Poetry Blog by Flavia Gordon
betrays all that I try to hide
soothes the turmoil inside
takes my breath away
gives me hope for another day
reveals desires I have forgotten and were dormant
offers what I need and all that I want
awakens a passion I so desperately want to indulge in
pacifies my suffering.
Tuesday 15th September 2020 2:10 am
(Waring! Excessive use of expletives)
Hindsight illuminates the plight
Retrospect brings dark to light
Always a little too late
Try as I might
Do I stand up and fight
Or is this a time for flight
I can never seem to tell
Never get it right
I guess genetically, I am a mix of ostrich and possum
Freeze and play dead...
Monday 14th September 2020 10:50 pm
Must think happy thoughts
Avoid the lure of melancholy
One must remain jolly
Feign being upbeat and perky
Until it becomes a reality
Yes, you can do it
It's no sweat
Grin and bear it
Smile...abate the threat
You are now a pro...
A life spent surviving the impossible...
This is but a minuscule bout of sorrow...
Monday 14th September 2020 10:21 pm
She wondered into his place of work because she thought she was loosing her head
When approached by him she lost herself, her wits and her heart instead
She found her will to try, emotions she had lost, physical urges she thought she had shed
The sight and sound of him, the insight he shared, her soul he fed
Cautiously she indulged, dependency has only ever brought feelings of dread...
Monday 14th September 2020 10:11 pm
I sat before
Crumpling in on myself
Lost in my head
Wishing I was dead
It's over now
Why are we still here
He got what he wanted
Why does he sit there and stare
My body limp
Folding over in submission
My head on his knee
Monday 14th September 2020 5:44 pm
I lost all control
Crossed the threshold
My tears too excruciating to hold
I prayed earnestly to be released from the pyre
I saw you and I continued to burn
Only now, I burned also with desire
Fervent interest realized
The voodoo you do, mesmerized
Oh, what power you weild!
Desperately I yearn to yeild
Tuesday 8th September 2020 5:46 am
I can't breathe.
I don't want to breathe...
I want to seethe.
Please let me seethe...
(Because I can't have you!)
I want to feed.
Why can't I feed...
(I want to devour you!)
I have needs.
Don't you have needs...
(Let me fulfill a few!)
Let's do the deed.
Let me do the deed...
(I want to make love to you!)
Sunday 6th September 2020 6:31 pm
Who am I
why do I
when will I
where can I
My identity un-formed and crude
The show never ends
Until the curtain is drawn
All the doors are closed and simulations suspend
I don't know who I am
Give anything to be sure
Stand firm in my convictions
On both sides of the door
No duplicity here
All masks removed...
Saturday 5th September 2020 10:19 pm
Silently I weep
What one sows
Isn't that what they're supposed to reap?
Why do I remain good
Continue to be kind
Try ever so hard to preserve my mind
Karma seems to lack purpose
Or simply ignores the concept of time.
Doesn't my pain matter
My life unrecognizable and tattered
Am I that good at pretendi...
Saturday 5th September 2020 6:21 pm
Panic setting in
For reasons unknown everything is unsettling
I wished I could kick my heels and disappear
But, instead, he appears
Through the haze his face is clear
I fight the urge to will him near
Oh God, did he sense my fear
Or my emotions churning and my tears near
How does he do it, what exactly does he hear
Me daring him to care
My vulnerability on full blast ...
Friday 4th September 2020 6:18 am
The future unknown yet frightful
A familiar face in the crowd
So warm, inviting and sweet...
Everything makes sense again
Hope is reignited
Fear, is once again
For the time being
Friday 4th September 2020 6:00 am
Am I making an impression...
Do I leave you bewildered with every expression...
Do you look forward like I do to our weekly sessions...
Or are my scribbled musings akin to aggression...
An unbecoming, pathetic vie for attention...
I find you delightful and have a genuine fascination...
I am curiously eager, feelings bordering on intoxication.
But, apparently in therap...
Friday 4th September 2020 4:14 am
When shadows go into hiding
And dreams run wild
I imagine you all stripped down and bare
All facades shed
Thoughts of me invade your head...
Or so I wish, a girl can dream
I miss you, I want you
If only I could scream
These words out loud
Remove the shroud
Say them loud
Say them proud...
But I mustn't disturb the peace
What is unknown must remain ...
Thursday 3rd September 2020 10:20 am