My eyes are shut
my brains going wild
That feeling in my gut
Makes me want to be a child
I think back to yesterday
It was the very same
I wish it would go away
In the end I’m all to blame
My heart beats too fast
As the clock turns nine
I’m giving today a pass
But I’ll be out of line
Where’s the fresh start
The one I dream about
Tuesday 15th March 2022 8:36 pm
Fighting a hundred battles, every damn single day
unable to help myself, with no one around who can aid.
Battling these invisible demons, but falling down each time
wondering how others can cope like this, or appear completely fine.
Twenty-Four years pass on and on, before they catch the cause
but it turns out that I'm not at fault, for all of my many flaws.
Today my struggles are validated,...
Sunday 13th March 2022 5:29 am
You cannot change the world,
but you may be able to be an
influence in someones world.
The world is wild and unruly.
Chaotic in nature. But you
can make a difference each
moment to feel into its texture
with your touch. It won’t be much,
but maybe it is just enough.
it is all you can do in the face
of the storm that matters.
Live it. Live it for those who can...
Saturday 12th February 2022 10:51 am
(For the girl who haunts my dreams still)
Not that you'd care, but
All that I wanted
was to make you proud
But, I was too stupid
All you ever did
was bring me down
I was your scar
Your permanent frown
I was your verbal punchbag
In your whiskey fuelled state
Never felt like your child
Just a vess...
Tuesday 1st February 2022 2:04 pm
When I think of her I think of scars.
She told me when she touches them they remind her of the cuts;
of how the cuts made her feel,
“it’s a purge”, she said, “a sense of being real".
She spoke to me with honesty of the incremental cost
of destroying the things she held so dear
now irretrievably lost.
Of how, through her inner turmoil,
she could meet the gi...
Sunday 30th January 2022 1:41 pm