Poetry Blogs (internal struggle)
I don't know.. my life seems out of my control... It's no longer mine it's in the hands of those around me and the governing forces that keep me in line.. I just don't know.. it feels so weird to be sober.... So... Weird... Its not normal for me to fall asleep in a natural way. It almost feels unnatural.. my addiction has become the ruling figure in my life not my emotions,love or financial stabil...
Friday 10th August 2018 4:29 am
I thought I had changed
I thought I was better
I thought I beat it
I thought I fixed it
But here I stand
Trying to be tall
Knowing I am so small
The world pressing down
I’m scared again
Swore I never would be
And no one likes it
No one wants to hear it
So keep it hush
Keep it low
Don’t want to be
The girl who cried wolf
But until ...
Monday 2nd April 2018 10:05 pm
I am fifteen years old and I think I own the world.
I have a boyfriend and he loves me.
He yells at me but that is okay, he loves me.
He shoves me but that is okay, he loves me.
He slapps me but that is okay, he loves me.
He holds me down as I yell and scream because it hurts but that is okay, he loves me.
I am sixteen years old and I escaped my first abusive relationship....
Monday 24th July 2017 10:43 am
The Fact of no naps no snaps or snap backs
To wake you up from the fact you were never sleep
Can't sleep for the time you weep but seep
Into the fact that you can't sleep
Wanting to have dreams and past a test with ease
But I can't sleep
There has been a robbery where sleep doesn't reflect on eat
From the fact eat didn't take care of sleep
To where somebody has stolen eat a...
Thursday 2nd June 2016 6:24 am
You’ve gotta help me
There is something wrong with me.
It's an illness!
But it's not,
In the messy web
Of the venomous spider
That is called
I have a crush.
I need help,
But his hair has these lovely curls,
Monday 18th April 2016 3:18 pm
I'd like you to like me
and I'd like you to know,
Id doesn't like me and Superego doesn't know where to go.
I've planned a trip to where the tulips grow -
find a vein, push a plunger, let the psychotropes flow.
I know you don't like me
and we've nowhere to go.
Ego doesn't know what to do and Id has hate to sow.
I'd like you to, I'd like to oblige you to throw
Monday 11th April 2016 2:32 pm
Back on the grand stage again
The place where I feel so comfortable
Well, where I used to feel so comfortable
Something doesn’t feel right
I don’t the feel the music anymore
The source of my happiness
It’s like the sun has burnt out
Like the moon has lost its glow
I want to sing but my voice keeps breaking
I want to play but my fingers keep shaking
Monday 22nd February 2016 10:36 pm