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Forgotten
When we die,
We'll be forgotten,
But what can we say when
We're forgotten
While alive?
What am I to think
When I am invisible?
When I am cast aside?
When I am the problem?
Who is there to see me for me?
Does death then hold no meaning?
Is death even worth fearing?
Or is it rather embraced
As a means of escape
From those who
Don't care
At all?
Thursday 21st November 2024 4:33 pm
Fruits of over-thoughtfulness and secret espers
“Fruits of over-thoughtfulness”
Even to my best of friends,
I couldn't talk.
Because of the thought,
They might;
Walk,
While I sulk.
I rather stitch My mouth,
Than to disturb,
the only person, I want
To converse with.
I am not solo,
Have solitude got my
Back, when tired;
As all my plans got,
back-fired.
What if all my companions...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 2:48 pm
Laments of imagination
"The laments of imagination”
Everytime and every-other time,
I duelled with my life on- line,
Against those “worst-case scenarios”;
I created for the better
for mine.
We always gone,
Toe-to-toe,
Each other's best foe.
“nah, I will win and give it a run”,
I thought to myself.
While anxiety made me stun,
I got stung ,
And created a new river to run;
Wi...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 2:38 pm
Tumours
I'm laying on the operating table
The lights almost blinding me
As I wait for the anaesthetic to kick in
Waiting for the bliss of sleep
I realise...
There was no anaesthetic
I begin to panic but my body stays still
As if I'm chained up to the table
As if my brain is denying control
I feel each cut the surgeon makes
I feel a warm liquid dripping down my...
Wednesday 28th August 2024 3:06 pm
Hurricanes
Swirling thoughts
causing chaos in my head
Leaving destruction in its path
Debris consisting of my past
Left scattered
Left broken
My head filled with TV-like static
Never staying on one show
Never giving me the time
To appreciate the little things
The plots
The characters
Somehow something calmed the storm
Someone
Even if it's for a bri...
Tuesday 27th August 2024 4:37 pm
Starry nights
Here I am floating in the starry night
Filling my head with thoughts of delight
Flying through the atmosphere
In fear.
That I might go too far and reach the expanding abyss
Here I am floating in the starry night
Drifting aimlessly through the black void
Without a tether... without a voice
In fear
That I might drift back into earth's orbit and plummit to the core
...Tuesday 27th August 2024 4:22 pm
The Happy Friend
Reading through each page
Experiencing the characters emotions
Putting myself into the protagonist's shoes
Only to realise that I've left out the person who hurts the most
Paging through the book I start to realise
The "happy" friend has always been hurting the most
They have always supported the protagonist, but never themselves
Even though the protagonist is the superhe...
Tuesday 27th August 2024 4:20 pm
Eyes on Me
I don’t want to be seen
I don’t want to be perceived
I wish I could go anywhere and be invisible.
People are everywhere
Eyes are everywhere
They’re all living their own lives but why do I feel as though mine is being watched?
As though they’re looking for a mistake in me
Is my hair messy?
Is my outfit mismatched?
Do I walk wei...
Monday 19th August 2024 11:30 am
going blind
i know you’re disappointed in me
we always scream for hours and fight
until i decide to go out on a walk by the big oak tree
even though i can barely see the sidewalk at night
im starting to think that i can’t see in general anymore
i look in the mirror and see someone new
it’s like i’ve never seen her before
i wonder if you feel that way about me too
my therapist...
Monday 22nd July 2024 5:07 am
Monsters don’t exist
Monsters don’t exist they say, they aren’t under your bed
I realise now I’m older, it was all just in my head,
but them ones are the scariest, the monsters in your mind,
the ones that make your heartbeat race, the creatures you can’t find.
Only you can feel them there, it’s driving you insane.
your body shakes, your brain, it aches ,from fears that live within,
you cry inside, you’ve got to ...
Monday 3rd June 2024 6:34 pm
Must be cool
It must be cool to be in a band
Everyone says so
The adoration from the crowd
It shouldn't really be allowed
We're all idols in our own time
But some need more
Time after time
While ever rotting at the core
Musicing is now a verb
But it always has been hasn't it?
Plucking, strumming and picking
It hardly warrants any thinking
I find it an ever d...
Friday 22nd March 2024 4:11 pm
unachievable dreams
didn't wake up with the intention of being bad
I don't know why there's a pit in my stomach when no one is dead
run around my house and verbally beat up my dad
the screams sound bloodshed
he says, "there's so much you wanna do"
and i obvert my eyes
wait around for a mental break-through
and make unachievable plans doing the highs
i wanna be a savior
and get th...
Friday 15th March 2024 2:39 am
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