what is it I’m trying to do here?
“your poetry is beautiful”
“you should be proud of yourself”
If only I never hid away.
If only I was still 7,
then it would be acceptable.
If I had opened up back then,
I would have had people falling over themselves
to make me feel better.
But I’m a grown ass man now.
and no amount of complaining will do a damn thing.
No one is going to chase me
We all have our own shit to deal with
So how do you get out of the habit,
of being too afraid
to be vulnerable
How do I convince myself,
my feeling are valid
without someone else there
to convince me?
debating in my head,
what specifically is worth sharing,
and when I should keep my mouth shut.