what is it I’m trying to do here?

“your poetry is beautiful”

“you should be proud of yourself”

 

If only I never hid away.

 

If only I was still 7,

then it would be acceptable.

 

If I had opened up back then,

I would have had people falling over themselves

to make me feel better.

 

But I’m a grown ass man now.

 

and no amount of complaining will do a damn thing.

 

No one is going to chase me

We all have our own shit to deal with

 

So how do you get out of the habit,

of being too afraid

to be vulnerable

with yourself?

 

How do I convince myself,

my feeling are valid

without someone else there

to convince me?

 

Forever here,

debating in my head,

what specifically is worth sharing,

and when I should keep my mouth shut.