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The Curse of Soulmates
The curse of soulmates sometimes if not always involves a third.
Three people. One two and three.
Two people who were bound to meet, the universes love children, twin flames so on and so forth.
And a Third. The ‘unlucky’ one.
The one who was a steppingstone for the other two souls.
A foreign limb.
This person is more often than not, tossed aside either by accident or on purpose...
Sunday 11th December 2022 9:36 am
Prophecy
And time goes on, my friend,
Your wounds that never heal,
Will grow an ugly face,
Your troubles never end.
And life goes on and on...
Your dreams that never came,
Will haunt you as you wake,
Your broken heart won't mend.
And I say
howl at the wind.
run with the river.
drift with the clouds.
burn with the fever.
...
Monday 17th May 2021 6:37 am
All At Sea
On a broken stone, in a wide wild ocean,
A breaking girl, in a sea of tears.
A broken heart, and half a notion
To break away the rest of her years.
But the breaking stone refused to split,
And the roaring waves refused to bite.
So all alone,
And lonelier yet,
For nothing would take her life.
She thought of sleeping
Till she drifted away,
And so she did -
And so she did.
She laid ...
Tuesday 6th April 2021 12:59 am
CHOICES
Would you still love your daughter if she was like me?
Would you give her love and affection?
Even if she was yelling and screaming and being mean?
Or would you turn a blind eye and just say
"Oh, she just wants attention!"
And ignore her cries for help.
Would you still love your daughter if she was like me?
Would you kiss and hold her and tell her everything will be alright?
...Thursday 8th October 2020 1:51 pm
The enemy
As I stare out this window
down to the little people of the world
I wonder and wish
what if i was the beautiful tall girl with the blonde curls?
can I see into her soul?
by staring out this tear streaked window?
can I have her life?
and trade her these frightening memories that float around in limbo...
shes so radiant and thin
Everything that I am sadly not
she ...
Thursday 8th October 2020 10:03 am
Solipsistic Angst
She comes into the house unannounced
doesn’t bother a quip when asked to speak
slams the door shut
and takes to her room to retreat
Behind the locked door, music blares
her demeanor tells everyone she doesn’t care
her closeted persona is darkness deeper
than her black eyeliner coupled with black hair
She’s never known love
never been the center of affection
...Saturday 13th June 2020 1:04 pm
Chocolates
I once bought chocolates
From a place I've never been
carried it all back
as my mind carried a scene
of family around the table
sharing bites of foreign taste
But now, eight months later
they're all going to waste
I once bought chocolates
thinking I bought smiles with them
while sweetness burns my throat
and all chocolates now taste the same
even the sweet ones ...
Sunday 11th August 2019 3:10 pm
June
Let the anticipation build Let the angst grow inside your gut Allow it to rumble and tumble and wreck havoc on your insides Feel the magnetic pull when we lock eyes a little bit too long and struggle to break away Watch me watching you while trying to hide your prying eyes Don't you dare rush a thing
Thursday 27th June 2019 5:34 am
Not Worth It
I'm not worth it
I am never enough
Always first dropped
The last to be picked
For once I'd like you to say no
But I know it causes you pain
And I am not worth enough
To put you through that
Thursday 4th January 2018 3:17 am
What To Do
You are wonderful
And kind
And all the things
I thought I would
Never have
I am broken and cruel
And I fear I will
Hurt you with my
Dispassionate heart
Oh, what to do.
Wednesday 20th December 2017 7:08 am
Color
The rusty door knob and the dilapidated door,
falling apart at its hinges.
Brown colour of furniture, unpolished
Left to rot in the corner of the room.
The showcase gathering grey dust
like ominous clouds about to burst.
The grand old auburn piano
playing tunes of doom and gloom.
The sea shell shade of dirt white walls
peeling off like skin does below freezing point.
The spider we...
Wednesday 15th October 2014 5:57 am
Dye
I had a picture in my head of a scene unfolding one day when I was journaling, and jotted some details down. I have no idea what's happening, in what way the narrator betrayed this "Dye," but I felt like sharing regardless. Very rough, but hopefully you get something out of it!
(So much angst).
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Dye
“I’m sorry,” I said over and over, s...
Sunday 5th October 2014 6:27 am
Significance of the Nineteenth Autumn
As the nineteenth autumn has come upon me,
It’s a whole new world I see.
Treacherous creatures, so often, hush and hide,
And it seemeth to me, a change in tide.
The poetry of soothing sensation has gone,
The glimmering golden glow of the sun is now none.
Some say,’ The Head is battling with the Heart’.
Well ! All Logic has been torn apart.
As I gaze into the vast emptiness
The dawning...
Thursday 18th September 2014 11:04 am
Eternal Moment
A sky for a blanket .
Blue and light blue, grey and dark grey.
Clouds as moths wavering to and afar,
Circling natures son in the cradled hood.
Ah! Let my breath catch this beauteous scene
Behold-
Could I escape from you?
I hold my breath to capture this moment
Eternal-
None would need nepenthe.
This slumber of nature has made me hold my breat...
Wednesday 3rd September 2014 1:57 pm
Reflective Debate
Living known paradigm fortunately unfortunate
With all dished copiously yet with an empty plate
With situations definitive I am unable to equate
Only if emotional clutter could get wiped off slate
Kin, cohort and siblings even closest of the mate
Now add on to torment thus sensibilities agitate
Far too long it has been for turbulence to abate
Must alter course...
Wednesday 12th March 2014 9:06 am
Annoyance
Confounds very purpose
in the end what it ensues
Logic macabre it nurtures
plain irrationality accrues
Those closer tend to shun
all unknown you befriend
Despise meant well being
disinterest try to pretend
The time will pass you by
in state sorry to repent
Unaware you’re of perils
uncertainties it’ll pre...
Sunday 2nd February 2014 7:55 am
these morphed illusions
What are we to do
about spectres in the mirror?
Pray tell, before they rise -
filling-in memories
of film noir and poetry,
dark or brooding -
blaring piano forte
Whip out the shammy & Windex;
`
Please make your res...
Wednesday 31st October 2012 11:06 am
Wait For The Flag To Unfurl
And you claim all your words are true
Then you run from me, saying 'Set me Free'
Such confusion is brought through you
Without such strife if incomplete
Dont play these games no more with me
Far better I'm left to rot here in solitary
And its ...
Monday 16th January 2012 10:09 pm
In Shining White I Mean To End This Day
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