Been turning myself to blue and green,

Trapping and locking myself in this fucking cage

Again

And I can't, I cannot, I will not

Let you in here.

Nothing more can rely on me.

And i will spend my days putting stoicism and serenity on pedestals,

And I will be hopeless and choked

And my heart will be lurching

And it passed right by me,

But I realise now that no hand is solid enough to hold on to

And i discredited everyone I knew who was wilfully present.

Such separation

Between my perceptions and my shackling

To the harsh and cold and unemotional truth,

and it leaves me reeling in the void between.