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Recovery
I feel a little more me today
The crying spell has passed
With each hour, ticking by softly, my lungs awaken
I breathe easier now
I enjoyed my morning coffee
Sat by the steamy windows
Watching the sunrise slowly emerge from behind the dewy grass
Colour is returning to my cheeks
Repairing some part of the fragile soul I was two days ago
I dream
Ag...
Monday 18th November 2019 7:40 am
Soldiers In My Mind
I am at the pit of my breakdown
Saying goodbye to sleep I once loved
Food I could once eat without nausea
Dreams
That once allowed rest
Help me
I pray
Sitting on the floor sobbing
Do I allow this pain to make me human
Or wish it away?
I bring these matters to You
I cannot do it alone
I’m still processing
Picking out the safest part...
Saturday 16th November 2019 10:20 pm
Nurture
There is a pit inside of me
A deep, dark abyss where the negative thoughts grow
“I will fail”
“I cannot do this”
That is why
When I look at you, there is pain behind my eyes
Bleeding onto my cheeks
Staining all that surrounds me
This bubble of safety
Does not always contain it
This is what high functioning looks like
From afar, it is well co...
Tuesday 12th November 2019 8:57 pm
As The Sun Rises
I lay on a hard mattress curled in the foetal position,
wrapped in a chrysalis of darkness.
A fancy metaphor could not explain the meaning of life,
it had simply become irrelevant.
I had become so skinny that my skin was pulled
guitar string taut over aching bones,
that doctors had threatened to hospitalise me.
But now, allergic to life, my skin peeled at the thought of being.
...Monday 30th September 2019 12:18 pm
Where’s me head? [Where is my head?]
Where’s me head? [Where is my head?]
Where’s me head? … It’s in the sand
Its life has gotten out of hand
Things very rarely go as planned
If I do or I don’t, I end up damned
Where’s me head? … It’s way out west
It’s tired of people who know best
It needs a break, it needs a rest
It needs to get shit off its chest
Where’s me head? … It’s lost the plot
It...
Thursday 12th September 2019 3:04 am
Unmasked - a snippet from Buzzin Bards Anthology
The following piece is a snippet from Buzzin Bards Manchester Poetry Anthology, submissions are still open at: https://www.localgemspoetrypress.com/buzzin-bards-poetry-anthology.html
While you’re too busy being two-faced
I’ve got one face with many layers.
Take me at face value, or take a detour,
reforged, like Ant Man upon my deep pores.
Tryna get 1UP, that’s a weak score...
Friday 2nd August 2019 11:47 am
Gas Light
Be kind... I am still getting used to writing after my stroke. It’s so hard but a friend’s experience prompted this one . Assisted technology sounds bizarre reading back such a sensitive topic. I hope it still works as a poem.
Gas light
It’s not a street light.
It’s so hard to see.
So unaware,
It frightens me.
I’m not worth it.
Am I to blame?
Is it my f...
Monday 24th June 2019 3:12 pm
Dear Diary
Lonely,but never alone , courtesy, of these voices,
Drowning out , my natural thought process,
affecting, how I make choice's.
Controling my mind, totaly possessed,
Punishing me for what? Disturbing my rest.
In fact I'm so controlled ,that all my life I've been unaware,
Didn't know ,any different, assumed they were suppose to be there.
Intrusive in voluntary thoughts
no filters in my...
Sunday 23rd June 2019 12:39 am
Dark to light
I come from a dark place
Naturally
The land of no return some may call it
Making my way back up to the surface
After living in my head for
I pay homage to the fall and winter
Because it brings me closer to myself
Yet I am starting to notice how much I have been ignoring the light
How does the spring and summer affect me?
Besides being hot and feeling like I want t...
Saturday 22nd June 2019 6:03 pm
I come from a dark place
Naturally
The land of no return some may call it
Making my way back up to the surface
After living in my head for
I pay homage to the fall and winter
Because it brings me closer to myself
Yet I am starting to notice how much I have been ignoring the light
How does the spring and summer affect me?
Besides being hot and feeling like I want t...
Saturday 22nd June 2019 6:02 pm
Seeing Things
What is the scale of reality?
We all have our own truths
Our own views
How do you quantify actuality?
“A fantasy is a vision
It is solely in your vision
It is envisioned by you
A vision is a fantasy”
But saints had visions!
Politicians have visions!
Some people have double vision
Anyone that has sight has vision
Whether they have a sixth sense
Or no...
Wednesday 19th June 2019 1:28 pm
Grey clouds
The numb thump of my heart beating against my rib cadge,
Unknown pain of sadness always giving me rage.
Desperately grasping at the last memories that I had with you,
Tears roll down my face when I find thats an issue.
The blood in my veins is so hard to contain,
The thoughts of death flood through to my brain.
Hard to fight past the devil inside of me,
I promise my na...
Thursday 13th June 2019 7:12 pm
The Mother To All
She’s a bright star, within the unlit night
Guiding others through, the tough thing, that we call life
Her strength is beyond admirable to all
And even if she should ever fall
She would somehow, pull though
The things, that to others, it would inevitably un-do
Her beauty and grace, isn’t just a way to save face
She's had to fight great wars, every single day
Even wh...
Wednesday 15th May 2019 7:23 pm
Perfectly Perfect
Nothing.
Till I woke up
then you spoke up
screamingng in my head.
Losing that weight again
with words of encouragement
ignoring the ills of my mind
pushing me back to when "You looked so much better".
Look inside.
Whiplash.
Punches.
Ugly words.
Oh no sorry.
You don't want to know
you just want to see
Perfection.
Smile.
Laugh.
...Friday 3rd May 2019 4:05 am
This Rhyme Upsets the Rhymer – Understanding Bipolar Disorder
This Rhyme Upsets the Rhymer – Understanding Bipolar Disorder
Preamble
Robin Williams was bipolar. Bipolars oscillate from extreme highs (mania) to extreme lows (depression). One can give you great creative power (mania), the other can kill (depression). Robin Williams displayed the typical symptoms of mania – rapid speech, racing thoughts.(see youtube clip) He suicided in a cycle of b...
Friday 15th March 2019 6:48 am
Empathetic Daydreamer
Do you ever wonder?
Do you ever wonder what it's like to hear nothing but the sound of your own heart beat?
To see nothing but the world
And feel the grass under your feet
Do you ever wonder what it's like
To walk around with your head held high
Feeling nothing but happiness
Fearing nothing and no one just looking to the sky
Do you ever wonder how lucky you are to bre...
Tuesday 19th February 2019 10:20 am
The Stigma
On my fathers side,
They ignored the elephant
On the living room couch
And called it toughness.
This was how they turned
Whisky
Percocet
Wife and kids
Into therapy.
This was how my cousin
Turned a belt into a noose
In his closet.
This was how they called
my aunt the "bitter black woman"
stereotype and how they saw
her charge to dim
...Tuesday 12th February 2019 5:01 pm
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