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I want to scream so bad, But how can I?
This is just another bad dream, one day I’ll wake from,
Another scheme of sleep paralysis on my throat,
Like I owe them, I’ll pay my dues but not now.
Feels like self betrayal, I can't even trust myself.
Saw it coming but chose to stay loyal,
Trusting logic has been problematic.
Can't say it's not my fault, when it is.
Thursday 7th October 2021 10:36 pm
I hope you’re haunted by the love you lost in the chaos you twisted and turned
I’ll be the dove hanging onto the wire you burned
In the quiet you conjure up all the spirits who will never return
As I hold onto empty words
How you tortured me in this chapter
Cheers to your happy never after
Wednesday 25th November 2020 3:29 pm
You love calling me crazy too
Lying holding your breath you’re turning blue
As I start calling out your other muse
Said I’m the only one that you choose
Feeding me another empty excuse
You swung giving me the ugliest bruise
Wednesday 25th November 2020 3:23 pm
I wasted my life in a search for myself
Lost amid cul de sacs and blind alleys
Wondering just what it was I wanted
Sages say he is doomed who dallies
Horizons don't wait for anyone
Age creeps up on you like a mist
Years become vague phantoms
Its why I've rarely been kissed
I'm getting older but still confused
I always had trouble with my vision
Soon I wont s...
Sunday 4th October 2020 11:02 am
It is hard having faith
When you feel so much pain
It is hard to obey when you feel so betrayed
It is hard to smile and put on your pretty face
When your whole world has seems to have crumbled
But then that voice comes back to you and says , "Look how far you've come, look how strong you are!"
The voice tells you everything is going to be just fine
You breathe, close your eyes...
Thursday 13th February 2020 6:03 pm
It's been a year since you've been gone and I'm still picking up the pieces,
You were often my strength but more so my weakness,
Everyday you're on my mind I can't escape these thoughts,
It makes my chest burn and my stomach twist into knots,
Sometimes I feel like its too much to handle,
What you did to me was truly a scandle,
All the times that we shared and everything that we w...
Tuesday 29th January 2019 8:16 am
Fueled by rage,
I'm in a cage,
I'm ready to go off,
Like a fuckin' 12 gauge,
Set off by hate,
I cannot debate,
That you weren't there,
So let me get this straight,
Your bullshit and your lies,
I really despise,
You're nothing but a fake,
You can't fool the wise,
You left me to hang,
You left me to dry,
So watch me succeed,
While I watch you cry.
Tuesday 15th January 2019 7:39 am
Trust is an illusion. A systematically flawed word. A total forgery of a statement. Trust assumes infallibility - without errors, mistakes or fuck ups. How do we trust others when we can't even trust ourselves .. If the potential gain outweighs the potential risk we're likely to oblige. Whether the repercussions be momentary or long standing, we're going to indulge in whatever we feel is beneficia...
Tuesday 11th October 2016 8:40 pm