It is the assumption that people tend to reflect and contemplate in the dawn of the night
When noones awake to hear the sorrow in your sobs
When it's too dark to see the weakness in your eyes
And your lonliness enables your imprisoned vulnerability to surface
But what happens when this negativity suddenly seep its way into the happenings of your everyday life
When these morbid contemplating thoughts enabled with anxiety and fear interrupt your momentary bouts of happiness
You're out for lunch with friends
Playing outside with your children
Singing in the kitchen whilst cleaning
In the midst of a laugh
You think you're happy
And all of a sudden you remember the fortifying fear, the paralysing pain ..
And the happiest moment of the day is rudely interrupted by your own self destructive thoughts ..
The candidness of reality of life takes over
And you remember that you're not happy at all.