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chronic pain
i'm sick of doing the best i can
because it isn't ever enough
if I can't be good,
what's the point of being here at all?
I never sleep well anymore
even though I tell the doctors I sleep fine
I just stare at the ceiling
and live through the lives of others
sit in class with an ache behind my eyes
I can't even tell if the pain is real
excedrin can only do so much
and I think my toler...
Thursday 14th March 2024 1:25 pm
Dry relapse with no high(through the eyes of another)
I'm not a soldier but I'm at war
Clean and sober year number four
Battles with temptation
Past friends and relations
Conflict miscommunication
I get tired of waiting I'm tryna be patient
Testing my patience
What's expected of me isn't me
No point trying to change me you see
That change must only come from me
People are not what they seem
Reality looks dif...
Monday 4th March 2024 12:32 am
1000 MILES IN 2024
They said, no!
no, you can’t!
just shut up,
go away;
they said
what they
always say,
too old,
too fat,
waste of space,
a pisspot,
a fantasist,
say voices
in my head.
I've told them,
piss off,
the first step’s
to take one,
so I took one,
I planned,
If you do not
you plan to fail,
so I got all my kit,
warm leggings
and mi...
Sunday 4th February 2024 9:01 pm
Support worker
Hoody, vape and tatt
All night I've been sat
Another coffee will wake me up
Here's a magazine, take my cup
Alone on the ward, feeling bored
My eyes crush a matchstick hoard
Marks and scuffs on the walls
Remind me of times, restraints and all
Long days and nights settle in my thoughts
Old faces, names, and incidences haunt
Decisions made, young peop...
Wednesday 24th January 2024 10:12 am
Strike up
Savouring the solace
Subverting the scene
A spectre on the surf
Sublime and serene
Suffering the silence
Shaping the sun
Scuppering the smog
So sane with someone
Staffing submerged
Sheepish and surged
Scared as the scurried scatter
Splurged and so shattered
Shanked and superfluous
Serious and stained
So sad to s...
Wednesday 24th January 2024 10:02 am
Acknowledge me
It reaches further than "please fuck me" or "don’t touch me"
It’s a liminal in-between
A line we like to call blurry
But I never asked you to undress me
My body abandoned me
My words went slurry
Tongue too thick to go beyond a mumble
Kind sir escorted me to save me from stumble
Four times play on my mind
One of them I even forgot
Until it accosted me during a usual d...
Friday 12th January 2024 5:07 pm
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