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Substance Abuse

You laid it down before me
Stuck the dollar in my nose
Got me breathing fast
Had me feeling trashed

One dose had me down
One hit and I begged for more
One more hit
One more kiss
One more line
One more night
Until my body went cold

Laced with poison
You decieved me
Lied about what you sold
And now I can't shake this crave
I can't shake this pain
I can't shake you from my brain

Pinned against the wall
Wrapped tightly around you
Holding onto a drug
I was forced to use
Screaming and sobbing
Begging you to stay
One more hit
One more high
Please please please
Don't go away

Shaking like a junkie
Forced to need you
Offering no rescue
Just a quick hit
One bump
and you're gone
Leaving the crime scene
All to me
And an addiction
To reliving senseless tragedy

One hit
I close my eyes and replay
The horror film in my head
One more hit
Every night
Every morning
Every free moment
I get
One more hit
All that was unwanted
And all that was unsaid
All of those hours of you in my bed
One more hit
Left reeling
Left feeling
Again
Like the fault was mine
One more hit
I'm so tired
So so so
tired

This all too real
Paralysis demon
My all time terror
That will never go away
One more hit
Over and over
On loop
One more hit
Forever
Until I'm dead

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