In The Garden Of Gethsemane
Never one to miss
The chance to bring his Saviour down
With a Judas kiss
Sitting in the shadows
Full of vinegar and piss
Hammer and nails ready
For a martyr such as this
Basking in the glow
Of a joyous blessed outcome
And a dose of ‘told you so’
Never doubted for a minute
Tuesday 16th November 2021 11:32 am
in my cupboards
still mouths strangers to the songs they sang
I take them out
bone-dry and hoar
wan skulls shorn of the locks they wore
sharp as a blade
silent shrines to hectic love they made
bereft of flesh
that lit my fire
no lithe joints but threads of thin wire
hot tears drop on
Monday 25th October 2021 10:41 am
she conjured my fate
juggled my dreams
with her visions my memory teems
I was treading water
sitting on my hands
she took me off to distant lands
hands that soothed
making sense of my delusions
shelter in her cloak
solace from her eyes
with my pain her mercy vies
that charming smile
she shone abroad
seemed to lift my...
Saturday 4th September 2021 10:07 am
the tears are gone
her eyes are dry
dawn breaks unblinking in the sky
I've confessed all
my conscience clean
surprised she did not make a scene
all those women
the casual lies
yet no questions or fluttering whys
no hint of shock
her sheets are blue;
I told her what she already knew
she'd sucked it up
loved me so much
forgiven all just f...
Thursday 2nd September 2021 10:27 am
things used to be simple
lovers dawning undiluted
before he turned up and
left my dreams polluted
I knew she had a history
you sensed it in her eyes
she'd seen many lovers
said a host of goodbyes
hoped she'd seen sense
woken up and matured
that restless streak still
her carnal urges cured
my money she was after
I knew it from the start
Monday 30th August 2021 11:08 am
there's a point on the map when
doubts and desapir veer to meet
and idly parade nowhere down a
lonely slum of a one-way street
no compass charts this latitude
where time gross reality bends
for its a quarter of lifeless loss
the geography where love ends
I've drifted here so many times
its memories my endless bane
before me for I sense a reprise
I am sure...
Sunday 14th February 2021 11:16 am
Oscar is the light of her life
in bed she nips off his ticks
drowns them in water, she's
dispensed with other pricks
but Oscar meets his nemesis
she's spurned him for Teddie
he's well-bred and better-hung
soon they were going steady
locked out of her bedroom
Oscar hear animal sounds
tackle cut off long ago, now
his mistress out of bounds
Thursday 17th December 2020 11:20 am
I sit bewildered
With no one to blame
For I indeed
Should be the accused
I stare at you
But you're not there
You've been replaced
Replaced by fear
I long to see you again
The man I met
Friday 9th October 2020 3:56 am
I was enjoying sitting in the garden, pondering the beauty and the timelessness of nature, compared to the fickleness and unreliability we see in our leaders and found myself writing a villanelle. First draft below – may yet be edited but I wanted to share it now.
Reminders of a life, a dream now torn
Scabia, flags and tulips, forget me nots
Behind the privet hedge a rolling lawn
Tuesday 22nd September 2020 3:37 pm
cold roses strewn secured my love
engendering that rude wayward fire
moving my heart to defy tomorrow
trapping me amid my frank desire
she left only thorns stuck in my mind
without a word I was left overturned
ship-wrecked shocked and abandoned
I watched from afar as my life burned
her place was rank with faded roses
the old perfume of eternal betrayal
Tuesday 25th August 2020 11:39 am
Your hand slips into mine,
the fortune-teller notices
our smiles with glittering eyes
there’s a future between us
she smiles & invites us in
Laying down cards one by one
it reveals the betrayal and secrets
that will keep us
from the love that has swept us into a whirlwind
We turn to each other stunned
but a laugh begins,
she replies, “Sorry, no refunds”
Tuesday 21st April 2020 5:04 am
In the midst of a pandemic
Your biggest concern happens to be
And yet the bliss of the pandemic
Was not having to hear you
I was wondering when your time would come
To be quite honest I was surprised
You are a little late
Here's your rescinded wedding invitation
Not that we planned it to your taste
It's on this perfectly whit...
Wednesday 8th April 2020 1:11 am
The real is rare,
The fake doesn't care...
One who ought to be dear;
Alas! Brings despair.
My search goes everywhere,
To meet the one who's sincere.
That one supposed to bring cheer,
And no trick play, only an option fair.
Happiest I was when he was near,
He wouldn't let my eyes shed a tear...
In my loneliness I sometimes still fear,
Where I lost him, why...
Tuesday 30th July 2019 7:20 pm
Sorry buddy for what's gone on
If only you had actually known
How much that I sacrificed for you
And this friendship that I thought was true
I honestly stood by you always
I was the friend that would have stayed
But in the end it was you that betrayed
Me in the most hurtful of ways
We had a history that we kept a mystery
Because it wasn't knowledge that we wanted freed
Why is that a...
Friday 7th September 2018 6:02 pm
You're reaching out.
Hands to the sky,
Heavy heart beating.
Knees to the ground,
And the rain falls.
Peace couldn't be found,
So you put up these walls.
In an empty broken place,
Never a smile on your pained face...
And you let the darkness sink in,
When all you needed was ONE friend,
But time and time, over again,
No one was there for you in...
Friday 15th June 2018 8:02 pm
I never knew How beautiful brown eyes were until I stared into his.
I never knew that I liked high defined cheekbones until I purposely made him laugh just so I could admire him.
I never knew tattoos looked so good on caramel brown skin.
I never knew I could fall in love with him.
I never ever knew you could lie with someone who isn’t the one you love.
I never knew yo...
Friday 2nd March 2018 3:10 pm
In the Springtime of my growing
The Summer of my knowing
Sown were the seeds for all my hopes and dreams
Through the rain and muddy water
There came up fragile flowers
To share with all my lovers
Where I expected trees
Being young, naive, and caring
I left my gate for sharing
Now trampled are my flowers
Trampled by my lovers
And the feet of many others...
Saturday 25th November 2017 2:08 pm
i am nothing.
i could never compare
according to you.
i could never compare
to autism and down syndrome jokes
according to you.
my love for you
the fact that you're my best friend
the things you've help...
Sunday 19th November 2017 1:18 am
I have lied for so long I cant remember the truth,
Even though this is something I should,
I have lied for so long it has become my norm,
But when the lies are exposed, it will be a man-made storm.
I have lied to the very people I pretend to be close too,
Only for me to fool them all,
I feel I have been betrayed by the very people that love me,
However after all this...
Thursday 6th April 2017 4:53 pm
He left behind his broken wife and his scared son
He left us cold, all alone with no one
The vows, they meant nothing
The promises, broken
I just wish we meant something
More than just empty words spoken
I cried for days at a time
My young son wiped every tear
Leaving us was a crime
And now, it's been 1 year
Sunday 1st January 2017 11:32 pm
Trust is an illusion. A systematically flawed word. A total forgery of a statement. Trust assumes infallibility - without errors, mistakes or fuck ups. How do we trust others when we can't even trust ourselves .. If the potential gain outweighs the potential risk we're likely to oblige. Whether the repercussions be momentary or long standing, we're going to indulge in whatever we feel is beneficia...
Tuesday 11th October 2016 8:40 pm
(with apologies to Lewis Carroll)
‘Twas Brexit, and the slithy Gove
did frottercrutch in dwarfish glee;
he snicker-snacked the Camerove,
Beware the stabberjock, my son!
The empty eyes, the robo-glint!
who fellobrates the Murdocrone
the Ruperturtle übergimp!
He pallerised the BoJo cloon
they chummed upon their sunderbus
emblazoned it with fibberoons
Monday 4th July 2016 9:45 am
Betrayal stabs like a dagger,
Cutting slices of my heart into 10 million scattered pieces,
The open wound lingers eternally,
Blood clots clump into a swamp of hate and anger,
The horizon does not rebirth the putrid, frozen tissue,
Feelings of filth and deceit seep through every cell of my dying body,
The bond that was once so strong rots into the sewage of what ...
Thursday 23rd June 2016 4:08 pm
Eyes so dark like drowning in molten mystery
Your stare shatters my resolve
A seraphic touch played its music on my skin
Your hands lead me into danger
A rhythmical voice that unburdens my heart
Your song confuses my mind
A remembered dream that torments my sleep
Your face impregnates the screen
Once my lover now my friend
Your silence screams at me
Betrayal bites the hand that fed...
Tuesday 26th January 2016 11:12 am
As you sit a top the branches
Of this ancient temple old and wise
Without a worry or a care
Shielding sunlight from your eyes
Can you see the woman down below?
Her face is full of fear
She has a tale she needs to tell
But, not one you'll want to hear
No fairytale of love and hope
This memoir from within
But a nightmare from which she waits
For her life to begin
You see, not long from...
Thursday 7th January 2016 6:25 pm
You want a bit of me, don’t you?
Although I have a previous owner
You are tempted; I could be yours
I warn you, I’ve been well worn
There are a few rips and tears scarring my history
I am faded; my image only just visible
But, you’re secretly impressed
You’ve been after one like me for years
Hunt me down
Make your offer
No need to wear me in
Friday 25th September 2015 8:55 am
Stop standing on my shadow
Why are you trying to hijack my dreams?
Do you want to be like me?
Do you want to stop me from being myself?
You say you want to inspire me
I feel you conspire against me
Two lovers of creativity
Your opinion of you, far exceeds
That of me.
Edging further forward
Trying to establish yourself
As the master of our trade
Friday 11th July 2014 8:30 pm
Upon the Tiber’s sacred banks,
the black grape waters idly lap
like wine within a swirling cup,
the sleek and bloodied entrails spill
between my stiff and shaking hands
to roll and coil on sun baked dust.
I see a crown of laurels there,
all seeped in false and guilty tears,
and at its heart a bitter hate,
its innards twisted like this lamb.
The noblest Roman of ...
Thursday 21st February 2013 10:24 am
Monday 27th February 2012 2:21 pm
EYE FOR AN EYE
So tell me, is it because I dared to do what I wasn’t meant to
that you turned against me?
Having feelings for my sworn enemy, doing the thing I was sworn
not to, my love turning me a traitor to my cause,
my religion and all my beliefs?
The way the cards fall are often the strangest hand of all.
To save an enemy from the grave, her grave,
Monday 17th October 2011 10:41 pm
Friday 7th October 2011 8:45 am
Saturday 13th March 2010 1:25 am
Gone is the mind where love and hope once played,
She feels the urge to paint a world with blood.
She watches moonlight dance along the blade.
She dreams a world of red in every shade,
Would banish all the rainbow if she could.
Gone is the mind where love and hope once played.
All trust now shredded, reason torn and frayed,
A hollow corpse where once a woman stood;
She watches moonlight dance along th...
Thursday 13th August 2009 12:49 pm
A slight departure from my more usual styles, an experiment in harsh revelation...
Wilt thou distill my bleating heart
To extract the spirit of love within?
Bottled in glass will it smell of pine
As just now it must within my breast
Take it then and rid me of its odour
Soured by the heat of your betrayal
Leave me no trace to fester as I sleep, but
Bury me deep that I migh...
Saturday 25th July 2009 9:34 am
So you come to me and say 'I'm free'
And you claim all your words are true
Then you run from me, saying 'Set me Free'
Such confusion runs through you
Some years I spent in quiet retreat
Without such strife if incomplete
Dont play these games no more with me
Far better I'm left to rot in solitary
Each time you've run and turned again
And its truly sad to see your pain
But when indeed must...
Friday 24th July 2009 11:16 pm