Ujjal Mandal, India
we are all the
of each souls
Monday 23rd November 2020 12:24 pm
Protect me from this life.
The ailments of the things around me.
Set me free into the sky,
Shine light in the darkness that surrounds me.
I'm one man against the world,
Sometimes it seems hard to bear.
Sometimes I prayed,
But only the Devil responded,
And God wasn't there.
I fell deep into the pits,
Both alcohol and substance abuse.
The devil talking to me,
From this bottle im drinking...
Monday 16th November 2020 12:57 pm
I’ve written you 1000 letters
I’ve waited for you 365 days
I’ve prayed to God a million prayers
But I realized now it is all insane
I realize now it was all in vain
I get scared to think of no longer loving you
I get so scared that I pray for another way
I pray that God makes me see that everything’s ok
Love isn’t forever
Love doesn’t always stay
Wednesday 11th November 2020 4:26 am
There is so much more to this.
The music does not make song
but the foetal space
amongst famous walls
filled with such au fait grief
and there a beast floats
to see the fear fleeting
on their new found face
in some unfailing destiny,
there she silently screams,
a flame away
God so violently benign
in his passive spirit-
He forges her-
to breath truly ...
Saturday 31st October 2020 1:44 pm
Will you raise your voice for the oppressed
Will you demand Governmental redress
Will you speak on things that truly matter
Will you allow this illusion to truly shatter
Will you plant the seeds in the ears of youth
So they can discover the yield of truth
Will you speak up Will you scream
Will you have faith Will you dream
Will you turn up your volume for the silenced
Wednesday 28th October 2020 7:45 am
I’m the old man with the beard
Who lives in the sky
I am the universe
And the universe is me
I’m the man who sees everything
I’m the eye in the sky
I can see everything in ten different ways
And I gave the names to seven different days
I can see things big and I see things small
And no matter where you are
I can hear your call
There are some who reve...
Sunday 27th September 2020 6:21 pm
The dream that binds
Given to you
That hears a voice
And runs to find
The heart that tries
For something new
Run to and fro
And back again
To find it all
The tender kiss
Veiled spirits cry
Of a certain truth
That love ...
Friday 25th September 2020 8:57 pm
The hard part about all this is that you already found new love
You decided she was better than me that she is enough
The words you said, "to infinity and beyond" we're all a lie and you left me when all I ever wanted was compassion,understanding, and love
But the day you walked out, I learned the truth about life.
I learned that the only person that could make me strong was God
Friday 21st August 2020 4:11 pm
that boat on the coast croons the waves
whisking a dying infant in
a baptist sea for saving,
brought faith in God to save them,
a baptist sea for saving.
I see them from sand afloat-
a buoy in the water with chance
and such a sacred body
might sinking be belief-
to then arise them another-
Wednesday 29th July 2020 6:08 pm
this bizarre plea for that dystopia
dug here with slumber
which might sleep for friendship.
maybe creep and demise passing,
a prayer and an assembly,
me and God in his chamber,
a euphoric chalice
that grasps a spade to dig
but who am I to find such bliss in the anxious ground?
I take a spade and dig
but who am I to find such bliss in the anxious ground?
Friday 24th July 2020 6:52 pm
If you were God
You would create a back story
On how you came to be
Something about a mother
And a father coming together
You would gradually create
The world around you
And the history of what went before
In order to keep you sane
You would form existence
to fit your needs
And each thing learned new
Would be to satisfy the r...
Friday 19th June 2020 2:07 pm
I can see it in your eyes
I can feel it in your soul
The path seems so confusing and you just don’t know
I tried to fight your battles
I tried to keep you safe
I tried to give you love but you just ran away
Then I opened my eyes and realized
The battle isn’t mine
So I closed my eyes with a broken heart and cried
And then I prayed to God that he shows you the way back ...
Thursday 4th June 2020 8:06 pm
In a world that is broken and full of crime and hate
There are people who still have faith
Faith that can move mountains and make things well
There are people who believe with all their heart that things can heal
They believe that with faith anything and everything is possible
Through pain, death, and brokeness we must always remember to have a little bit of FAITH
Let God take th...
Monday 1st June 2020 7:27 pm
you and your psychedelic phrases
did they plunge from your tailing tongue?
perchance I took breaths from the room,
exhaled, and put them back in your mouth
moving, placing my ear near your lips,
pausing for an air lick near my neck-
lifted eyelids and confusion
so, then the comfort could come
when I would speak your surroundings-
the bed, the door, and the soft sheet...
Friday 29th May 2020 4:04 pm
You lie awake in bed with your eyes swollen from the tears and the pain
Wondering why you deserve to hurt
You play back scenes in your head thinking , " Was it all fake!"
The smiles, the love, the times we laid together in bed, talking about children, and houses by the lake
You close your eyes and tears fall down your face and you cry to God , " Please, please make it all go away!"
Monday 25th May 2020 5:46 pm
I wish I could tell you how much I miss you but there is no point in that.
I wish that things could be different but I know that they will not.
And I wish I could stop loving you but my heart is so torn and yet so full of love.
I wish I could turn back time and make you be mine.
But these are all wishes that God hears but doesn’t act on.
And everyday it’s a battle to keep moving on ...
Friday 22nd May 2020 6:18 pm
I sliced the sun into two
And looted shimmering bars of gold
Which lined her womb,
Her beloved broods I stole.
I plucked the sturdiest mountains,
The choicest adornments on the face of the globe.
All it took were my hands, raw and unrestrained,
Their maimed rubbles now abuse those they adore.
I remember the sea that like Moses I parted
And the ocean floor ...
Tuesday 19th May 2020 2:03 pm
So only the dirty, the unclean, ungodly
Will be refused favour come judgement day
They will sit in their hovels of dust a distress
And live out their lives in their dishevelled way
They will scrape in the filth for a reason to live
They will hurt, they will need, they will cry, they will pay
For their corrupt and defiled code of getting on by
Where they sin and...
Wednesday 13th May 2020 12:09 pm
Since I cannot sense a name for God
power will stutter out of my mouth
In the old days it was the Village Church
Rich with Stain Glass Hypocrisy and Sin
In the middle it was a wasteland, dead
Then I saw God and everything changed
Spirit stood on my shoulder and held me
Angels came in plain clothes to erase me
No-one left even though I tried to kill me
In the attire ...
Tuesday 21st April 2020 1:37 pm
Hello, can anyone hear me?
Hello, are you still there listening to my cries?
Listening to me as I fall on my knees, feeling so empty as this world falls apart
Hello, God! I need you! We all need you!
Our world slowly falls and we all begin to feel empty wanting human contact, human touch
God silently watches us and our empty lonely hearts
Waiting, quietly, for us all to call his ...
Thursday 9th April 2020 12:26 am
occult curriculum, whispers of the ancients, leave for letting out secrets
oil lamp kindling catching flames; shining begotten light from passerbys
in between classes, shifting penrose stairs lead into underlying framework on occasion
halls lined with rooks adjacent and curators searching for a select
rites of secret passageways proclaimed, karma to the dark is just a means to an end
Saturday 4th April 2020 11:11 am
Your heart beats fast
You’re love is so strong
I can hear it like beating drums
You love me even though I’m broken
You love me even though I’m weak
You’re love is unconditional to me
I fall on my knees crying, yelling , “God why do you love me!”
The voice whispers back to me, “ Because you are beautiful because I made you as a part of me!”
The light shines bright
Sunday 8th March 2020 4:32 pm
Is it a sin for your muse
to inspire mine,
provide momentary escapes
from loneliness, pain,
the daily grind,
give words to fantasies
of the mind,
connect soul ties.
It’s hard to believe
a God of love
would consider musing
If it is, that’s not a religion
to which I subscribe.
Saturday 29th February 2020 12:34 pm
Water is rising floods sent from hell, Corona virus too
Everybody pondering but there is nothing they can do
Global warming distroying our world it's not going to end
A disaster after another, no one know what is round the bend
Save the earth be mindful they tell us. Stop it getting worse
This can't be fixed by hand, or all the money in ones purse
How do you stop ice from me...
Friday 28th February 2020 12:13 pm
For many years I walked in shame
With my head bowed down not looking anyone in the eyes
Shame for not being good enough
Shame for not being wanted nor loved
I sat in darkness wondering if I would ever be able to find light
Sat there wondering, if I would ever be worthy or enough
Then a voice whispered in my ear, " I am here."
The voice got louder and yelled, " I am here."
Tuesday 25th February 2020 5:46 pm
Wait,don’t give up
Wait, everything will be fine,
“Wait,be patient,” God tells you.
Your heart pounding hard
Your head spinning with thoughts
“God,” you yell waiting is so hard
God says louder, “ wait and your promises will come true”
So you sit and listen
You sit and wait
Hoping, dreaming that his promises will come true soon
Tuesday 18th February 2020 12:52 am
It is hard having faith
When you feel so much pain
It is hard to obey when you feel so betrayed
It is hard to smile and put on your pretty face
When your whole world has seems to have crumbled
But then that voice comes back to you and says , "Look how far you've come, look how strong you are!"
The voice tells you everything is going to be just fine
You breathe, close your eyes...
Thursday 13th February 2020 6:03 pm
Many days I was in darkness
Many days I cried for help
Seeing no beauty in this world
I forgot what it felt like to smile and not feel pain
A simple act of kindness
Will you come here and slide with me?
A simple question
A simple task
Sliding down the slide made me smile
And feel the love of God
Sunday 9th February 2020 4:25 am
What is next? I ask God
Tell me please because I feel so lost
Losing control of all that is around
What is next? I ask God
Then a small voice howls in the wind saying, "Worry about now!"
Smile, Breathe, Relax
Don't worry about the future nor the past
Wednesday 5th February 2020 5:41 pm
I woke up today feeling a bit numb
I woke up today feeling like everything will be fine
I woke up today and decided that I was done
I woke up today and cried
Then I looked in the mirror, I said, " Girl you look fine!"
Then another voice said, " Don't you dare give up!"
So I put on a happy face,
And I headed out to find that girl I once was....
Happy. Beautiful. Strong...
Monday 3rd February 2020 3:37 am
A dark cloud over me
No matter how hard I battled I seemed to be stuck
No matter how hard I tried to overcome the struggle it was eating me alive
Breathe, wake up, walk
What is wrong with you I yelled, " You have God!"
Get up battle, don't give up
Life keeps throwing punches at you
Life keeps making you fall
But fight, fight and be strong
Don't give up
Don't you dare ...
Saturday 1st February 2020 2:54 pm
I made a decision that was hard
To let you go
To let you fly
God told me don’t worry she’ll be fine
God told me ,“ Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I cried and yelled and couldn’t accept it
His voice was clearer his voice was loud
He said one more time, “Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I finally understood I needed to stop being selfish
Wednesday 29th January 2020 11:35 am
"God, God!" I yelled and cried.
God why have you abandoned me.
I drank to see if the pain would go away.
"God!," I said I still feel hurt
I still feel pain!
Then I finally gave up and cried for days and saw nothing but darkness
Then a voice came and said, " Get up, don't give up, put on your shield, put on your armour!"
The voice was mad the voice was hurt the voice was comman...
Tuesday 28th January 2020 9:56 pm
If there is a God, what does He do?
Does he watch over me and you?
We may all hope that the answer's yes,
But all we can do is make a guess.
Has He the power to control our life?
And decide whether it shall be one of joy or strife.
Is He good and is He just?
And is Jesus one in which we can trust?
Or is it the case that we're alone
That we wander this Earth all on our own.
That we mu...
Friday 24th January 2020 4:51 pm
It was a special speech:
...a part of the distinguished lecture series.
The Chemistry professor spoke on alternative corridors for a reaction to occur.
He exemplified how Manganese dioxide, when added to Hydrogen peroxide, yields water... ...hydrogen oxide.
The talk seemed insipid till he skillfully indicated
that Manganese dioxide remains untied with the reaction and can be recovered s...
Saturday 4th January 2020 4:20 am