Been turning myself to blue and green,
Trapping and locking myself in this fucking cage
And I can't, I cannot, I will not
Let you in here.
Nothing more can rely on me.
And i will spend my days putting stoicism and serenity on pedestals,
And I will be hopeless and choked
And my heart will be lurching
And it passed right by me,
But I realise now that no hand is solid enough to hold on to
And i discredited everyone I knew who was wilfully present.
Between my perceptions and my shackling
To the harsh and cold and unemotional truth,
and it leaves me reeling in the void between.