I want to tell you.
I want to write it down.
I want to have the right words.
I want to feel them. I want you to feel them. I want you to feel what I felt.
I want you to know. About everything. I want to show it to you in broad daylight.
I want you to see it. I want you to face it. I want you to taste it
when the water turns to bleach. I want it to blister the inside of your ...
Saturday 27th November 2021 5:40 am
It gets better,
a friend once said
You’re not a bad person
Shouldn’t wish you were dead
Everyone is their own worst critic,
He said to me
And when he needs an ear,
I listen intently
We swap stories,
One back and one forth
Lighten the load,
Keep each other on course
When friends are down
I feel it too
When people are sa...
Wednesday 29th September 2021 1:47 pm
You won’t go to therapy
Your clothes everywhere
It is because your Daddy never cared?
Run away from your problems
Change friends all the time
Is that why you smoke weed all the time?
And wine every day
No wonder you pushed all your friends away
Video games are a way of life
like it depends on...
Wednesday 29th September 2021 1:43 pm
Tuesday 7th September 2021 11:10 am
Is my suitcase big enough?
Once clothes come out, will grief fit?
or will memories fill every crevice?
Packing boxes of a life once lived,
packing a suitcase of a life still living.
What selfishness, what obsession.
But it's time now, the train always coming,
and the impending journey, always one yet to come.
But who’s it for?
What would you say?
If this journey's too hard to take,
Sunday 29th August 2021 2:37 am
Do you grieve in heaven?
Do you feel hollow too?
Do you feel like something's missing?
Like our incompletion without you.
Goodbyes were not granted to us,
Does this upset you too?
Does grief hit you by surprise?
An oppression you never knew?
Or is Olympus free of mourning?
And you have no suffering heart?
Will we meet in the city of immortals,
Will it feel like we've been apart?
Thursday 26th August 2021 2:29 pm
Wednesday 25th August 2021 12:23 pm
Why must you? If I could just understand the reasons for your soul-reaping hand.
Who decided the time was up? Or that we must endure this grief? Tell me, Death- Do you enjoy your role as loves thief?
You broke my heart into pieces a few times before and now you've done it once more.
I'm not sure I can forgive you for such dark spite because you've taken my world and turned out its ligh...
Wednesday 25th August 2021 12:03 pm
Tendrils of sight swim
memories from my child mind
vast Graveyards flash past
the coach windows
as I sat alone,
my split-self bristling
against the fabric seats
My school friends chatter
then later they climb
into sleeping bags, safe
I brought my heart out
into the moonlight, breathless
learning how not to wake
others with my grief
whilst you took your half
of my heart
high up int...
Thursday 29th April 2021 1:01 pm
One whole year's
Like lace leaves
From the cold trees
You are missing
Boxed deep and dusting
With bristles flaking
From the broken spine
So no silver lines
Our crisp, black-branched pine.
Tuesday 30th March 2021 10:26 am
Christmas fairy lights still dangle,
Plastic string of neon candles,
Hallowing the wreckage of the year.
Streaming ‘River’ on repeat
River Warbling marrow-deep
Wash away those spiteful, December bones.
From jigsaws sat on nickel knees
To whisky-nursing you in sprees,
Femurs first you left us piece by piece.
Frailty distils the waters
Trickles down through all your daughters
Tuesday 30th March 2021 10:22 am
Thank you, dears.
For marched words
rawed bare, from
For now, plain,
is just. Mine.
Tuesday 30th March 2021 10:04 am
Saw him crying,
a friend's father died today,
what can anyone say?
--the emptiness of trying
in that, this passage
of advancing age
we all are departing,
puzzled by the parting
filled with fears,
and pent-up tears
trying to make sense,
of a tangled past-tense
the inner core like
clawing a scab
an unwanted buddy
the only relief
Sunday 21st February 2021 12:44 am
They say hope is such a wonderful thing
Keeps us strong against anything
But be careful what you hope for
Or it will do you in.
So many times I thought I understood
Who people were, and what was good
Only to find, what's left behind
Is broken dreams.
And they say grief is a natural thing
As we get used to what's missing
And find out how to do without
What we used to need.
Saturday 20th February 2021 10:51 am
Climb the steps, one by one
Feel the breeze refresh me
Hands can nearly touch the sun
Golden rays drip down around me
Love and splendour encases my heart
With the world shining out all its glory
A brand new day, a glimmering start
New beginnings, new days, new story
Top of the slide, secure on the mat
Fluttering lungs fill up with excitement
The world whizz...
Monday 8th February 2021 8:44 pm