Everyone has a fire in their soul

A bright passion that makes them whole

An urge to follow like a fool

A desperate need to fulfill no matter how cruel

A bright spark in their eyes

A light that never dies

A wonderful dream that never lies

A reason to get up and rise

A star in their hearts to answer their wishes

A burning desire inside their chests

A cheery pe...

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To feel the love you never received;

To feel the affection that was given through grating words that come behind a “Im doing this because i care”,

To feel the sorry’s that were ‘paid’ to me, the gifts I had received to understand how ‘sorry’ you were after harming me, physically or verbally and if not, mentally.

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Darkness shrouds the train

Blue flashes flicker in the rain

Alone with strangers left to hide

As a man lies down on the line

Time stands still when death enters

The breath becomes hard to centre

My luck at catching the last train

Becomes silence in the rain

Everyone is on the line

Phones in hand, not the time

Words turn inwards

Soiled and sinful 

...

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Trapped in this 
claustrophobic body
as it ages
plummeting towards inevitability
all youthful thoughts 
of immortality thrown aside
by reality
where did life go
when did life go
a speeding train that makes me move more slowly 
the longer the journey takes
sometimes at a snail’s pace
towards a final stop where I get off 
and out 
and gone
forever

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The sky felt dense,

The mood it gave off,

Like moths in hue,

And butterflies in pale,

The showering of haze,

Over us at ease,

It’s not seen,

And there I won’t be seen,

The morning routine,

Of the everlasting gloom,

The day stuck in reprises,

And another one it seems,

It flies by scoring petrified faces,

Clipping by the nests,

It sta...

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Tired of being here

Stuck in a frozen

Time.

Tired of waiting

For a voice

That is impossible

To hear.

Time

Is like a curse

It is an ice

On my left shoulder

It is a melting alibi

Makes me say good-bye

To the little hope

Beating in my chest

Tired of asking

The questions

With no responses

Tired of seeking

The light.

Time

Turns every corner

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I

i'll be honest,
I refuse to love you. 
my chest sits in knots 
even in this revelation
the would-be butterflies remain trampled
and God knows they fly all around him
im not sure they even had the chance
to cocoon, your slime-gripped words
of small flames devoured their bloom.
No. Yes. No, im not bitter. Im selfish. 
I'm greedy with want, a desire-is-me factory of production
I hold ...

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Dear Universe,

Why did you give me a flower so beautiful,

then make me watch its petals fall?

Why did you gift me a single seedling,

but forbid me from watering it?

Why did you lead me to the purest of water,

yet poison it with your toxins?

You chuckle to youself

as I try to overcome it,

overpower it,

out determine it,

all the while knowing

deep within the ...

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I am what’s wrong with me.. 

Not the people around me.

Not my love life.

Not what I have or don’t have. 

It’s solely me.

I feel empty, like a dry river screaming and crying for some rain..

Only thing is at least the River knows what it is that it wants or need so bad. 

At least the River has a reason to shout.

Whats my reason ? 

I feel like screaming.

I feel like...

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Browsing

I think I need a jacket
It's getting very cold
I'll have a look online
It's very easy, so I'm told

I'm not sure that I like it
It feels like it's quite forced
As I swipe through all the options
But there's some I like of course

The first one was suitable,
The pockets just too shallow,
Number three felt like a winner,
Better suited to another fellow

I sometimes sit and...

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My reflection through the glass just makes me walk pass,

No matter what I see it will never be worthy to me.

I can't stand the sight that makes my stomach tight,

I bite my lips and my eyes are teared up bright.

I fear that I no longer want to be here.

Why should I? When all I ever do is give up and sigh.

So please light, take me up high,

Up above the sky to a place w...

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And why are you still in my head? 

In my chest,

In my soul?

Engulfed by disdain, disgust and love.

And I am so lone.

In the middle of Oxford Street crowds

I want your advice that never helped

I want your forehead kisses that I rejected.

Longing for you on dark silent nights.

To debate: am I ever truly alone?

Or does your phantomlike presence ignite and guide...

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The phantom of the past is a memory of the day that were loat in flame of understanding an love an grief 

the phantom of the past is a shadow the haunt you from the memory you never let go of 

the phantom of the past is a poison of the few an many thing that are hard to swallow 

the phantom of the past is a keeper of learning through the ashe of mistake an power of it hold you to 

the ...

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You're a steady stream of bad choices waiting to happen.

The eye of the storm, or the calm before it?
What's the difference?
It's going to ruin you anyway.
You're a constant trickle of water, wanting to make noise but too scared to do it.
Because you're a puppet controlled by strings.
Water controlled by the trap.

I wish my life was like a game show where you press the buzzer and you're...

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Seeing the shadow in vision
Getting feared of what the great poison
Hiding out back to the scratch
Tired of being what they're interpreted 
To be looked up in the sun
To be puked in deep water run
To be lost in relief distance
I was fight, 
But no lights were made
So where is is heading through wind? 
Passing it off to be betrayed and seen
That soak tree's been relied on
As this volt i...

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She spoke such pretty little lies
That hypnotized 
Oneself to bend at will
Slowly became to wilt
Like a rose without water
The beauty of red
Began to shed
Into a shattered brown
Cut down 
Till there was nothing left
But a dead rose
And it's thorns.

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I saw the scars on your arm
And wondered
The story
If you needed somebody
Felt lonely?
Like nobody cared
I'd still be there
If you'd let me
Because there's a story
And I'd listen
To the words you speak
The sarcastic remarks
Tongue in cheek
The sadness behind the eyes
A friendship compromised
Something behind the silence
Word's never spoken
Connection's are hard to find
I tend to ...

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As I stare out this window

down to the little people of the world 

I wonder and wish 

what if i was the beautiful tall girl with the blonde curls?

can I see into her soul?

by staring out this tear streaked window?

can I have her life?

and trade her these frightening memories that float around in limbo...    

shes so radiant and thin

Everything that I am sadly not

she ...

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it’s mostly sadness overall 

though every time i turn that corner, i think of her smile.

                        i only have words for her 

though i cannot speak them so she will hear, i wish i would have said them. 

                                i love you. 

and the dirt couldn’t say it back, so silence is my gift from her. silence, and the way i still th...

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There have been numerous occasions where I'd have to close my eyes to stop from crying 

Watery; blurry; black 

Nights without you are sleepless 

But I'm pretty sure you can sleep just fine 

Even if you prefer another next to you, it's not that you prefer me

I could count the stars all night, but I'd still never sleep

And maybe I'd always blame insomnia for being the lack of ...

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Broken

It’s a weird feeling. 

Hating yourself.  

Always. 

I try so hard to put on a show

Always

To all of my friends

And my family 

I need to be strong.

I don't want pity 

I don't want to be a charity case

I’ve always been the person people come to for advice 

And I’ve always been there for all my friends 

And goddammit, I wish they were there for me 

I me...

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It was 1990 when we met,

before we were who we were.

The nineties were running through sprinklers

in summer,

playing whiffle ball in the yard,

popsicles,

make-believe games, stick horses,

and dances to Green Day.

The 2000s were much the same,

with crushes, dear diaries,

womanhood, and makeup

sprinkled about like the dandelion seeds

we used to blow into...

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I have forgotten the feeling of what normality means.

I float around within a numbness submerged within a dream.

I see the world pass faster every single day.

I see my end come closer, I see the future become shorter;

 I can’t help but slaughter the time as I begin the decay.

It’s hard to find blame, but it’s a rationale thought to try and understand how this happened.

The worse ...

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I’m disappointed and surprised
you turned the block and hit my eyes
ugh, the first snow in New York
it’s barely fall and now I’m cold
I wanted you gone so I wouldn’t fold

through the panic I bundle up
I’ve got to focus or we’ll be stuck
I can’t believe it’s fucking you
gliding towards me heart beats steadily
dangling hair, your own kind of weaponry

if you come any closer
soon we’ll ...

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I am not free

but tense and unwavering

I am not heard

but roused and spoken for

I am not seen

but misguided and reassured 

I am not understood 

but manipulated and suppressed

I am not felt 

but raped and ashamed

I am not yours

but degraded and sold

I am not inanimate 

but painted and wound up

I am not free, how could I ev...

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I hate pretending

a way of fending 

off others mending

from themselves

another good thing

lost like a shoe string

problems I do bring

lack purpose 

show yourself to me 

paint it heavenly 

it ends tragically

I’m confused

because you were here

I filled you with fear

now you’ve disappeared

it’s my fault

I live with a space

like a buffer place

beca...

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I think it’s finally my time

I’m fading to the back of the line

there’s not much left inside my mind

just sit still and watch me go

As far as I can’t think 

I’m damaged, my kinks

try to fix them, I won’t stop you

do what you want, I’m lost without you

I thought you’d make me feel better

now I ache and it’s not the weather 

you said that feeling was beneficia...

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do we subsist together 

I feel so far away

born between sowed leaves

my own land and sea

different enough to feel lost

similar enough to connect

individuals so complex

experience, goals, struggles

crystal clear and opaque bubbles

it seems impossible 

how we manage

simultaneously in tandem

when in orbit, will we meet

you see me and I, you

I touch you and yo...

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Me, where is she

squeeze my skin, the flesh

it’s not me

I love me

the love I have lives deep

it’s far, so far beneath my cheeks

I wish I could hug me

to make myself believe

that with a finger touch it’s me

so then I’d see

that I am not this temporary body

and what I am is free

but Earth demands an anchor, you see

unfortunately for me

because it becomes all...

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I come to at half past three
in the middle of the night
and these images won't erase
I'm haunted by the tape
once it is light
your hands disappear
my brain is mine
and my limbs come crawling back
but the tape keeps playing
I know there's no escape
because night always falls
then I fall into you
and my mind leaves me
with no thoughts left to think
I make my way
the void is frictionle...

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All that I can do

Is sit slack jawed 

 And picture you,

A vision of kindness

Nurturing us with

 Clay soaked hands

I lost a constant reference,

A personification of grace

 When I lost you 

Now a hazy memory

I can only

Strive to complete and                                  become

From clouded dreams

Of watching you be.

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Two Separated Stars 
- Reinmari 

Sunlight clasps the earth 
Moonbeams kiss the sea
I've watched as the sun kills itself 
To let the moon breathe

I've always known the story
Of mountain, river and ocean.
Mountains mingle with the river
And rivers with the ocean

But as long as.. 

Pale stars still shine above
Falling leaves are still dancing
Cupid and Psyche are still inlove
Los...

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{Incompetent?}

It’s not funny when

someone says you are

incompetent making

you feel useless and

pathetic because of a

massive debilitating

illness and disease

making that person

weak and infirm like

they shouldn’t even be

in existence in this evil

corrupted world 

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{Once}

Once I held his love

and affections so

deeply embedded

into my heart so it

would never apart 

Until the day my brown

eyed rough tough with

the heart of perfection

left my side when an

horrible accident

happened that's when

my heart was ripped

straight out of my chest

leaving a gaping hole

there where his love

once remained at 

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{When You've Took Away All My Will Power}

When you've took away

all of my will power as a 

human being and as a

woman as well I have 

lost my dignity I feel 

ashamed of myself

constantly I feel like that

I have to hide my real

self and I have to hide

my face and my body

from everyone because

I might not meet their

standards and that you

migh...

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{I'll Bet You'll Start Loving Me?}

One day I'll bet you'll 

start loving me when I

start loving someone 

else which isn't you 

But you had that

chance but you chose

someone else to love

besides me 

One day I'll bet you'll 

start  loving me when 

you see I am better

without you 

But you chose her

and not me 

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(He Plays Cat And Mouse Games) 

​​​​​​As he chases me and many 

more women because

he likes to play 

little cat and mouse game's with me 

but I am tired of running away 

from him and now 

you have all the other women that you are chasing

Because I am gone 

And we will not

have no more

playing cat and

mouse game's

for me...

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #43} {My Sleeping ? Angel Lily} 

My

sleeping

angel

{Lily}

as her

eyes

became

to

heavy

to hold

open

any

longer

because

she

heard

Jesus

calling

her

home so

she

cried

and

gasped

for air

and then

she was

gone and

now my

life

isn't 

never

gonna be

the s...

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #42} {Dear Brother} 

Dear Brother,

Yet another

holiday season

is upon us

`n` it still

seems like

the very 

first one

without you

by my side to

open up gift's

`n` then go

outside to

make a snowman

in the white 

wintery snowy 

weather`n` then

come back in

out of the cold

weather to warm

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Been turning myself to blue and green,

Trapping and locking myself in this fucking cage

Again

And I can't, I cannot, I will not

Let you in here.

Nothing more can rely on me.

And i will spend my days putting stoicism and serenity on pedestals,

And I will be hopeless and choked

And my heart will be lurching

And it passed right by me,

But I realise now that no hand is so...

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​​​​​​{Bad Luck With Love}

He was my love that cought my ? heart by the thing's he would say and show me but now he faded away like our love never meant anything to him 

But it did me for what it's worth now 

I miss the longing of his voice saying I love you

But now my bed is cold on one side as I lay alone tonight writing this hoping one day it might find it's...

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{Sister's By Blood But Distant By ? Heart} 

I miss my sister by blood she once was my sister not just the sister she's pretending to be today

{And I miss my blood sister} 

Because as children we laughed, cried, played and loved each other like only blood sister's could do 

{And I miss my blood sister}

But as we grew up got older...

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{The Pain} 

There is pain in my? heart that always hurts so deep that it never departs from my aching? heart 

And it's the pain of us being apart 

A bad pain of our two heart's being so broken and torn apart 

That never makes it's final departure 

©One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer/Tina Glover 12/01/2017 all rights reserved

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{Sadness Has Stolen My ? Heart}

My ? heart is hurting so much beyond any word's I can ink down 

And the pain is tearing up my? heart and soul up 

And someone please tell me how I can retrieve it 

Because now the life filled with sadness of a lost love has forever stolen my? heart away 

And as I'm still trying to revive it today ...

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{Don't Wait}

Don't wait until it's to late to tell someone how much you do love, miss them and how much you do care 

Because when they are gone no matter how loud you holler, yell, scream, shout and cry they won't be able to hear you anymore

Because it's to late because they are dead and gone 

©One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer/Tina Glover 12/...

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I try to be there by your side throughout the year’s but now the time has come for you to be by my side through this incurable illness I am dealing with but I’m left out in the cold waiting for you and maybe that will change before I’m dead

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{Tears In Her Eye's} 

The tears in eye troubled sad eyes that flowed down her trouble worrisome cheeks as he laid beside her fast asleep as she slowly laid her head down on the wet pillows that was underneath her head without him even hearing her cry so as she cried and wepted for him because even though he laid beside of her she felt like she was alone in their bed and like what did I do ...

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I hope you think of me every night in your dreams.

I hope you see me in everyone you date.

I hope you wish I would come back.

I hope you  see me and feel the pain I felt  while we were together.

I hope  you  hear my cries, feel my pain and see my tears.

I hope every time you close your eyes  you see me with him.

I want you to hate yourself for everything you’ve done to me

I wa...

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