I am no product of love,
I have never been treated as one.
I am the product of greed,
The punishment of my creators' sin.
I am no reminder of their love,
I serve only as a reminder of their greed.
Greedy for more love,
When their own had run out.
I am a desperate attempt at filling their
Empty hearts once again.
My own scratched empty,
Theirs only half filled...
Wednesday 15th November 2023 12:46 pm
replacing the soothing touch of water
with the burn of swirling red.
broken glass on the ground,
not being able to differentiate red from red.
freely seeking comfort in another’s bed,
knowing your own will be empty anyway.
conceiving a child,
in the hopes it will turn your lives around.
Sunday 29th October 2023 8:58 pm
The crackling of the fire lures me closer.
Meat sizzles and shrinks under the sheer heat of it.
A fire full of fury, hissing and spitting,
at anyone who dares to move closer.
It attacks my senses; the smell of burning flesh, the feel of warmth.
I can’t move away.
I’m enchanted, trapped, devoted,
to keeping the flames flickering.
To feel its warmth infiltrating my ...
Tuesday 24th October 2023 12:43 pm
A broken record.
As she lays in the grave,
Six feet under.
if things would have changed,
If I just once asked her to
Would it have made a difference, though?
The reason to cut or not remains
the same, either way.
Nothing can change that here
Thursday 19th October 2023 10:16 pm
Is it the light
At the end
Of the road
That I perceive
Or is it simply
Heaven's ethereal glow
That shines upon me?
An end it is,
No matter what form,
A means to end,
So I go on.
Friday 13th October 2023 7:28 pm
who has watched me since birth
grow and shrink
into the person I am today.
Could you tell me if I have done okay?
Could you tell me if my life has been a waste?
mother of mine,
could I rest my tired soul
in the safety of your arms?
Could you once more look after me
while I sleep?
who has never once been
Saturday 30th September 2023 10:52 pm
I was sinking to the ocean floor,
We were with two
Me and a child, surrounded by blue.
Connected with a thread,
I was swimming us both to the surface,
The thread broke
And I watched as the child choked,
Sinking to the bottom
I was pushed above.
Wednesday 27th September 2023 7:51 pm
If only I could go back in time
To rectify all my mistakes.
All that I shouldn’t have said,
Yet still felt the need to say.
Why did I even feel that need?
I, too, was just a child, right?
Be the example,
Show them they are wrong.
Show them we are no beasts.
Show them we can be equal.
Show them they are wrong.
So many rules and rest...
Friday 22nd September 2023 7:07 pm
A love so fierce,
has taken ahold of me,
that ‘I’ is no more.
My form, my soul,
is now entangled with hers.
Where do I end and where does she begin?
I now only exist,
as an extension of her.
When my name leaves mouths,
I pray for it to always
be accompanied by hers.
Whenever she is in my vicinity,
it feels as if I could ascend into infinity.
To love her,...
Sunday 17th September 2023 12:36 pm
I pride myself on being alone
And in it finding joy.
I scroll through my social media,
those carefully curated feeds.
Watch silly humans
on my screen,
Put on whatever soap,
Not picky with tropes.
Listen to my favourite song,
That always ropes me into singing along.
Noise follows me around,
All of the time.
I don't mind it when I...
Tuesday 12th September 2023 7:15 pm
Anger curls its tendrils around me,
it envelopes me whole,
strokes me tenderly.
It forms an impenetrable wall,
a shield of sorts,
to keeps me safe and sound.
It takes all those blows
and hits for me,
protects me from my foes.
Rage filled screams,
cover the sound of falling tears.
Sadness sits beside me,
gently wipes my sea.
Anger extinguishes my fear,...
Monday 11th September 2023 8:55 pm
covers my naked skin.
from where I have been.
Day and Night
hastily clock in.
Running to their positions,
preparing their respective scene.
Not that I can see.
The layer of dirt that separates
from what is and has been,
no longer that thin.
Breathe Death in,
for it is I who nurtures the earth
Friday 8th September 2023 8:21 pm
There's so much sadness
Stored in your body.
Too much sorrow
For such a little
Body to try
It flows out of you.
Out of your nose,
The canvas of your face.
I am a spectator,
Unable to change.
I watch and feel,
on my skin.
Mirroring the image
Laid before me.
Am I not you?
Are we not each other?
Wednesday 6th September 2023 1:49 pm
And if you must pierce my heart
With a dagger so sharp,
Caress with it my cheek
After you've retrieved it.
Paint my face soft,
With the violence of your love.
It is for you who my heart beats for,
Thus it is by your hands that it should stop.
May the wind blow you
My final breath to.
Thursday 31st August 2023 12:48 pm
There is probably
No one more
in this damned world,
Than the one
I was supposed to love
More than anyone
In this cursed world.
Sunday 27th August 2023 1:49 pm
I do not think
There is such
a thing as
that I could link
To what the faceless
masses call home.
I do not think,
There is a version of me that exists,
Where home is something I have,
And not something I miss.
All in which
I do not fit....
Monday 14th August 2023 10:20 pm
Heart of mine
Won't you stand at my side?
Stop your traitorous speeding,
So that my cheeks may stop heating.
What is it about her,
That her whole being allures
What is it about her,
That has me needing more
Who gazes at me as if I
Am the one who in the east rises
Who sees me wholly,
Not for who I pretend to be.
Who has replaced my blood,
as my life's elixer,
Wednesday 9th August 2023 3:29 pm
Let the melodious song
of the numerous creatures
that reside here with us along,
in the lands and the skies
guide our light feet.
and bathe in the light of the sun.
As she blesses our love
and ignites our skins and soul.
In this bittersweet moment,
tinged sour by all that could have been,
should have been ours,
let us surrender our hearts
Wednesday 26th July 2023 3:20 pm
I am naught but a fish
swimming aimlessly through the sea.
Miles and miles of that breathtaking blue.
It deprives me of my breath
and leaves me trapped,
in what seems to be an endless net.
I long for the warmth of the sun on my fins,
the feeling of sand grains on my skin.
Day after day,
I shyly creep closer to you.
Your beauty lures me in,
makes me your discip...
Sunday 16th July 2023 8:16 am
At age three
Of lands full of sweets.
Of an endless coloured street,
stretched as far as I could see.
I dreamed of my toys,
that entertained me with their noise.
I dreamed of everything and more.
At age ten,
About wondrous lands that decorated the earth.
Of all the plants and birds,
our Mother gave birth to.
I heard abo...
Tuesday 27th June 2023 6:53 pm
As I was laying in the desert,
I desperately longed for the sea
and its waves to crash over me.
How could it slip over my head
that water can dry one out too?
There in the desert,
my throat was empty.
Constricting and relaxing around nothing.
Desperately trying to salvage
the little droplets of water,
it could claw out of my mouth
to satisfy my needy self....
Friday 16th June 2023 9:14 am
The devil has always been,
A faceless entity
Until now at least.
Now it has become clear.
I can see.
In front of me.
They are no singular person.
Instead a pair.
Lungs devoid of air.
The devils gaze at me.
Recognizable set eyes.
Why is this reality?
First sight of a child.
Tuesday 13th June 2023 8:24 am
I used to utter your name delicately
like it was poetry.
Just as how perfume lingers on a person,
The sweet smell of cherry blossoms
accompanied your name
whenever it walked out my mouth.
But now all it leaves,
Is a taste so foul.
Your love was like alcohol to me,
It left me feeling euphoric at first,
But after the effect had worn out,
All I was left with w...
Monday 29th May 2023 12:52 pm
I pick up the shards of glass
that are scattered on the ground.
I marvel at them in wonderment,
how beautiful it once was.
Still, it'll serve a good cause.
Such a pity,
won't you applaud?
This is the end of the show,
Don't you hear the crows?
Toss your roses
Or will you wait till my eyes are closed?
Pour the alcohol,
Let the bubbles float to the surface.
Sunday 28th May 2023 5:01 pm
A delicate touch on my skin.
How long has it been
since someone softly caressed me?
A touch so unknown,
yet Comfort finds their home.
As you trace the ink on my skin,
your eyes rake down my body,
drinking all of me in,
as if you have not drunk a drop of water
for as long as you’ve been.
Your fingers on me,
feel like the first sunbeams that grace a leaf,
Tuesday 23rd May 2023 12:02 pm
I will hurt you,
Just as you will hurt me.
Isn't that beautiful?
And be hurt.
And be loved.
Isn't loving someone,
Sentencing yourself to pain?
Then, why pray,
Do all still love?
To hurt and be hurt,
Is to love and be loved.
I long for you to hurt me,
So I don't doubt my love for you.
I long for me to hurt you,
So I don't doubt your lo...
Monday 8th May 2023 4:36 pm
Just a second is all it would take for you to leave this table.
It never gets better, seeing the amount of empty chairs grow.
Still, I remain seated at the table, glued to my chair.
Unable to do anything but watch with pain in my heart,
as yet another one leaves me alone here.
But what can I do?
Even an iceberg desperately yearns for warmth,
climbing to the sun, knowing it wi...
Monday 24th April 2023 12:02 pm
Tired souls sigh together,
lovers have given up on getting better,
but I will continue to stay with the withered tree until the end of times.
We have exchanged the word 'forever'
and thus I will patiently wait untill we are back together.
I will wait for you, my Nobody,
until my body cannot anymore.
Until my body decays
and my bones slip into Mother's embrace.
Monday 27th March 2023 6:38 am
People often say that God is merciful.
Then why is it that every night, every day, every waking hour of mine,
I keep reciting the same prayer?
‘Have mercy, my Lord, and put this subject of yours out of their misery’.
If God is so merciful, then why is it that I still find myself breathing?
Exhaling every breath, hoping this one will be my last.
Why is it that I find myself all t...
Tuesday 21st March 2023 10:10 am
I love myself.
Not in the way one would think.
I truly am in love with myself.
For there is no one in this whole wide world
That could understand me,
Apart from me.
Therefore it is only myself that I can love
And it is only myself that can love I,
Whose song differs from the other whales.
I love myself.
Not out of free will,
But out of...
Sunday 5th March 2023 10:31 am
There is no such thing as a river wide enough
to keep me from reaching you.
If there is no boat available,
I'll simply swim the whole distance for you.
Even if I get swept away by the current,
I will make sure my body reaches you at least.
Saturday 25th February 2023 8:31 pm
‘’See you tomorrow’’,
that was what you said.
Back then, I could not identify it as a lie.
I only realized when I got to your house the next day,
your hanging frame decorating the place.
Thursday 9th February 2023 2:51 pm
I thought you were my diode
and that you only conducted towards me,
but you started flowing the other way
forgetting all about me.
So here I am now,
waiting until this short circuit will be over.
Will it ever be over?
Friday 3rd February 2023 11:47 pm
Cold and dark
here I lay
waiting for you at bay.
The orange pearl is sinking into the seas.
Thousands of sand grains surround me,
yet I still feel so lonely.
I have given my heart to you
and now it’s sinking slowly in the seas.
I will wait for eternity
may the seas direct you back to me.
Saturday 28th January 2023 11:20 am
is the light that dances on my body.
What has remained of it anyway.
How fascinating is the fire that is now catching on my breasts,
It climbs up my body like kudzu.
Greedy as it is, it longs for more,
Even though it has already swallowed up my legs.
It is consuming all of me,
both the good and the bad.
A heap of ash i...
Friday 27th January 2023 1:03 pm