Grasping at straws

I’m wondering what happened this time

You were here one day and gone the next

You took root in my mind again and I let you

Then you leave me hanging

I can’t even question why you are doing this

I keep telling myself you owe me no explanation

But then you left this breathless space in my chest

And I don’t know what to do with it

Feels like goodbye is in order

But I’m not ready for it

I’m not ready to close this chapter

I don’t want to forget

I don’t want this feeling to go away

Cause you are worth loving, pining for and holding onto

Perhaps there is more to our story

Perhaps I’m allowed to have you.