I know I'm not allowed to want you back
But I'm afraid I'm guilty of the crime--
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To feel you in my arms just one more time
Friday 25th June 2021 6:02 am
Some years ago you broke my happy heart
Tonight we're kissing in the pouring rain
I thought that opening old wounds would hurt
But living with the scars was the true pain
Friday 28th May 2021 8:30 am
Dreams of uncertainty
Light up the unsuspecting mind
Floating through the abyss
Needing to be fed by the void inside.
Forming a strange pattern
The illusion once affixed
Veers through the twisted labyrinth
Setting a stage for the hopeful to fall all over.
The heat felt is roused
By this fleeting moment
Mistaking it to be existent
Till it plunges us into a...
Friday 7th May 2021 8:19 am
I want to feel
to feel you
I want to feel
I want to feel
Feel you near me
Rouses me from frightening dreams
Thy long lost lover
Lost to the sea
Many lives ago
I stand on the cliff
Dark skies hug me
Monday 3rd May 2021 1:37 am
There are no colours,
Time weights my lids.
And soon I see nothing more than time.
If you do not hold me,
I will be cold.
If you are not near,
How will I tell you all these things that I think?
There are no thoughts,
Dreams fill my brain.
Soon I, incapable of reason, will be permanently lost.
If you are not there,
I will be cold.
If you do not want me,
What use, all these things...
Thursday 22nd April 2021 8:29 am
Come then, Victory.
This lady has done with Darkness.
Is too full of sadness.
But the war rages on,
She has no control.
It isn't as she wishes.
"Come then.", saith the night,
"Take up this shroud of blackness."
She does its bidding.
"Come then.", saith blackest night.
"I am the Harness."
Wednesday 21st April 2021 9:21 am
Yet what is dreaming?
A spoken word. A broken friendship.
Heart burns. The party's ended.
The kind advance met with confusion,
There's nothing left to do, but ...
Monday 19th April 2021 8:59 am
I am like all those other lonely women;
My eyes are closing, from the stinging.
I am ageing with the best of them,
I am growing veined, waiting.
My HEART is a cog turning,
I have BARBED WIRE for a stomach.
My legs are PISTONS burning,
My GUTS are rubber.
And all my parts are rusted, aged, breaking;
Even my technology is out-dated.
My teeth are RAZORS, biting.
My EYES are funnels...
Sunday 18th April 2021 8:04 am
You took the sweet-lipped child
as she slept in innocence.
As she danced, with the daisies in her hair,
at a picnic party.
The sour-mouthed woman
rises from the broken fragments.
And now you wonder.
And now you back away in horror.
The woman stands alone among you.
The anger ...
Saturday 17th April 2021 2:50 am
I know what the future holds.
No warm embraces for this weary heart.
The shades of night breathe welcome to the day.
The memories flicker, with the firelight.
The sadness fades.
The blackness hides within.
I am one with nothing, once again.
But pain is free,
And I'll take any bargain, so it seems.
I'm wondering something in me hasn't changed,
I cannot weep.
I've had the anger.
My eyes ...
Friday 16th April 2021 4:02 am
And are you he?
No shadow softened sun
Could ever cause this fire in my heart
Nor too, the lingering ember in the grate.
Oh, it is not the culprit that I seek -
That seeks me too.
Oh, tell me, is it you?
Thursday 15th April 2021 9:09 am
I've been falling apart for a union.
Didn't mind my mind's intrusion.
But, I've been dreaming about solutions.
Running the race in the wrong direction.
Living for a figment of my own imagination.
For no reason.
I've been walking the line of indecision.
Toying around wi...
Wednesday 14th April 2021 8:38 am
We are both naive young fools.
You do not see
What is in front of your face,
And I do not hear
What is behind my own.
We are both amateur players,
In a game with no rules.
You missed your sights,
But you shot me through,
I am blinded by you.
Tuesday 13th April 2021 4:00 am
There are no longer words.
I have grown ancient listening.
I have grown a maze of wrinkles,
If my eyes seem dull,
Remember they have forgotten you,
I sit, and watch the hunting.
Come and join me,
Monday 12th April 2021 4:57 am
I have not yet seen
How beautiful you are
Or how funny or smart
But I know you exist
Because of the love
That is already in my heart
Sunday 11th April 2021 6:38 pm
There is no question
I love thee
But lovers we
Can never be
For if you ever
Were to see
This heart of mine
Sunday 11th April 2021 6:15 pm
Can I help it, if I think you're beautiful?
If I love you,
Must I spend my whole life being sorry?
When you smile,
Something twists inside me.
Something fragile, so it ought to break
Can I help it, if I think you're special?
If your name excites me,
Must I always try to hide it?
The cynic in me tries to squash it;
Dulls my voice, and makes me stiffen.
Makes my gaze see...
Sunday 11th April 2021 4:01 am
It should not be a sad thing,
To be a friend.
But I cry at night, on an empty pillow.
And every day I dream about you,
And see your face, in shadows.
It should not be a bad thing,
To be a friend.
But every night I dream about you.
And in the day, I cry without you,
And give myself to sorrow.
It should not be so maddening
Saturday 10th April 2021 3:30 am
Show me the year it was -
I'll show you the seventeen it wasn't,
And the eternity it never will be, that follows.
Show me the memories -
I'll show you the smiles forgotten,
And the shattered illusions, broken fragments.
Show me the point in living -
And I will cut my throat on it!
Don't you know everyone's dying?
It's all the rage.
Recognise the sound...
Friday 9th April 2021 8:58 am
I want to write a cheerful poem.
I want to sing a song of joy.
And clap my hands,
And throw my caution to the wind,
Not this misery, I.
I'd wear a dress of red and gold.
All laced up,
All softly flowing.
I want to joke, and laugh, and talk,
And brave this storm.
Not go in black,
Not me, this wreck;
Thursday 8th April 2021 4:54 am
She tried to smile,
She practiced it at home at night.
And how she'd act,
She tried to speak as if it were alright.
She even smiled,
but mostly at herself.
They didn't care.
They didn't even notice how she felt.
She found that funny too.
She practiced for that aim.
As if it were the only goal in life,
She wished they'd wonder, all the same.
She wasn't brave,
Wednesday 7th April 2021 9:04 am
On a broken stone, in a wide wild ocean,
A breaking girl, in a sea of tears.
A broken heart, and half a notion
To break away the rest of her years.
But the breaking stone refused to split,
And the roaring waves refused to bite.
So all alone,
And lonelier yet,
For nothing would take her life.
She thought of sleeping
Till she drifted away,
And so she did -
And so she did.
She laid ...
Tuesday 6th April 2021 12:59 am
Note: This is probably the most embarassing of the poems in the sub-theme of 'Unrequited Love'
(Although there are a few other strong contenders)
But, I wouldn't be doing the audience or the theme any justice if I were to omit this one.
(I'm not sure if it is the zenith or the nadir)
So, if you read on, don't say you were not warned.
Monday 5th April 2021 11:58 am
Can't get you out of my mind.
Can't halt your stay in my mind.
Can't halt my mind.
Can't hold my breath.
Can't hug death.
Sunday 4th April 2021 11:37 am
Time to visit my 17 year old self, for the next sub-theme in Love's Tempest of 'Unrequited Love'.
With low self-esteem and low social confidence it was kind of inevitable.
But that's not the only way this particular storm can brew.
This first poem in the sub-theme, 'Reckless Abandon' is presented in two forms.
In its original version, and as a shaped poem.
The original version
Saturday 3rd April 2021 11:45 am
When our ships met again in open seas
our eyes met in the salt air
under gull cries
a vow was kept
testified by Neptune
for sundry nereids inspirited
the disclosure of secret love
you are gentle,
& the wise know you,
my feeling was divulged to you
but I bear the curse of graves
strong vessels with wooden bones,
scattered at the bottom
a sounder ship is awaiting
Monday 15th March 2021 5:11 am
I think of you, chastise myself,
And press your name away
Ignoring, stubbornly, the fact,
You’re present every day
I don’t ask why I cannot help
But seek your commentary
On every task, or smile of mine-
A wish I cannot bury
I say, embarrassed at myself,
That this affair ends now.
This fantasy, this made-up game,
I cannot keep allowing
Saturday 16th January 2021 6:55 pm