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Only Color Left
I took for granted everything,
colors of every hue.
I didn’t know those colors
filled my world because of you.
So, like the fool I am
I let you go, too blind to see
that on my own I am just alone
and things turned out to be
where colors slowly slipped away,
the yellows, greens and blues.
And now the only color left…
is the memory of you.
Friday 21st March 2025 11:18 pm
Sepia ‘Through The Eyes Of The Old’
be it a rose of winter compares
a dew drop tear on the first open eye,
I still dream of ghosts walking the towns,
I am there with them on rich hunting ground
hindsight retraces all we should’ve been,
and still we are waiting, mute to a dream
my hope ponders spirit, in a world left to die,
confide, we do in each other,
tonight we ride alone
all that thrives has lost i...
Sunday 16th March 2025 5:12 pm
Kaleidoscope Memory
Like the first mirror reflects whats before it
I live in the past
Anchored by my commitments
I failed to take that class
The angle of time constricts at a point
Silent in its steps despite how vast
Ranging millenia little by little
The promise is a lie you can not outlast
Through the scope I inspect my thought
Regret is not the word because I have made peace
Feel the grip of anxi...
Monday 13th January 2025 12:50 pm
Memento Mori
Memento Mori
Sun shone through the greying lace,
And highlighted her wrinkled face.
Dormant now, no signs of breath,
Not unexpected, a timely death.
Months of pain relieved by time,
Old age being nature’s ultimate crime.
A better place her soul now seeks,
Drying tears nestled on hollowed cheeks.
This disappearing woman faded from sight,
Unnoticed, she left us all...
Tuesday 7th January 2025 12:34 pm
The Three Wishes
An old man, burdened by life's hardships, sits alone on a park bench, lost in sorrow. A stranger, offering three wishes, appears before him, promising a chance at happiness. But what begins as a fleeting opportunity soon turns into a journey of regret, as the man’s impulsive wishes lead him to face the true cost of his desires. Based on Erich Kästner's fairy tale, this thought-provoking tale explo...
Sunday 5th January 2025 12:31 pm
The Last Letter (Continued)
David sat in his childhood room, the stack of letters trembling in his hands. Each one was a window into his mother’s heart—a heart he had taken for granted. Her words, so full of love and longing, cut through the years of silence between them.
He found a letter dated ten years earlier. It spoke of her hope to see him at Christmas. He hadn’t come that year. Another letter, written five years ag...
Saturday 28th December 2024 1:36 pm
The Last Letter
Evelyn sat by the window, her frail hands clutching a pen. Outside, snow blanketed the empty street, muffling the world in silence. The house was still except for the faint ticking of a clock, marking moments that felt too long and too short all at once.
She stared at the blank sheet of paper on the desk before her. For years, she'd written to her son, David. She’d sent birthday cards, Christma...
Saturday 28th December 2024 1:24 pm
Pain Relief
When will it go away?
The pain in my chest
Pain in my stomach
Pain.
It’s repetitive and never stops
It creeps up on me like bugs
Stings like a wasp
Bites like a mosquito
And leaves, taking a small part of me
Some say it’s a part of life
Maybe I don’t want that
If this is life
Maybe I don’t want any p...
Saturday 24th August 2024 7:00 pm
I Used To Have
I used to have a reason
to get up and fight for truth.
I used to have light in my eyes
to know I’d be with you.
I used to have a lot of things
but now all that I do -
is sit here alone, remembering home,
wishing I’d been true.
I used to have a family.
I used to have a home.
I used to have friends,
things I could call wins.
A foundation made of st...
Sunday 7th April 2024 5:10 pm
Coming To Grips
Sitting here thinking, another week gone.
Another small increment moved from the fire.
It feels like it does when you’re just waking up,
half grasping consciousness, half in the mire.
When you’re not quite sure if it’s real or a dream,
the one where no matter your efforts you fail.
In total frustration you claw just to move,
and in the struggle, you miss the details
...
Thursday 21st March 2024 1:22 am
The Clock
There’s a heart that beats
and a clock that chimes.
Moments pass as they both keep time.
Opportunities lost again.
Words don’t flow from an idle pen.
Deeds don’t come from an idle hand.
Seeds won’t grow in a barren land.
Something stalks me, something’s there.
Something haunts my every prayer.
Aggravation, life slips by.
Desperation, sleepless nights.
...Monday 11th March 2024 5:42 pm
A Bird Now Gone
No bird remains to sing his song.
so silence pounds the whole day long.
In beat with memory of the day
I clapped to make him go away.
The fault, it clearly lies with me
the bird was what the bird should be.
Now I live knowing I was wrong…
to want to silence any song.
Thursday 29th February 2024 7:13 pm
Stamping Ground
Not much goes on around my way;
It’s probably the same near you:
The brutes of buildings, boarded shops,
Unyielding gloom, the angry street,
The young, with nothing else to do.
So when they said I should join up,
I thought to myself: ‘Well, why not?’
It seemed a chance to break away
Into a blast of a cleaner air.
Nobody said I would get shot.
So now I lie be...
Sunday 17th December 2023 7:52 am
Enough
If only I could go back in time
To rectify all my mistakes.
All that I shouldn’t have said,
Yet still felt the need to say.
Why did I even feel that need?
I, too, was just a child, right?
Be the example,
Show them they are wrong.
Show them we are no beasts.
Show them we can be equal.
Act mature,
Be mature.
Show them they are wrong.
So many rules and rest...
Friday 22nd September 2023 7:07 pm
Tearboats
Cry me a river
so I know you can feel
the heartache which splits me apart
in hopes you will come
with a stick of glue
get me a violin
and sing me a song
for I’d play
until my fingers fell off
just to hear you sing along
or come kiss me goodnight
bless me with your gentle touch
and look at me with those glittering stars
so I may fall asleep
an...
Tuesday 29th August 2023 6:51 am
The Vagabond
she is the vagabond
who wanders with the winds
forever adrift
a prisoner to her sins
by dawn she appears
nextdoor, or nearby
she’ll pay you no mind
nor lift you an eye
now, offer her aid
let her stay for a while
she’ll throw you a laugh
or feign you a smile
but soon as you stop
and question her ways
her grin disappears
her eyes fill wi...
Saturday 5th August 2023 1:13 am
Rosebush
I want to drape the page
with memories, love
with wandering thoughts and
painful regret
I want to wonder
what I could be, and would
if I took my words and
made them come true
or is that unwise?
to wish for a change
for the dreams to leave my mind
and join the sunlight around me
I want to climb the tallest mountains
and trees
I would fall i...
Saturday 5th August 2023 1:10 am
Stains
once stood a great warrior
of malice and pride
with no battle too bloody
for his hungering eyes
his blade, sharp and stained
stood tall at his side
left in its wake
only dead men would lie
then, in the distance
that red, setting sun
gave a glimpse to the man
of the deeds he had done
the crimson and black
was all he could see
he saw not the...
Monday 24th July 2023 9:26 am
The Devil's Face (Resembles Me?)
The devil has always been,
A faceless entity
To me.
Until now at least.
Now it has become clear.
I can see.
The devil
In front of me.
They are no singular person.
Instead a pair.
Familiar sight.
Lungs devoid of air.
The devils gaze at me.
Recognizable set eyes.
No surprise.
Why is this reality?
First sight of a child.
Encounter...
Tuesday 13th June 2023 8:24 am
Home Interior
‘’See you tomorrow’’,
that was what you said.
Back then, I could not identify it as a lie.
I only realized when I got to your house the next day,
your hanging frame decorating the place.
Thursday 9th February 2023 2:51 pm
Regret
Regret
Regret
A thousand times regret.
Choices made,
that cannot be unmade.
Stupid things,
done again and again.
Foundations
laid for a useless life.
Coming to an end for some time.
At least death will be done right.
Kind of hard to screw that up.
(Photo taken by poet. It's the Pennsylvania hills behind Frank Lloyd Wright's Kentuck Knob House.)
Monday 30th January 2023 3:59 pm
Greenland
The bell clatters ‘Time’ on another quiet night
tucked off the shore front
In the precious warmth of a Sisimiut tavern
I take another jar, tilt it back and drain
but still there are no answers waiting
Slouching on the bar stool
and licked by shifting shadows
lulled to doze
by the constant comb of a shuffling sea
An absent-minded shiver washes over
and, suddenly, so softly
your pale arm...
Tuesday 15th March 2022 2:19 pm
If Only
Miniature lilac tea-candles
in the bathroom, on the john
are symbols of the teardrops
from the bathtub, they burned on.
And that spray of ivy hanging
from the candelabra on the wall
with pictures of dark-brown oak leaves-
reflect you, & to me call.
Our Christmas tree is stripped now
without the tinsel and the balls--
lies naked by the hall door;
mist...
Tuesday 11th May 2021 5:33 am
Technically a fool
Walking through summer snow, where who knows, wind just blows, on my way
I stray off, run amuck, find myself stuck until tide lifts me, bereft of care
Caught in my own snares, all these damn tires are patched up spares
Movements at night with silence scared, no one dared to ask why, prepare yourself to die
Tears cried over nothing's things, compressed piss between mattress springs
Life wields...
Sunday 18th April 2021 8:17 pm
Way of life
You say I am a good person,
They say I am a bad one,
Forgetting that I am just a human being,
Just being what I am now.
Change is unstoppable, just like the flow of water,
People change, so does life,
Making sad almost all the time.
They say you are the one with wisdom,
I can only see you as the one with regret.
"Life is beautiful" as you state,
So why it becomes so hard living like ...
Wednesday 24th February 2021 6:08 pm
Corruption
Corruption
Here in the verdant meadows
All on a summer’s day
The dreaded army of the dark
Met with the noble fey
They fought until the long sundown
And the lost blood of the dead
Soaked into the sacred ground
And turned the roses red
When the fight was over
And the legion of the flies
Had swarmed across the corpses
Stealing hope from sightless eyes
...
Thursday 22nd October 2020 11:05 am
Cutting the Strings
What I am is wrong,
This is not me,
The entire sum of my life has led me to this fact,
I cannot be who I was, nor who I am,
Not even who I am trying to be,
The end is but a heartbeat away,
And there it will begin,
Life lived as a puppet,
Is life ruled by the puppeteer,
Cut the strings,
To fall to the ground by your own hand,
And then rise of your own accord,
Is what I long for,
Tuesday 1st September 2020 11:17 pm
Duct
As I recall, you cried the first night we met
I found it unusual though charming
Soon it became clear you cried too easily
That daily weep was something alarming
Tears should be for special occasions
Justified by unmitigated joy or grief
Not turned on like a tap by ephemera
But controlled, orderly and brief
I decided to give you something to cry at
Began to roa...
Wednesday 15th July 2020 11:25 am
Al-Barr (The generous and most courteous)
He was generous he was sweet
He fed us well, we were meat
Yet somehow as others hobbled towards his call
To feed, to fatten, to round, to fall
I saw myself getting sick and more frail
I felt death near, I felt pale
I saw the colors of existence washing away like dirt in a shower
I saw Him as he was, generous with the meat yet not generous with His power
Thus this was the cu...
Monday 11th May 2020 10:17 am
Wish I Could
What would I wish for, if given the chance?
For a start, I'd wish I could dance
Wish I could learn without having to repeat
Wish I could earn my depression's defeat
Wish I could do all the things I want to do
Wish I could prove the love I have for you
Wish I could act on all these wishes
Wish I didn't have to do the dishes
Wish I could be the person you need
Wish I could resist the sin of...
Sunday 10th May 2020 10:58 am
Entreaties
Entreaties
My gums are bleeding again.
There’s a stack of papers that need attention
But I can’t find my glasses.
My truck is making that funny noise.
I sleep too late
Because no one wakes me.
I don’t write
I feel it’s all been said.
I find I’m repeating myself
No one takes me seriously
Your point’s been made:
I am selfish and fickle,
Say whate...
Sunday 10th May 2020 4:55 am
Enough
Michelangelo said the work of art awaited him beneath the slab of marble, merely for him to uncover it. In my own small way I understand that as I write these days. The poem I know is possible waits patiently at the other side across a murky divide and with luck and patience maybe I can reach it, reveal it.
Here is one I wrote about a barbecue years ago in the small town where I lived.
...
Friday 8th May 2020 11:43 pm
No Dice
We track the oblique, sly fireflies
that keep popping fitfully by.
While life swarms invitingly by the side
we remain rabidly hustling
recklessly trailing
those brusque cracking stars
...shifty, deceptive, volatile
in onyx-bronze, raven nights
❋
We: the tenderfoot novice
bulldozed on many a graceless trip
half-cocked, peripheral, stoned
and profoundly ill with pitiful
sh...
Friday 3rd January 2020 2:57 am
you know how it go(freeform)
pull out thre trigger u know how it go
call up lil leek cuz he still got that 4
when I'm down bad I do not got nopbody
release all my problems when I drink this bottle
still fucking hoes man I just fucked this model
nobody know about all of my problems
call up tequila u know she gon solve it
I wanna stop drinking but I got nobody
I try to reach out but they always dec...
Sunday 30th June 2019 12:58 am
REGRET
Set my heart free of chain
Don't break my heart again
Live your world keep me alone
I regret to be yours at all.
Since we met on that "…." Day
You're still acting the play
How to believe yourself today
since you're hiding your goal.
God helps guilty to regret
But you decided and insist
Only to make mistakes a lot
Now get ready to stop or fall.
Saturday 9th February 2019 11:12 am
Unbearable Anguish.
I'm torn with regret
I can't just repent
I look in the mirror and see a face I resent
I dug myself in a hole of lies
All my sins, I'm crucified
Hang me, leave me stuck in time
Kill me, let me meet demise
Suffocating, no more breathing
There's no way to start this healing
Like telling a clepto to stop stealing
Spewing words with no meaning
Help me, drowning, no life support
No get...
Friday 16th November 2018 10:22 am
A Shattered Rose
A Shattered Rose
The slick cliff'd river smears shiny
blue-green sliding waters
across richly wooded chateau-lands;
hurrying through honey-scarred falaises,
cat-mouthed where toffee sandstones
arced onto sleeping innocents beneath.
A country blessèd and blighted both,
in equal measure (as aeons bequeath)
full with easy money, and its deadly past.
April ...
Tuesday 18th September 2018 1:28 pm
Be better he said
He is sad, he is hurting
No one ever told him he was wrong.
Spoilt and arrogant,
He had become.
Behaviour always accepted.
A love for himself,
he always expected perfection,
Nothing else.
It’s not his fault. He knew something was wrong,
an angel he searched for, an angel he won.
Another win, at his feet, treated her with deceit.
Ignored...
Monday 12th March 2018 12:30 am
Memories
When it was discovered, we recoiled
Out of doubt, out of fear
We focused on the opinions of others
Instead of what we thought
When I let our secret fly free,
I was shown acceptance and love
Hope blossomed like a cactus flower
It would be okay.
He was capricious, of two minds
One day yes, the next was no,
He produced a name, but renounced his love
I proce...
Tuesday 20th February 2018 12:17 am
Emotional Prostitute
Every heart wants somethings thats harder to get
Like looking for that rainbow in the desert
Or the dry spot in the rain forest
But no some people are hunters
They prey on your weak emotions while you pray for acceptance
You could stand up for them while they stain your name when your down
That same stain will be seen around town
Looking for love no im just a corner hoe for ...
Wednesday 28th June 2017 11:05 am
Give me peace.
Snow White.
Nose slimes, chem drips down my throat slice.
Sniffling spit the blow fly.
Cascades of emesis, Sinus bled red . Sniffing flakes of flesh an flem.
Razor stained, Tickling my neck again,
As I Dance with death.
The phantom stands demands my breath.
Wrestling the mirrors reflect.
Stare still into the pillars of wreck.
Spirits turn spirit-less,
Liquor fill, Spill and drench.
...
Monday 19th June 2017 9:24 am
Regret
Facebook is not our friend,
We scroll daily through scans,
Those first delicious pictures of their bundle of joy, once only shared by family;
nowadays published for all to see.
And every time,
left with just one thought,
"Why is it not me?"
Facebook is not our friend.
Perhaps you have been pregnant,
Known the feeling,
The weight of carrying the most precious cargo a woman can ever ...
Wednesday 3rd May 2017 2:44 pm
Belief
the forgiving
are also, it seems,
the confused
we can't quite figure out who to blame
we just know, it can't be ourselves
Tuesday 18th April 2017 10:14 am
Do you hear me now?
You look at me and forget
I was strong before I was pretty
You disregard my mind in hopes that my heart is a path leading you to my body and briefly
I regret to have met you, you see my eyes before you hear my voice
For you have already forgotten the first rule; I am strong
So when I love, I love strongly
And when I hurt, I hurt badly
But when I scream, ...
Tuesday 18th April 2017 9:32 am
Improv
Soullessly starring into the air
As her body laid lifeless
All this time the Stifled screams
Shut away to keep them at bay,
Any chance to show remorse
Shut down and accused of lies.
If I could tell you one last thing
I love you would be the words to say,
Now I can't see you again
I see the truth that was buried within
I can't help but blame a part of me
As ...
Wednesday 8th February 2017 10:19 am
In The Light of The Evening
I work hard most days
hands all rough by six
ah, but it’s worth every callous
whatever’s needed
and when I’m done, I walk
right down the sea-front promenade
sip on a cup of something
so warm and so sweet
with those boats sailing in and out
in the lazy light of the evening
There forms a shape in the foam on my coffee
I see the outline of your nose and eyes
looking up at me
I wonder j...
Tuesday 31st January 2017 11:02 pm
School Days - Best Days Of Our Lives?
Herringbone
The pallor of the parquet floor
Brings recollections of
School, its classrooms, its corridors
Somehow the pattern pulls
Me into a journey through
Time; conjuring images
Of art and assemblies,
Of laughter and lateness,
Of parents and pupils and plans:
For a future unknown;
For escaping the lessons
And the chill of those changing rooms.
A mishmash of memories,
But...
Monday 30th May 2016 1:18 pm
Hourglass Appraisal
What was once a beautiful thing is now empty
I should have taken hold of what we had
But was too young to see beyond myself
What use to be a vivid and deep conversation becomes small talk
Just passing the time
You still know what buttons to push
I just think I do
It’s been years and your fingerprints are still on my heart
The more I try to get away
The harder it becomes ...
Monday 16th May 2016 6:42 pm
Mare's Tail
Mare's Tail
(By Paul A M Palmer)
"There's only one way to kill it:
You have to dig it out."
It's what they recommend,
The locals: they have the knowledge.
Scrape and scrape the top, spade against
The turf and tufts of lichen and moss.
“You have to deepen the trench and then
Scrabble and search for the roots.”
Black and brown in the soily ground
Its fibrous tubes and tendril...
Saturday 7th May 2016 9:31 am
Go Away
Turn back time
Don't waste a dime
Walk right past
Tell you to kiss my ass
Everything was going great
Til you opened the flood gate
Now all I feel is hate
Could careless about your fate
Its funny
Cuz at one time I loved you like I love money
You were my shining star
Now your just a nasty scar
The itch, the burn
It always returns
Why can't you just go away
...Tuesday 27th October 2015 1:16 am
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