From New York, With Love.
When I'd first met you,
Can't explain how frenzy I'd behaved.
From the daylight butterflies,
To the dark night fireflies,
I could feel everything around me.
It was a feeling out of this world,
Like how the comets collide,
Like how the stars collide.
And people have wishes to make
Of the loved ones they desire.
I made a wish too.
To grow old with you,
To get to the countr...
Wednesday 8th March 2023 4:35 am
An encounter with the past
I remember being told to,
'You can do nothing'.
A memory that came like a flood,
Only this morning.
I pass by several faces,
That I've been seeing for years.
But today I saw one,
That reminded me of the days of tears.
When the people I relied on,
Pointed fingers at me.
When I was mocked and laughed at,
And what I really was, no one could see.
The times when people told me,
I didn't fi...
Thursday 25th November 2021 2:58 pm
The Tide Will Come Out Of Your Mouth
SMASH!
Every time the glass of your skull
Crashes into the fist of another memory
To crush you where you stand
Because another memory has broken you
Because another memory has entered you
Like intruders, they force their way inside
They punch their way into your attention
They invade your heart
Until you must look at them
All so that they can violate you again
They...
Tuesday 23rd February 2021 6:29 pm
The Dig
The Dig
Thousands of years later
They found the sacred site
And used their soft sable brushes
To clear the earth from their finds
Here was what looked like a drinking vessel
Owned by a Covid-19 man called Persil
And look part of a plate with the lettering McDon
So possibly owned by someone from the Northern Zone
Inflation devices with logos of Asda and Lidl
Ancie...
Sunday 28th June 2020 6:17 pm
YES! I AM READY FOR IT.
Now when i look back to my life after all these years of pain and sorrow,
only to realise that how far i have come.
Looking back to my older dark soul,
i am proud of my growth.
I am just 20 and i know there's a long long road ahead,
and i am ready for it.
This one last look to my past,
with teary eyes and a bright smile.
Now i am leaving behind my past, ...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:58 pm
Pain
I was reading a story
When i felt a sudden spark of pain in my heart
I was feeling like someone was piercing needles deep inside my soul
It was unbearable and tears were rolling down
I closed my eyes, it was all dark
And then i saw you
I tried opening my eyes but I couldn’t
Because deep inside I still wanted to see you for maybe one last time even when nothing was real
B...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:14 pm
Everything is right yet it’s not!
Sometimes even when everything is right
Nothing feels right
Everything is complete
But deep down all you feel is emptiness
Your life is going smooth
But all you feel is sadness
You’re happy
But all you do is cry
You don’t know the reason
But all you feel is pain enduring you
You don’t want to give up
But all you do is losing hope
...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:07 pm
Flame
Flame
We set the world alight
With incendiary thoughts
That burned like sulphur
Cut with lithium
A million candles
That lit every corner
Of our flammable minds
And shone like supernovas
That was an age ago
When new ideas
Were like matches
Striking on sandpaper
When the faintest
Flintlock spark
Could flash against powder
And deliver shot
...
Sunday 16th February 2020 12:18 am
What is next?
What is next? I ask God
Tell me please because I feel so lost
Losing control of all that is around
What is next? I ask God
Then a small voice howls in the wind saying, "Worry about now!"
Smile, Breathe, Relax
Don't worry about the future nor the past
Wednesday 5th February 2020 5:41 pm
Don't look back (don't ever do that)
Don't look back
don't ever do that
the past lives there
with its wild despair,
its puddles of pity
all dark and gritty.
There's joy there too,
and patches of blue.
The mean ol' reds,
where you lost your head.
A kaleidescope of feeling
to keep you reeling.
Be where you stand,
see what's at hand:
marvels to see,
new ways to be,
colors so cle...
Tuesday 28th January 2020 5:20 am
Laissez-faire
At the foothills of vintage age
you feel perceptibly less somber
for there are only meager remains
of mostly forgotten days -
little to smile, rue or cry for
and an amorphous
yet obligingly finite future -
trifling to put together or fight for.
So dear Chandra:
here is a congratulation:
It must be awesome -
this imminent privilege of geriatrics
and this stolen bit of tran...
Wednesday 25th December 2019 8:20 pm
Moments
Do you ever want to
hold on to a moment
because it feels divine?
A moment when the stars align,
and everything is fine.
A moment when you make peace
with your past, and your pain.
A moment when there is
no sorrow, no shame.
A moment when fear
takes a hike.
A moment when the sky is clear,
the air is forgiving,
and sun shines bright.
A moment when everything
feel...
Wednesday 9th October 2019 5:41 am
Our rain
OUR RAIN
My face drenched
My hair soaked
Our bodies cling
The sound of thunder
Rain gloriously cleansing our past
Our kiss
Our dance
Our rain
Our love
A memory of our first glance
Our first embrace
Our first kiss
This is our rain
Our dance
Our love
Hope
Trust
Complete at last
Gone with the past
Wednesday 31st July 2019 6:21 pm
Under the Ladder
I Don’t Even Have To Hope You Go To Hell.
With That Evil Grin
Come Lurking Around The Corner.
And I Don’t Feel The Need To
Sell Myself To You.
Turning On The Screw.
So I’m Just.
And Just Keep On Writing
Underneath The Ladder.
Old Timer, Turn The Volume Down.
Pages Turn, Yet Here I Burn.
Never One To Be Part Of This World.
Saturday 25th May 2019 5:52 pm
Past's Prologue
The trees still sentinel stood
their green leaves whispering
rustling gently in the wood
in the same soft breeze
and I know some summer birds
sang in their canopy
a requiem without words
'neath the same blue sky
that through every passing year
quietly watched over me
safe within Ceredig's sphere
It has been too long a time
since our firs...
Tuesday 9th April 2019 2:20 pm
CONFIDENCE
If you learn from the past
Improving your future
Then you'll achieve the goal
And reach it safely faster
Pay an attention to move
Know the direction to go
Have time to Improve
Act well, not only "show"
Earn your people' regard
And don't cross the fence
Know the value of the word
Now you've got confidence
Sunday 17th February 2019 7:48 pm
LET's PRAY
I DON'T THINK, OF YESTERDAY.
LET'S TO THINK, WHAT IS TODAY?
SUN COMES, ALWAYS, BRAND-NEW.
WHY TO SEE SUN, AS GREY.
I LOVED YOU, SAME AS YOU ARE.
I BEG YOU KEEP YOUR PAST, AWAY.
I DON'T ASK, I DON'T CARE.
NOBODY IS BLAMELESS, EVERYDAY.
HEART IS OPEN, COME AND SHARE.
I NEED TO HEAR YOU, JUST SAY.
TOMORROW IS COMING, AS A SHINY DAY.
I LOVED YOU TOO, LE...
Sunday 3rd February 2019 8:02 pm
The Void
Hey there lonely girl,
what are you doing wandering around
these dark places?
Don’t you know that
evil lurks about?
The void is littered
with those who will use you,
abuse you,
scar your soul for eternity.
Listen to my pleas,
I’m begging on bended knees,
move forward
towards the light,
no matter how tempting
the mysterious
shadows may be.
Sunday 27th January 2019 5:51 am
Rose Colored Reality
Too much reality
can burn a hole
through your soul.
I prefer to temper it
with rose colored glasses,
as you know.
With my glasses on
I can see past the ego
to the wounds at
war within.
I can see that the
past, present, and
future are all
an illusion...
created for one purpose
to tell the story
of how we want to
show up in this world.
I can see beyond
resistance,...
Wednesday 23rd January 2019 3:08 pm
I'm Sorry
Why say I'm sorry
for something in which
you had no part?
Because, shallow as those
two words may seem...
the gesture plays
a pivotal role in
healing a broken heart.
Thursday 17th January 2019 10:59 pm
A Shattered Rose
A Shattered Rose
The slick cliff'd river smears shiny
blue-green sliding waters
across richly wooded chateau-lands;
hurrying through honey-scarred falaises,
cat-mouthed where toffee sandstones
arced onto sleeping innocents beneath.
A country blessèd and blighted both,
in equal measure (as aeons bequeath)
full with easy money, and its deadly past.
April ...
Tuesday 18th September 2018 1:28 pm
In a year long
I'll be laughing in the hot sun
When this is all gone
In a year long
This will be my song
I'll finally feel strong
Today I might ache
But it will not stay
Tomorrow, I'll be okay
And one day, I pray
It'll go forever away
I'll be laughing in the hot sun
When this is all gone
In a year long
This will be my song
I'll finally feel strong
Yesterday was scary
My head tried to hurt ...
Thursday 13th September 2018 2:04 pm
The Summer of Love
Wandering through the sunlit trees
on grassy bluebell banks, brackened
by the unfurling of softly sensual shoots;
strolling in the tide turn rippling sea
as toes sift soft sea sand, silted
and lost to the advancing wave weft;
striding across bare barren felltop
on sheep shorn Spring sprung sod, surrounded
by haze horizoned hills and hills and hills;
standing by the quie...
Friday 25th May 2018 4:36 pm
Past, Present and Future
Haunted by ghosts from a distant past of mine
that remain hidden from my memory
but lie embedded somewhere in that cerebral mass.
Thinking of a present fraught with dilemma
residing at the forefront of my brain
Fermenting both fear and worry, and causing distress.
Dreaming of a future full of brightness
Floating above my corporeal form
Building and creating a beau...
Monday 9th April 2018 7:57 pm
Cruel Refrain
For again i fall
To his charming call
A trap it may be
Its shine captures me
My heart is eaten out
My feelings headed south
Yet my affection is still his
My torture is his bliss
In his web, i lay
There came a girl one day
Ignorant of the danger
Behind the charms that linger
I could not shout
I could not call out
A fate that echos mine
A victim, next in line
It is like a cru...
Wednesday 4th April 2018 11:49 am
To The Past
{To The Past}
Here's to my
past for the
one's who
thought they
knew me well
I can actually
say to you that
you can kiss my
ass and please
go straight to
hell for the
last and final
damn time
©Tina Glover All Rights Reserved/ One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer 2017 but posting here on February 26,2018
Tuesday 27th February 2018 3:40 am
So Unpredictable
25/10/11
So unpredictable.
So sharp and so cunning
Is the pain that run through me,
Hideous yet so stunning.
I want to keep it here,
I want to feel it's cold aching
Blood spilling from me
My heart is still breaking
What if I want it to stop?
Please, leave me alone!
It'll be there. Waiting.
For me to decay down to bones.
Maybe that's what I wa...
Thursday 15th February 2018 9:55 pm
Revenge
The way, she did to me
Is the way I did to her
The way, where hearts broke
The way,
I will never return to
The way where
Sun used to long last
The days spent in the past
Still, when thy feeling arises
My day neither sets, nor rises
Saturday 13th January 2018 11:58 am
Looking Back
Present — past
Past — gone
Looking back and remembering the yesterdays
Is wrong.
*
Where is NOW?
Where is it?
Living in the THEN…
No, that’s not NOW, not it!
*
The ghost of yesterday
Is in mind
But looking back
Is the NOW you’ll never find.
Thursday 3rd August 2017 12:57 am
Who I am Becoming
Is the pain of loneliness worse than the pain of regret
Than giving away another part of your shrinking soul
I only have so much to give
I do not know how to stop
I am not eternal
I am not limitless
I am finite
There is a certain amount of me
And some parts never grow back
Some parts, once given, cannot ever be recovered
I cannot be returned to who I once was
...
Thursday 27th April 2017 12:55 am
Hope
Yesterday, the sun shone black upon my soul
Depth's depth deep beneath my heart.
Lumined ne'er by hope
Thoughts sank weighted low
Today, dawn'd, in heaven's mantle rais'd,
Glims golden future in my mind.
Light lightened all by future faith
Heart, mind and soul exalting up
Her voice love levered up, returned it from the depths
Dark voids where happiness was stra...
Monday 24th April 2017 4:54 pm
Open Your Eyes
I had been feeling sad and lonely. I decided to go back into the past and visit
my child hood home.
My Sister, Mother and Brother were sitting at the kitchen table enjoying a meal,
I walked in and said, "Hello!"
They welcomed me warmly and asked, "How have You been?" I felt secure and
comfortable being welcomed home.
Soon my Father made an appearance and asked,...
Tuesday 7th June 2016 6:28 pm
Bullet Holes In Backyards
Wound up
some nights
I go out to think…
Of all the truths we share
there are little reminders we choose to keep hidden
fix up the front porch
but bullet holes in backyards
they go on…
We may not know what they mean
but we know what they represent
the past is scarred, pock-marked
Did the children stand beside the pond
where they were sprayed and felled
did the family huddle clo...
Wednesday 1st June 2016 9:57 am
An Animal Painting
Cackling cows, but the milk is sour.
Poison meat that we devour.
Broken hearts left to cower.
Thursday 10th December 2015 9:12 pm
Always remember the beach
How about the beach? Sandy feet, fresh breeze. Seize the sunlight, beam just as bright
How about flying a kite? Light, the campfire, just right. Tent settled, just behind that tree you see?
How perfect could this be? Gazing beside one another; amongst grass and stars We huggled as if it ...
Friday 16th October 2015 1:05 am
A Passing Thought at 5AM
I miss the little things.
My schoolyard friends,
The summer's end,
My childish dreams.
And fear this too
Of tomorrow's day.
When I will say,
Today was full.
If Hope lies ahead
And happiness back,
It can only track
That now is dead.
The present is skiewed,
By what was then,
The future's when,
And how they're viewed.
,
...
Thursday 20th August 2015 11:57 am
In the end, nothing changed at all
Open your books,
On page seventy-two.
Read these sides,
And learn about the past,
Which is not anymore.
We learn about war,
About hate and racism,
And they call it past,
And close their eyes
To not see reality.
One day, they will,
I hope, will understand,
That to be in denial,
Doesn't help altogether.
Because in the end,
Nothing changed a...
Sunday 26th July 2015 11:31 am
Artefacts
Everything I used to touch
was touched with sadness
Everything I used to make
or say out loud
or joke about
was infused with sadness
A pathos to deepen all
a blackness
to accentuate all light
Everything I hung
was waiting to be hanged
in every tale I spun
I was waiting to be hanged
Somehow the sadness
magnified the bright moments
shifted perspective
brought my dark art to...
Saturday 17th January 2015 12:34 am
One Life, three time periods
The past is the past.
So, learn and build from it.
The present is here, right now.
So, live to the fullest and don't hold back.
The future is ahead of us waiting.
So, whenever that time comes
take ahold of it and don't look back.
Friday 24th October 2014 4:44 am
Awoken
These memories fade into me
Each time I gather
They become seamless
They've woven themselves into the stars
Beauty as they are
It is my past
To the melody of my soul
I caught them dancing
As if they didn't mind the memories that cried
They thought them loveliness
Please watch for when they fall
That is you or I falling to harmonize
...
Monday 25th August 2014 3:46 am
The Knock
Lo and behold that feeling
once more has returned
To tease test and torment
dead past willfully spurned
From window shut forever
heard unmistakable creak
A portent of ensuing havoc
and destruction it’ll wreak
Dilemmas deemed sorted
in archives since then lost
Will augment latent agony
with much heftier paid cost
An arduous uphill dr...
Tuesday 12th August 2014 3:54 pm
On the Influences of Love
A raving, craving, fiending junkie.
Incessantly nodding, affirming yes,
Consistently giving, despite duress. Love turned me into a puppet pauper,
A penniless, lack-luck, begging gawper.
Constantly scrounging, loose change sifter,
Tirelessly searching, dime store drifter. Love turned me into a courtly fool,
A grinning, spinning, ignorant tool.
Happ...
Monday 23rd June 2014 9:35 am
Our House
I sometimes wander past the house where we used to live.
I park across the road and contemplate
the things we used to do.
As much as I stare I cannot see within
and even if I could
I’d only see the strangers who occupy our house.
I wonder if deep into the night
our voices from years ago
Might penetrate the years
and our echo may softly rebound
Across the walls we used...
Wednesday 11th December 2013 7:46 am
Before She Came (The Girl From Kansas)
Before She Came (The Girl From Kansas)
before she came
I stood here
for what seemed
like eons
with a blood red sun
setting behind me
my head full
of nothing more
than sawdust
straw
and dreams
a hole in my chest
where beetles
scuttled
happy
come rain or shine
my only fear
that crows might see
through me
be brav...
Saturday 22nd June 2013 2:02 pm
That Place
In that place
The summers were always hot and the skies completely blue.
And in that place
Where nothing ever hurt me
A lie was never spoken; it was all completely true
In that place
When the morning sun spilled into my room and woke me
Then I’d be up and out and riding my bike
And in that place
The place where I’d be the fastest biker ever
...Wednesday 2nd January 2013 7:11 am
MY LITTLE COLD WAR
MY LITTLE COLD WAR
My mate sent some song lyrics to me, by some band. I read them after reading my story on my nuclear armed stealth jet being used in anger. I’m trying to make sense of the cold war I grew up in now, so many years later. It’s so crazy. The younger kids have no idea but my mate does, he’s only 21 but he tries to understand what it was like growing up under the shadow ...
Thursday 22nd September 2011 11:44 pm
Holding the hand of the model maker
Today I have been holding the hand of the model maker.
With my brush I attempt to make good -
as they say.
He died soon after he finished
a wonderful re-incarnation
of our lost harbour.
He made it as light relief while working on
some effigy of violence.
That was his real job.
I like to think of him
losing himself in ...
Sunday 27th February 2011 6:25 pm
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