Now that I am faced with this trial of the moment, let me pause.
Reflect on previous trials.
The race forward is not about the hurdles already jumped,
It is about the confidence and skill at jumping acquired.
Now that I am faced with this impossibly high wall, let me think.
Remember previous walls.
The difficulty of scaling any height or distance can be shrunk;
It is ever as simple as...
Tuesday 1st December 2020 1:14 pm
Give me grace as a tree…
Give me power as the leaf…
And the friendship of the grass
If I fall.
I wouldn’t mind if I
Had the freedom of the sky,
And the warmth of the sunlight
On the earth.
Give me a song as the sea…
Play me music like the breeze…
And the comfort of the silence
Of the night.
I will not mind at all.
I will be one part of it all.
And rejoice at the splendour
Of the ...
Friday 27th November 2020 4:18 pm
I can feel you,
thick in my throat,
threatening to consume me,
slithering through my mind and body,
wielding your alpha power,
making me weak.
I curse you, drown you,
in sunshine and sweet elixirs,
but you refuse to leave.
I am stronger than you think.
I order you and your invisible army
of pain, heartbreak, misery,
away from my cosmic energy.
I did not manifest you.
Wednesday 25th November 2020 4:28 pm
What is this dark energy
cloaking the universe
threatening to consume me,
wrap me in a weighted blanket
of silent abyss.
Some days I’m tempted
to dive into the black hole,
see what all the fuss is about,
but I know if I do, I will take
a generation or two of
fragile minds with me.
Weakness is not my legacy.
I have to stay strong,
be my family’s guiding li...
Tuesday 27th October 2020 4:39 am
The hard part about all this is that you already found new love
You decided she was better than me that she is enough
The words you said, "to infinity and beyond" we're all a lie and you left me when all I ever wanted was compassion,understanding, and love
But the day you walked out, I learned the truth about life.
I learned that the only person that could make me strong was God
Friday 21st August 2020 4:11 pm
Friday 21st August 2020 1:19 pm
clouds my view
at a quarter til two.
I don’t understand why
my muse avoids me like the flu,
when a simple poem or song will do.
Wise words to help me understand
why true love passed me by
in this lifetime.
Why wrong choices,
that felt right at the time,
left me alone in this abyss
where my better self
silently bears witness
to my shr...
Friday 14th August 2020 5:56 am
Running through my head
Rumbles getting louder
Scared things might be said
Hide away in a closet
Because the sound is so loud
Hide from the truth
Because the truths not allowed
Thunderbolts they are striking
Flashbacks of a lad
A childhood in silence
Adolescence was sad
But storms they get stronger
They gain strength with time
The rain is now pouring
I’ve a hurricane m...
Wednesday 12th August 2020 9:04 pm
If you and me
Are meant to be
We’ll make it to the top
Cuz way up there
In clearer air
We can reflect on what we’ve got
But the path we climb ain’t easy
There are things that stand in our way
Believe in what we’re achieving
And we’ll reach the top someday
We’re on our way
This is our mountain, this our journey
No-one knows the end
Reach for the summit, on the horizon
When life s...
Monday 27th July 2020 3:31 am
As I hold my head in shame
I caused the doubt
I am to blame
If I promise not to cry
Will we get by
I always try
But feelings don't come easy
When I've kept them all inside
From the moment we start talking
When I’ve got nowhere to hide
Will we survive
We are stronger when we’re together
Weaker when we’re apart
I promise to be faithful
I’ll give you all my heart
With you I thrive
Sunday 26th July 2020 2:34 pm
Demons are coming
Engrossed with my brain
Their taking control
Am I going insane
They try to take over
The thoughts in my head
But I won’t let them get me
I’ll get them instead
Fighting with demons
Keep those demon’s at bay
Caged in a corner
Keep those demons away
When panic takes over
Those demons are close
They’re reaching and beating
They fill me with doubt
But stood in the dist...
Saturday 25th July 2020 11:54 pm
The fight of my life
Saving a marriage
But hurting a wife
It feels like a dream
I should never have been
Keeping a secret
Locked up deep inside
Now nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
I should of kept quite, not swallowed my pride
But how could I live
With the secrets and lies
A heart that is bruised
Friday 24th July 2020 12:34 pm
In the moonlit dreamtime as the
Warblers rest and stars kiss the midnight sky
I want to die
As the sun rises flirting seductively with
The horizon and cotton candy clouds
Tiptoe across the dawn
I want to die
In nameless parties with empty faces
And monsters growing with every sip of
Poison they ingest
I want to die
Thursday 16th July 2020 4:15 pm
I accept that they may feel lonely
The constant reminder from the media that they are isolated
Alone in their puddle of thoughts
Suddenly drowning in their echoes of silence
Against all odds I am managing just fine
A stream of thoughts flowing all day
Nothing to block my mind from floating away
Not today, anyway
My thoughts are not all positive
I am unbalanced ...
Sunday 5th April 2020 7:52 pm
For many years I walked in shame
With my head bowed down not looking anyone in the eyes
Shame for not being good enough
Shame for not being wanted nor loved
I sat in darkness wondering if I would ever be able to find light
Sat there wondering, if I would ever be worthy or enough
Then a voice whispered in my ear, " I am here."
The voice got louder and yelled, " I am here."
Tuesday 25th February 2020 5:46 pm
Perspective is a dangerous thing
It tears the world apart.
Though it causes terrible pain
There is wisdom to impart.
Do not assume your fellows see the candle as you do
Remember flames look differently to the both of you.
She sees the flame as hell on earth
with fear of fire that kills.
He sees the fire as lust and desire
sees the flame as fun and thrills.
Monday 24th February 2020 6:18 pm
I have learned that I am African that I have African blood
I have African brothers that protect me and will not let me fall
I've learned about the atrocities that slaves went through
I've walked through the dungeons and smelled and seen the horrors that slaves experienced
I stood in the female dungeon and heard the cries for help and felt the fear that these women went through
Friday 21st February 2020 6:14 pm
It is hard having faith
When you feel so much pain
It is hard to obey when you feel so betrayed
It is hard to smile and put on your pretty face
When your whole world has seems to have crumbled
But then that voice comes back to you and says , "Look how far you've come, look how strong you are!"
The voice tells you everything is going to be just fine
You breathe, close your eyes...
Thursday 13th February 2020 6:03 pm
It's been a hard day
Smiling pretending everything is fine
If I pretend it feels better
If I do it enough it hurts less
I haven't texted you all day
I haven't ran to you
I keep telling myself I don't need you anymore
I keep telling myself I don't love you
But a voice in my head keeps saying, " Be patient, be kind, show yourself self-love."
Then I look at my arm the word ...
Thursday 30th January 2020 5:14 pm
I made a decision that was hard
To let you go
To let you fly
God told me don’t worry she’ll be fine
God told me ,“ Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I cried and yelled and couldn’t accept it
His voice was clearer his voice was loud
He said one more time, “Love is patience. Love is kind.”
I finally understood I needed to stop being selfish
Wednesday 29th January 2020 11:35 am
The words you said made me realize it's all done
I cried, yelled, and wallowed in self pity
Then I showered
Did my hair
Put on clothes and said , "That is it girl get it together!"
I said, " That is it girl look at that mirror!"
You are BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, and SMART
I said , "I love me!"
"I love me!"
Tuesday 28th January 2020 9:47 pm