
to go back in time
to a place in my mind
paradise denied
burning inside
blue ice fire
cracks a pain so deep
only sounds like these
evoke awake demons
buried brittle knees
signal transmits
a radio waves
echo cellos past
...
Saturday 14th October 2017 5:25 am
One Moment
I fell for you.
I loved you.
I opened my heart and soul to your infinite worlds of possibility.
I touched you.
I held you.
I felt safe and secure in the sacred silence of your arms.
But you were scared.
You were closed.
Meeting every tender word with thought rather than feeling.
You could have been the one,
But now you're just one moment.
Wednesday 4th October 2017 8:10 pm
My Mind Is My Own
My mind is my own
But it’s thought are foreign
Their nature is a conquest of deception
Forcing perception to be an abstract idea and a tangled question
Sanity is now an opinion within itself
[no one in their right mind can understand it, and no one out of it can claim it.]
Truth no longer means
And anything is just a dream
Absence is more concrete
For it clears my mind ...
Tuesday 3rd October 2017 9:28 am
i know!
i know that it's gonna be alright
i know, that at one point i won't have to fight
i know, that there is gonna be day, when i won't think of you
i know, i wont cry a tear, even a few
i know, that i will laugh harder than ever
and only feel better and better
and for the most, i know, that i am going to love
even more than i loved you
only at this time
i will be loved back ...
Sunday 1st October 2017 8:15 pm
I see why love is red.
I can’t tell you.
But last night, you entered my chest
for play, some kind of game, like ‘Operation’
and then I couldn’t sleep
I jolted – shivered – jerked – quirked,
now my eyes don’t close
and my body is a pulse,
you tiptoed across my ribcage,
leaving foot prints enlaced by landmines,
you slept on my lungs,
short wired my arteries,
you clipped the circuits of my ...
Wednesday 27th September 2017 2:10 am
Wednesdays lost
Wednesdays Lost As “The” day draws nearer Spirits sink lower Fears rise, higher. Not completely sure why, It’s as if we expect something…or “That” to happen again… Anything worse…is impossible! Still so unbelievable _ surreal almost. Two months short of a year And we continue to struggle to grasp the fact_ You’re gone! How do you go about planning an Angel Day…? When you can’t believe… Yet reg...
Friday 22nd September 2017 7:24 pm
Carry On
Carry on
Sometimes I can't even talk
I just want to be left alone
With my own thoughts
Other times I don't want to be on my own
I just want someone to hold me
And make me feel safe and at home
Sometimes I can barely walk
I just want to stay in bed all day
Hoping the pain will go away
Other times I want to fight it and carry on
Even though I know it might bring a flare up on
The p...
Friday 22nd September 2017 5:07 pm
Feel Like I'm Crazy
Feel Like I'm Crazy
The doctor tells me "it's Fibromyalgia"
I've never heard of it before
But I think finally I have an answer
For all of my pain
But it doesn't take me long to decipher
It's something that they can't explain
Do they think that I'm insane?
They don't understand it
There is no cure
It's a curse not an answer
And I don't know how much more of this I can endure
They ...
Friday 22nd September 2017 5:04 pm
Red
My head is full of numbers,
my heart is full of dread
if I go from black to blue
all the rhymes
will come out new.
Red bleeds to yellow
and all the numbers are blue
the three comes in threes and
makes the nine incomplete and
the moon tells the secrets
I'm not meant to keep
it's a message of the future
and the past complete.
A half yellow star sharp
pierces my art.
The ...
Thursday 21st September 2017 5:39 pm
Words
Words, the only thing that connects me to you
Through words I figured out the things that you do
Words you want to say to the girls that you loved that are too good to be true
Words that I read just like the lyrics of my favorite songs
I figured their is a list of the girls in your heart
You fall too easy something that is common with my heart
I don't know how many times I hoped for an us
...
Monday 11th September 2017 2:44 pm
Helpless Still
Six months, ten days have passed Yet nothing has changed
Time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains Tears constant
Helpless still…
Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride Not one you enjoy…
But the dreaded kind… Where every uncertain second So unkind
One day bearable… The next, a bottomless pit…
Falling, Anger overwhelming Emptiness always …
Helpless still
...Sunday 10th September 2017 11:51 am
Kohl
Kohl By : Mirza Sharafat
night has enveloped, to give me some relief
now invisible are walls of separation, and thy grief
where blood quenches the thirst
disloyalty is faith last and first
is the religion my beloved belongs to
I beckoned, red and bla...
Monday 28th August 2017 12:26 pm
Written whilst listening to Solange: Don't touch my hair
My wound is dark
My wound is deep
My wound is disasterous
My wound comes everywhere
My wound won't heal
My wound is my nightmare
My wound bleeds
My wound cries
My wound is infected
My wound hurts
My wound seeps
My wound wripped further
You can't see my wound
I can feel my wound
Nobody cares about my wound
Monday 24th July 2017 1:24 pm
A Poem for Every Night
Is there something wrong with me?
No forget it, don't answer.
I don't need the diagnosis,
There's no need to say it,
Not even a whisper...
As the moon rises, the sky darkens...
It can't be helped.
As the place grows dark and time passes,
In this quiet home,
I start to feel alone.
The sinking feeling starts...
It's only 9pm and I feel alone.
Who can I...
Tuesday 18th July 2017 2:36 am
Grotesque decadence
A small piece I wrote while sitting by the river today, I actually hand wrote about 5 of these and left them at all the surrounding buildings haha !
The river dances, An iridescent reflect the sun shines as it mirrors and presents
A cinematic silhouette
Birds glide, dive into the depths, lizards leapt down the oyster coated steps.
Dip there feet and feast on what the fishermen left, Rotten...
Wednesday 28th June 2017 9:17 am
Rust
Lost in the summer haze
still filtering out those greys,
still absent in waste,
vacant in change
rearranging my stain
an inherent pain
displaced
the colour
drips,
drips,
drips.
My bones leak into my soul,
the mud absorbs everything
but the flow
and the black fog
still follows me home.
The desert can be bleak
especially when the colour
constantly leaks
and the sa...
Monday 19th June 2017 3:00 pm
Still
I been sleeping under the ocean,
drowning in emotion,
mind empty and slowing,
sound but a commotion
too loud without meaning.
Time passes silent still
all my words desert me
when I lose my will.
Tired of climbing
the same sodden hill.
It rains and it hails
and the sun comes
in and out of view.
The smell is old but new,
the memory evades
but the pain, still
cuts rig...
Sunday 18th June 2017 6:45 pm
I Really Shouldn't Eat in the Sand.
In sunshine doses
I furiously eat my pasta
in the sand.
It burns!
I squirms!
Unable to withdraw it all with my hands.
No luck
says I
as it multiplies;
grain by grain.
Sigh...
what a fucking pain.
Thursday 8th June 2017 8:08 pm
With his hands stained with blood
Mr. Maduro, I am enveloped and driven by a superb energy and leave you a message, on behalf of millions of angry hearts, a simple message: We want you to go away!
All of this has been more than enough. We are tired of your evilness, your abuses, your cynicism, your humiliations and want you to know that we are all swathed with your "mistakes". We demand to return to the Venezuela that our paren...
Friday 2nd June 2017 9:15 pm
What’s bad for your heart is good for your art, they say
And it may be true that poetry is either about pain or love,
Finding or losing a beloved one
Thoughts and creativity,
As a tool to convert them into words in a poem,
Find me, not when I am at my absolute worst, never then
They find me when I am feeling a bit down, disheartened, sad
The kind of “there are tears in my eyes...
Monday 29th May 2017 6:45 pm
Domestic Drama (Part 1)
I know better
so why don't I do better?
Be angry and sin not
that's what the word says
obscene language,
that's what the world says
I'm tired and cranky
and frankly,
I just want to lie in bed
but lo and behold!
She is sleeping there
like Snorlax or Goldilocks
and I'm suppose to bear this?
too tired to fume
want to sweep this away
'Bring the broom, take out the trash,
feed...
Saturday 6th May 2017 1:38 am
Loss
In those darkest, darkling months
when both belief and hope were lost
when love was stretched taught beyond endurance
when pain and understanding spiralled
Still
There was some doubt of destiny:
could love be snatched away;
and child a mother lose?
A new reality to supplant all we knew
and dreamt.
...Monday 1st May 2017 12:04 pm
Who I am Becoming
Is the pain of loneliness worse than the pain of regret
Than giving away another part of your shrinking soul
I only have so much to give
I do not know how to stop
I am not eternal
I am not limitless
I am finite
There is a certain amount of me
And some parts never grow back
Some parts, once given, cannot ever be recovered
I cannot be returned to who I once was
...
Thursday 27th April 2017 12:55 am
Belief
the forgiving
are also, it seems,
the confused
we can't quite figure out who to blame
we just know, it can't be ourselves
Tuesday 18th April 2017 10:14 am
Since Yesterday
When we were children, if things hurt us we would stop
Pricking fingers on roses, desperate to feel its softness, to smell it
We would be curious and we would get hurt and we would learn a lesson from that
But as I've grown older
I've hurt myself further
I've clung to what we were as if I was gripping a rockface in a heavy storm
sometimes the storm wins
Everytime I ...
Tuesday 18th April 2017 10:10 am
Rope
I shut it down
when it gets too loud
and I go back
underground.
I feel it like a thud,
dull but hollow,
loud and shallow.
I wallow, I bellow.
I hope, I hope
then I damn the hope
down the hole,
throw the rope.
I’m afraid,
afraid of my brain,
afraid of the rain,
my pain,
the words on the page,
the ever growing rage,
the crushing despair,
the hate.
No mo...
Monday 10th April 2017 5:25 pm
The Truth About Pain
The truth about pain...
The truth about MY PAIN.
The truth is nobody knows about my pain.
The truth about my pain..
The truth is nobody asked me about MY PAIN...
Since the start of my time, here on this plane (planet) all I ever felt is pain.
Truth is behind this smile, this pretty face all you'll see is this here PAIN.
THE TRUTH ABOUT MY PAIN, YOU WANT THE TRUTH ABOUT MY PAIN...
Saturday 25th March 2017 12:34 am
Nothing...?...
My pain, guilt are nothing ... if compared
With your miraclish feel "self-value"
(Nothing evident).
Friday 27th January 2017 9:52 pm
I Don't Want to Write Tonight
Nothing will ease this ache,
this pain,
this blank space.
My heart lies torn,
so worn.
Words don't help,
my mind a blur,
my sleepless brain,
my feelings of dismay.
All these things
pull me under,
awaken my thunder.
Alone we wonder
and wander
from one star to another
trying in vain
to illuminate the way
but the pain won't go away
no matter
how we pray.
It all comes...
Friday 20th January 2017 4:49 am
Cool Air
Cool air replaces where your hands should be,
Fingers locked on bare skin all over me,
The breeze keeps blowing colder and colder,
As the love between us grows older and older,
Your tongue parted my lips that way,
Your hands grasped desperately to make me stay,
Yet I still drifted endlessly away,
And I kissed someone new today
Monday 2nd January 2017 8:25 am
He left
He left
He left behind his broken wife and his scared son
He left
He left us cold, all alone with no one
He left
The vows, they meant nothing
The promises, broken
I just wish we meant something
More than just empty words spoken
I cried for days at a time
My young son wiped every tear
Leaving us was a crime
And now, it's been 1 year
An...
Sunday 1st January 2017 11:32 pm
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