Ashely Thompson on Julia Deakin
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The light inside me shining,
Butterflies are flying.
My nerves are at their peak,
The thought makes me weak.
Like climbing a mountain,
The reward will feel so great.
The aches and pains keep shouting,
"Turn back," but it's too late.
All the pain is worth it.
At the top is where you see,
The beauty of the mountain
and all it's scenery.
Nature is amazing,
A type of therapy.
Thursday 22nd December 2016 7:49 pm
I'm my own worst enemy,
It's funny how that works.
To see nothing great in me,
To question, "what's my worth?"
Looking in the mirror,
All I see is filth,
But the mirror isn't dirty,
It's just the figures spilth.
People try to compliment me,
But I only disagree,
Not seeing what they see,
They must say not what they mean.
I need more motivation.
My job is nothing great.
I need to...
Thursday 22nd December 2016 7:47 pm
I’m caught up in the fog
I’ve got my hands out
Feeling my way like a blind man in a haze
Tap, tap, tapping my way along,
I don’t really know what I’m looking for
But I keep searching
I’m like a blind man fumbling in the dark
And I sometimes think I need an instruction book
So I can be flick, flick, flicking,
There are times; I ...
Wednesday 21st December 2016 8:46 pm
I'm a pencil, HB
A finer pencil you never did see
But, constant sharpening is killing me
What's the alternative to be?
Left in a drawer with an absence of light?
With nothing to do, can't put up a fight
Rather be out, for all to see
I do hope that life keeps sharpening me
I'm a pencil HB.
Sunday 18th December 2016 7:57 am
Blind, I grown blind.
No color, no light.
Pain, I felt pain.
No matter, no gain.
Looking through the mirror glass,
things happen afar.
Taking notion of them,
as they were part.
There's no true,
there's no lie,
everything stays shy.
Scream, scream for those who can't.
Deaf, I am deaf.
No sound, no play.
Help, they need help....
Tuesday 13th December 2016 9:25 am
I'll jump over the moon for you
I'll give you a diamond ring
Those were the words that went thru my head
when you convinced me to lay with you in your bed
Were they lies
Were you the wolf
looking for your lamb
You are the one
was your song
let me inside
My heart was so empty
it cried for love
I allowed you to enter
my most treasured gift...
Friday 9th December 2016 8:44 pm
It is an anti-climactical relapse into the repression and suppression of life.
You'll be on a cloud of positivity held in the captivity of optimism.
And then as if your minds been hit by a tun of bricks that indicate the euphemism of the candidness of reality.
As you get older you realise that the higher you climb the further it is to fall,
so you get indecisive between the f...
Monday 28th November 2016 8:04 am
After a heartbreak you never thought would surpass
After definitively stating you would never allow yourself to be in a position of vulnerability again
After truly giving up on the idea of love
Letting a person in again is terrifying
Allowing someone the capability to destroy you further
But trusting them not to
Delegating your feelings, sharing your secrets and ultimate...
Monday 21st November 2016 10:35 pm
It is the assumption that people tend to reflect and contemplate in the dawn of the night
When noones awake to hear the sorrow in your sobs
When it's too dark to see the weakness in your eyes
And your lonliness enables your imprisoned vulnerability to surface
But what happens when this negativity suddenly seep its way into the happenings of your everyday life
When these mor...
Wednesday 16th November 2016 8:36 pm
To live free
Not on dirty streets
Full of bigotry
Where you're spit upon
With worst of insults
Where the spoiled brat's vomit
Hits face and smarts weary eyes
Where the filthy rich's neatly groomed French poodle
Pisses and shits upon your humanity
To live free
Not in a shelter for the homeless
Where urine-perfumed air stings the nostrils
And freshly released vomit smells like stale ju...
Monday 14th November 2016 12:57 am
My right hand...
For all that I do
My left hand...
For what's left to do
Both my hands...
For the sands
Monday 14th November 2016 12:53 am
May you wake today
To see light of day
To hear nightingale
When you're feeling stale
May you rise
And seize the day
May you awaken
And start a smile
For a long while
May you forever love
And feel being loved
May you follow your inner wisdom
And be guided to only success
Monday 14th November 2016 12:52 am
I'm lying awake at 3am
Why am I never intoxicated with positivity?
Why aren't I a fountain of enthusiasm?
Why can't I see the euphemistic light in this unilluminated darkness?
I'm lying awake at 3am
All of my uncertainties are overwhelming
The formidable anxiety I've become acclimated with seeps in through open wounds
And yet I've learned to find tranquility in this res...
Wednesday 2nd November 2016 8:04 pm
If only it was that simple.
I'm at the supermarket,
Looking at a can's expiration date,
And I can't help but to think that in reality,
Life does not work out that way.
If only I knew the date of expiration,
The amount of time before the disintegration,
Friday 21st October 2016 2:59 am
Too much time spent on not really knowing what's going on,
Here but wanting to be there,
There but worrying if I care,
Flirting on the peripharies of fitting,
Electricity rises up in my brain where frustration reigns,
Dishonest pockets grow and grow with the weight of days,
Until I am left with a lifeless gaze.
Thursday 20th October 2016 12:22 am
Dear stranger, I bet you don’t know you’re a hero.
Dear stranger do you realize you saved me.
Dear stranger, the moment you stopped me and asked “are you okay” is the same moment I no longer wanted to die.
Dear stranger, how did you know I was in so much pain, how did you know I was so lonely. Dear stranger, did you know I was going home to die.
Dear stranger, the look of concern is st...
Saturday 10th September 2016 2:32 am
Why does this world try to make me insane?
So much hate, to much anger and pain.
How can this world possibly heal?
When we don't even care how our fellow humans feel.
All these campaigns to stop smoking and drinking,
Why not campaign to stop hurting , start thinking.
Inside this huge universe we share such a small world,
Please human beings, stand up, be bold.
Smile at strangers an...
Sunday 28th August 2016 1:38 pm
I don't remember exactly when they came
I don't know why they came or where they were before they arrived
They have been here before
They are all too familiar
They have settled in comfortably around my soul
Grey, cold, ambiguous
They bring gifts of self-loathing, fear, emptiness
They are elusive, fluid, always on the prowl
They slip thru the reason and logic of my mind
Free to wreak hav...
Wednesday 24th August 2016 2:54 am
A smooth sea never made a skillful sailor.
Stay calm, or you're headed straight for failure.
Confidence is key when you're at the helm.
Be sure to find peace in this realm.
Monday 22nd August 2016 10:00 pm
They are going to bend minds-
they’ve thought of all kinds of things that we have never seen,
they will sustain environments and grow fruit in arid deserts
they will go to great and unseen efforts to save the planet,
they’ll shape this world into the word FRIEND.
Starvation will end and they will study the moon
and its correlation to the womb and will study women from cradle...
Tuesday 16th August 2016 10:31 am
I've never seen this look in your eye,
It's over, finally, it's over
And we hold that truth deep inside
Hold me tighter than you ever have,
Kiss me sweeter and love me harder.
And we will cry,
But it's ok.
We're not broken,
And even if we are,
From tomorrow on, I'll carry every piece of us With me in my soul.
So give me one last memory,
Friday 5th August 2016 6:31 pm
We all couldn't wait
To grow up, to get out
To fully understand
What the world was about
Only to find
On the other side
The beauty we saw
As a child, had died
The day turned to night
The blue turned to gray
The innocence of life
Had faded away.
So many dreams
Now seem cast down
Remember when difficult
Meant choosing marker or crayon?
Thursday 4th August 2016 2:55 pm
We're always looking,
For the next thing,
We miss the things
That really matter
Only to find
At the end
Of our lives
That we've never
Wednesday 3rd August 2016 3:23 pm
When Merle died it was a sorry affair.
After hating us all her life
she wanted to be close with us in the end.
Lol, who had always seen the good in her
brought her back to life briefly on the last day,
which had shown how much he meant to her I suppose.
But cats are only meant to last a certain amount of time-
less than what should be a life time,
more than some marr...
Wednesday 3rd August 2016 11:31 am
Hypothetically speaking I want to be happy. & that is the only objective I'll pursue. Machination and epiphanies may aid in the constitution of strategies that'll supposively enable me to achieve delectation and felicity, But ultimately what makes you happy? Money, materials? - No. Not at all. Tangible goods can't remunerate and compensate for the emptiness of your soul. Possessions can only stren...
Friday 17th June 2016 2:00 pm
The day you guys came along
I would never forget that D-day
We defined the word friends in a new way
Without you guys around, I would be on a highway.
How well could words describe our friendship
even pictures are just an indication
The story behind these pictures so precious
that I am eagerly waiting for times ahead.
Monday 6th June 2016 6:40 pm
The Fact of no naps no snaps or snap backs
To wake you up from the fact you were never sleep
Can't sleep for the time you weep but seep
Into the fact that you can't sleep
Wanting to have dreams and past a test with ease
But I can't sleep
There has been a robbery where sleep doesn't reflect on eat
From the fact eat didn't take care of sleep
To where somebody has stolen eat a...
Thursday 2nd June 2016 6:24 am
The calm that I seek,
Still blue sea,
Anxious waves that crash over me,
Making me hardy to future attack,
The peace that I seek is setting me back
Maybe it doesn't exist?
Maybe that is where my peace lies?
In accepting that it can't be sought?
Is it already here?
Wednesday 1st June 2016 11:35 pm
Barefoot she walks along the beach
Retracing lost memories in ripples of sand
The murmur of the surf plays in her ears like muffled
notes bowed on a cello
the sun drips down behind
the cobalt waves casting shadows to equal those of
her longest night
Hushed colours paint her skin in hues of poignancy,
her heart beats in rhythm with the tide as she glides
through the surf
Tuesday 3rd May 2016 10:10 am
20 years to see
The world encompass all.
Its' messiness unbearable,
But when I caught your voice,
Its' sweetness a dulling touch.
The world and its' massive wildness,
Disappeared all to dust.
Saturday 30th April 2016 4:05 am
Without her I am nothing
Comparable to Christmas with a light dusting
I feel incomplete
I just need to hear her speak
To feel the brush of her skin,
To feel The warmth of her breath as our lips come to a close
I love her to an extent she'll never know
Young lovers caught in turmoil
Only finding hope in each other
I pray to our God that we're together
Tuesday 26th April 2016 1:30 am
Shuttles soar with seemingly unprecendented motion.
The children's eyes gaze to the floor.
The ground is green and brown and yellow.
The world below cannot bellow.
Sing and hum its' tune.
A melody, sweet melody.
A rotation for all of you.
Its' sweet chillness pressed against the nostrils,
Its' gentle warmth against the skin.
Allow the gaze of the star above,
Monday 25th April 2016 5:27 am
A cup of emotion, that’s what I am
I pour it out, upon your hands
I’ve never been the one for that, you’ve changed me
before you I was nothing
My life made of constantly bluffing
It’s difficult to open up
To be, this little cup
You’ve helped to put me in my place
You’ve Helped me through this little race
Although I’ve thrown you for a loop
You’ve always seemed to com...
Friday 22nd April 2016 4:15 pm
If living for subsisting
or existing to survive
Purpose stays elusive
any sense can’t derive
Going about in vortex
moving at rapid pace
No time for indulgence
in own personal space
Stuck in same tedium
since been on to avoid
On face near amiable
but zest seems devoid
In inferred conspiracy
end's nowhere in sight
Thursday 21st April 2016 7:28 am
No matter how harsh the road might be
At least I walk upon it
No matter how harsh the last day was
At least the next day greets me
No matter how dark the day might be
At least there is still day
No matter how deluded, horrible,
Sadistic or rude people are
At least there are still people
No matter how they might make me feel
At least I can still feel
Tuesday 19th April 2016 10:25 pm
It is an anti-climactical relapse into the repression and suppression of life. You'll be on a cloud of positivity held in the captivity of optimism. And then as if your minds been hit by a tun of bricks that indicate the euphemism of the candidness of reality. As you get older you realise that the higher you climb the further it is to fall, so you get indecisive between the fear of failure and the...
Sunday 17th April 2016 4:27 pm
Don't let this life pass you by,
Seek the Lord, break down and cry
He'll lift you up, He'll fill your cup
Yes even though the heart's corrupt
He'll change you from the inside out
Now isn't that what it's all about
God changing us from day to day
Like a figure from a lump of clay
The choice is ours to obey
The choice is ours to kneel and pray
If only we would trust His...
Thursday 31st March 2016 5:56 pm
That ongoing story that I call my life
Is nothing but a total tangled mess.
It’s a disaster area; a no-go zone,
And sometimes I feel like staying at home.
It’s a rambling narrative with a spot of romance,
Love and sadness and elements of chance.
The day will come when all will be resolved,
And the pain and sadness will just dissolve.
If you see the film versi...
Sunday 13th March 2016 5:02 pm
The stream becomes the river
The river becomes the sea
And the rain that washes over me
Washes into the sea.
For you are my rain,
My river and my stream
And I am the fisherman
Who loves you in his dreams.
So when I wake I’ll hold you
And take away your pain
Love can wash the pain away
Like dust in the pouring rain.
The stream becomes the river
Thursday 18th February 2016 8:00 pm
Life must be held suspended in a glance
That moves backwards, forwards, holding
Your life together, ceaselessly
Reminding that you are
Something; this thing.
You stop looking: You fall
From a vacant gaze
Into vacant skies
Or even less.
That time is now and truth outside
You can assent to abstractly,
While the watchman in your eyes
Saturday 13th February 2016 4:22 pm
Faces are dull, lamps are lit,
The room is black and I am alone,
Dreaming something but reality is different,
I don't know what's going to happen
I didn't know what will I do
Stand upon the stool
Or see in a mirror like a fool,
But I said to myself, 'I have to be cool'
Nothing seems to be different,
As I follow the same me,
I have no difference nor glee in me.
Sunday 7th February 2016 3:58 pm