Carry on

Sometimes I can't even talk
I just want to be left alone
With my own thoughts
Other times I don't want to be on my own
I just want someone to hold me
And make me feel safe and at home

Sometimes I can barely walk
I just want to stay in bed all day
Hoping the pain will go away
Other times I want to fight it and carry on
Even though I know it might bring a flare up on

The pain feels like it's crushing me
Suddenly sharp, shooting pains strike me
And it's like a thousand pins are stabbing me
It feels so sore
It burns like fire
And I don't know if I can take it anymore
Sometimes I wonder
How much longer
I can carry on

I'm trapped in this nightmare
And it seems so unfair
The pain is so tiring
I can't think straight
The pain is so distracting
I can't concentrate
I try to escape
But there's no way out