If? hopeless feelings down depression (Remove filter)
Take a loss as a lesson learned
[ ] Never take a loss in your life, but a lesson learned.
[ ] Respect, like money is usually not given, but earned.
[ ] Don't always stand on what you believe, but what you know hard & firm.
[ ] To believe is not facts, but opinions that can be gaslighted, twisted, & turned.
[ ] Freeze the negative and let the positive burn.
[ ] Pray for guidance, understanding, & the sp...
Sunday 22nd November 2020 12:34 am
Dear Diary
Lonely,but never alone , courtesy, of these voices,
Drowning out , my natural thought process,
affecting, how I make choice's.
Controling my mind, totaly possessed,
Punishing me for what? Disturbing my rest.
In fact I'm so controlled ,that all my life I've been unaware,
Didn't know ,any different, assumed they were suppose to be there.
Intrusive in voluntary thoughts
no filters in my...
Sunday 23rd June 2019 12:39 am
Depending
I hate the arguging and the cursing
The fist fights using words and
The long walk through the fire aint no beach over here
Its just a pilliar of mixed emotions waiting to get knocked down
Im not gone hold it up lets see how long faith keeps it up
Now im the one laying with a frown
You disappointed fine i get it but that dont mean you dont tell the shopkeeper wassup
You still...
Monday 5th September 2016 9:27 am
Fears of being rotten to the core
Here I sit with a candle lit
As I rest and wait to commit.
To a life of blue skies and angels,
As I try to ignore the pain sensation.
Whilst being overcome with isolation.
Trying in vain to think of happy thoughts,
As the devil looks on and applauds,
And laughs and jeers right in my face,
Since he knows that he is winning the race,
As he picks up a faster pace.
...Wednesday 6th July 2016 11:24 pm
Learning to live, without loving you
You confessed your love for me so soon
Brought light into my dark seedy life
You had my heart, as the stars have the moon
But you've ripped it apart like paper to a knife
I cannot continue this path much longer
For my efforts are always dismissed
I'm weakening where you are stronger
I've been at my knees since we kissed
I beg of you to loosen your grip
Let me go and tend to my...
Friday 24th April 2015 12:06 pm
if?...
if............
if?
stops me in my tracks
too many times
'protects' me
from risk-taking
paints the whole picture
of potential calamity
then plays it back to me
in surround sound
nicam stereo
3-d
if?
has o.c.d. as its default setting
tells me constantly
to check
and check again
before taking any ...
Tuesday 28th June 2011 4:32 pm
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