Poetry Blogs (2020, pain)
To hang on a wall of my empty room,
I think I will need a picture of rain.
Hitting the ground, and springing up to ankles,
Rain wets the socks and trousers from below.
My eyes chase along
Roof-edges, streets, sidewalks,
--tick, tick, tick--
Checking all, one by one,
To find a dark brolly,
And a woman in black enamel shoes,
Lightly treading the...
Saturday 27th June 2020 7:47 am
The man who
Can be worn
Like the thorn,
The man who
Smiles with truth,
Holds your hand
The man who
Who doesn't taste like sin
The man who
Walks lighter than falling pins,
Whose shape is vein thin,
Who fits in
The man who
Will slip in,
Who you can slip on,
Who can be worn,
See you wan
Tuesday 23rd June 2020 2:21 pm
In the ruins
Of my temple
Once in control
My warmest kiss
In the arms of
To face new growth
The path across
Saturday 13th June 2020 1:22 pm
Now when i look back to my life after all these years of pain and sorrow,
only to realise that how far i have come.
Looking back to my older dark soul,
i am proud of my growth.
I am just 20 and i know there's a long long road ahead,
and i am ready for it.
This one last look to my past,
with teary eyes and a bright smile.
Now i am leaving behind my past, ...
Friday 12th June 2020 9:58 pm
I was reading a story
When i felt a sudden spark of pain in my heart
I was feeling like someone was piercing needles deep inside my soul
It was unbearable and tears were rolling down
I closed my eyes, it was all dark
And then i saw you
I tried opening my eyes but I couldn’t
Because deep inside I still wanted to see you for maybe one last time even when nothing was real
Friday 12th June 2020 9:14 pm
Sometimes even when everything is right
Nothing feels right
Everything is complete
But deep down all you feel is emptiness
Your life is going smooth
But all you feel is sadness
But all you do is cry
You don’t know the reason
But all you feel is pain enduring you
You don’t want to give up
But all you do is losing hope
Friday 12th June 2020 9:07 pm
I’m wondering what happened this time
You were here one day and gone the next
You took root in my mind again and I let you
Then you leave me hanging
I can’t even question why you are doing this
I keep telling myself you owe me no explanation
But then you left this breathless space in my chest
And I don’t know what to do with it
Feels like goodbye is in order
But I’m not ...
Monday 8th June 2020 1:59 am
Pain, Pain go away
Go and never come back soon
It’s becoming more difficult to hide you these days
Please kindly go away.
Tears and sniffles go away
Ruining my face with your runny self
I still have to put up a brave face for the tide ahead
Please do me the favour of staying away
This thing called happiness
Has eluded me for a while now
I just feel so tired...
Monday 8th June 2020 1:07 am
You lie awake in bed with your eyes swollen from the tears and the pain
Wondering why you deserve to hurt
You play back scenes in your head thinking , " Was it all fake!"
The smiles, the love, the times we laid together in bed, talking about children, and houses by the lake
You close your eyes and tears fall down your face and you cry to God , " Please, please make it all go away!"
Monday 25th May 2020 5:46 pm
A summer's Christmas,
A winter's Easter,
Sun blazed reflections,
Moon chilled features,
Decaying bright shadows,
Renewing dark radiance,
Exogenous void within',
Lagging just to rush,
The constantly inconsistent,
Concealing joyous sorrows,
Being contiguously distant,
Thoughts resistantly flowing,
Nerves electrically static,
Wednesday 20th May 2020 11:20 pm
I can't take it,
I'm only asking,
Please Lord help me,
I'm tired of relapsing,
Over and over,
My veins are collapsing,
I know you hear me,
I'm sorry for babbling,
I don't understand,
Why this keeps happening,
I'm covering the pain,
It's so everlasting,
The hurt burns deep,
It never stops dragging,
Life is a slow death,
It's truly a sad thing,
Sunday 10th May 2020 3:20 pm
The oak tree
Unwavering and sturdy
Tells us how to be:
Don’t break so easily
In the slightest change of wind
Climbing back through my childhood bedroom window
Landing on shards of broken glass
Crimson oozes slowly
As I pray each stab is its last
So much has shaken me since my first landing
Each step taken cuts deeper than the beginning
Tuesday 5th May 2020 10:02 pm
You’re standing still at the top of a hill, the breeze gradually increasing, staring intently at he picturesque view of the voracious desert terrain that could ultimately devour you with a single touch. the breeze has been blowing, constantly blowing for many months, you forget what it was like to have still, calm air around you. But the breeze is picking up, you start shaking, not because of the ...
Thursday 30th April 2020 1:13 pm
I enjoy bringing tough guys and gals to their knees.
I can make everyone in my path cry like babies.
You think you can stop me with drugs or alcohol?
That’s a fool’s game.
It will drive you insane.
Your candy doesn’t keep me away
anymore than a cross stops suffering.
The only escape is to free me
from the one place you fear to go.
I reside deep within your mind.
Tuesday 7th April 2020 4:11 am
longing for a doll's house,
a teddy bear,
and a ventriloquist puppet.
Longing to be held, comforted, soothed.
Longing for the safety of home,
something to cuddle and a companion.
Longing for the pleasure of play,
the delight in losing oneself in make believe:
I picture myself,
five years old and,
painting in my yellow, plastic smock ...
Tuesday 31st March 2020 10:05 pm
fill me up with cum
or drugs, smoke and rum
or let me use myself
not because i enjoy either
but because i deserve both
- i am a bad person
Tuesday 24th March 2020 11:58 pm
here i sit, again
venting with keys that
not a soul
will ever read,
that will idly hum for eternity
without exisitng ever
it's really pathetic
that i can't take pain
without turning into poetry
i can't even do it well
i miss you so much,
and it hurts
the worst part is that i...
Thursday 12th March 2020 11:56 pm
Sunday 9th February 2020 2:04 am
I know I traded something
A part of me
For the splendid splendour of money
I did that thing you shouldn’t do
I gave myself to him
You know, the soul
Cut a piece of myself out for him
You know, the heart
I cut a piece of myself off for him
(You know which part)
But I didn't feel a thing
I'm waiting to miss it
I'm waiting for the pain
Monday 3rd February 2020 1:43 pm
I really wish I went to college
I can’t believe I trusted that bitch
But was it love or just a lack of knowledge
Shit hurt my heart seeing my big brother
Cuff a bitch that had mileage
He went to jail, she told him I tried to fuck ha
Ian even have no money
So ion even know why the butch was lying
Niggas buy anything a bitch tell em when they in jail
But damn big Jevo Ian even have ...
Tuesday 28th January 2020 3:37 pm
the pain gets too overwhelming
i find myself sitting alone dwelling
on the past life that led me to drugs
i sit wondering where i went wrong, lost all my friends; im an outcast, i dont belong
and i dont understand why god kept me living
what does all he suffering bring but an eternal hell thatg suffocates me
losing all efforts, it feels like i cant breathe
and the battle goes...
Wednesday 15th January 2020 11:33 am
it’s 6:21 and when I look out my window from the corner of 29D,
there’s a subtle hue of blood orange outlining what looks like the perimeter of
and a breeze of clouds, lighter than feathers, so thin, as if it forgot to carry the mist it was designed to pour tonight
but that’s okay, because it found itself a new purpose:
your shrewd orange spirit is now perf...
Sunday 5th January 2020 6:22 am