I'm not a soldier but I'm at war

Clean and sober year number four 

Battles with temptation 

Past friends and relations 

Conflict miscommunication 

I get tired of waiting I'm tryna be patient 

Testing my patience 

What's expected of me isn't me 

No point trying to change me you see 

That change must only come from me 

People are not what they seem 

Reality looks different now living clean 

No drink to escape 

Broke snorting coke pass me Cape 

Let's fly  ... 

Three stories high to get high 

Climbed up been denied 

Look outside

Could've died 

Mother cried 

3rd eye opened wide 

Dry relapse with no high 

Texting women calling them 

Back and forward tennis balling them 

All along my loyal wife being ignored again 

My mind is bored again 

I never thought of them

He's been recalled again 

Visiting order then 

Slate wiped clean 

Let's start again 

You've got my heart again