As months chased after years, your waiting neared the full ten-year mark.
Have you ever prayed long into the night, only to weep when your prayers go unanswered?
Has the inability to reap the material and spiritual rewards of your efforts ever weighed like a stone in your chest?
Sometimes, a person feels unbearably heavy, as if tons of burdens rest upon their shoulders—
the weight of injustice...

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Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me

When the bullet's fired
You see the blood
I see that blame

Would you fight back
If the war was within you?
And I lost again

Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me

I don't want
A bed of roses
I just want one that'd never die

And I don't want
The world to lose it
Just not to ...

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A name and a face, 

You had none but still a presence;

Lost in the sea of self justification but still alive, or breathing to say the least.

When the wrong and the right doesn't matter anymore

And when the strong and the weak both lost

I realised the wrongs and the loss and a loss and another one.

A new scar with tick of the clock

Appeared and disappeared but the pai...

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If I could see myself from another star
Would everything seem alright?
Secrets I've never kept before
And now they're buried deep inside my heart

Why?
When I sit amongst the other stars
I feel like I'm in a nightmare?
In my room all alone?
Surrounded by clones who doesn't even know how to pretend to like me

Can I control the darkness that's killing me with every breath?
You've told m...

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The light from behind hid the flaws in the lines
And the smiles that came looked too much like mine

Don't trust and you won't be betrayed
Don't hope and you won't cry when it's late

But you won't see that far with eyes struck on the ground
Who you saw that day wasn't who I found

Where the sight begins is where the story ends
And where the good side dies is where you find heaven

Who...

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My mahogany desk and the bright world beyond,
I reached out my hand for someone to hold on;
Nothing much happened.

And now I'm feeling so alone...
I just wanna go back home.

You don't deserve to die and I don't deserve to decide what you want.
I got a thousand more days to live and the number doesn't decrease no matter how much I count

But now I'm feeling so alone...
I just wanna go ...

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That pain in your chest when your crying at night tears pure white 

Show me the pain and insecurities you continue to shoulder 

So i can come in like the rude friend that doesnt ask to come over 

Knock shit over

Running in the dark until I fall off the worlds edge whose missing me anyway

I think about that everyday falling asleep waking up still in darkness 

Trying to harness 

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As dark as the night

This is how their eyes look like.

They told me once

Sad eyes are coal black.

From crime to punishment

They got used to travelling

Hand in hand with the act of crying.

As deep as the sea

This is how they look at the pain.

Just like the drops of the rain

This is how they shed tears

Behind the bars.

No need to use fancy words

To tell the sto...

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The heart purity is a mind of understanding an wisdom nit in anger but in love an truth 

The life of men are sometimes jugde for emotional weakness but the strength us in the emotion we feel 

The body of the soul is like water that asorb the memory of the life we live 

The fear of it an not knowing are the understandable of other is the  greatest fear of men 

The fear of many is the ab...

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I hate the question where do you see yourself in 10 years

To be frank some days I don’t see myself being here

Weather I am the one to pull the trigger

Or a spare of the moment accident

is the one to cause me to take my final breath

I believe in my final breathes I could peace within myself

But there are some days

where I just want to say that only happiness will be in my life

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Tell me where you'll go with all your burns,
reserve smile whispering the truth,
vanishing without a trail every time as she turns,
old age burdain and transient youth.

Blue as neverending sea,
light and blue
all I ever needed,
all I've never proved,
all I ever needed,
light and blue,
blue as neverending sea.

Don't tell me why have you returned with all your burns,
visible frown as...

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Lemme collect these shambles, ones scattered in the name of cards ungambled.

Battles that left me rattled. Pieces that never fell together.

 Realisations gone to tatters. Memories forgotten, altogether.

These pieces of armor unfused forever.
 Energies wasted in mindless splendor, with ideals crafted in inks without matter.  

These caricatures of youth, wasted in canvas of unwritten ...

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Seeing the shadow in vision
Getting feared of what the great poison
Hiding out back to the scratch
Tired of being what they're interpreted 
To be looked up in the sun
To be puked in deep water run
To be lost in relief distance
I was fight, 
But no lights were made
So where is is heading through wind? 
Passing it off to be betrayed and seen
That soak tree's been relied on
As this volt i...

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To some degree 
we all enjoy a little mystery
Developing a sense of curiosity 
The whole "what could be"
But sadly 
That's not reality
Creating our own world
Regardless of incompatability 
Tunnel vision ensued
Rose colored glasses
In full bloom
Despite the apparent 
You created confinement 
Within your own lie.

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Numb. 

Dry and numb. 

Grief cannot be duplicated, though it can be felt, again and again. 

We’ll just go to sleep and never cry again. so it shall be dreamed, not wept. 

It will fade, but right now, we sleep. 

Numb and dry. 

Numb.

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Is there something wrong with you?

Here we are again, back at square fucking one.

All because poor little cameron can’t seem to control his feelings.

Pathetic.

Do you have a few loose screws?

You literally choose to love people who just don’t care.

And when you cry at night, does it feel good?

Relapse, do you think you should?

Because as far as I can tell,

You’re going t...

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The sights of ourselves still shape us to divide,
immediate response to the craves and madness,
we feel the way we feel but tonight it's you inside,
burried in the senses out of the lightness.

And days are still days but the trouble collides,
for all the reasons we chose not to revile,
and all our fears, childlish alike,
echoing through our minds, rejecting denial.

Stay where you are a...

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And tides are still the same as they were,
fluid numbers, one piece in folded milions,
telling us why we all need to reach the bottom,
embracing drops of broken brilliance.

Wait until it all comes down,
your whispers rest in front of the broken Avalon,
inside our shell is something we all found,
blue-red pictures reflected by the dawn.

And tides are still the same as they were,
connec...

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Wish you were here,
to break down all the differences,
to shake down all the borders,
to melt down all the distance,
to connect all the figures
in the right place.
What else could, what else could confront us?
In the same way we breath,
in the same way we cry,
wish you were here,
tonight when the whole world is empty
and there is no one left to die.

Wish you were here,
to create all...

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It was 1990 when we met,

before we were who we were.

The nineties were running through sprinklers

in summer,

playing whiffle ball in the yard,

popsicles,

make-believe games, stick horses,

and dances to Green Day.

The 2000s were much the same,

with crushes, dear diaries,

womanhood, and makeup

sprinkled about like the dandelion seeds

we used to blow into...

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Baltimore.
Burned out, hidden from the crowds inside of stranger's minds,
there are things to be found
in a time after time...after time.
But look,
not always you can read the last memories
inside of the universe book,
you always share what it takes
but now it gets more than you took.
No, stranger!
Nothing left to be undermined,
simple, eternal, contagious,
chasing ashes from those emp...

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Someday we'll find a way to
protect our dreams and seek our hopes, 
words - soft as July's razors
disappearing path, forbiden trace,
screaming loud, carving into stones - deliverance, replace -
''true love hurries but it always waits'',
never...in the same place. 

Someday we'll find a way to
fly away and disappear,
going higher as we never did before,
staring at the same old mindless m...

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Speak louder so they can't hear the silence instead,
turmoils and echos around my rigorous head,
keeping all the truths that we want to destroy
but we ought to protect,
see... I am nothing but a builder
but tonight I dreamt I was
an architect.

Momentum holds and it wouldn't rest,
dissolved in same old liquid mess,
vibrating body around its perfect chest
somehow.. still trying to discon...

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toxic train track

metal waste raindrop

incarcerated too long too late

no reply.

faintly.

Risk until one always.

Any ways. Anyways.

fastforward. Visual rewind

incongruity. Incongruous.

Inferior absolutes. Taste

lingering remnant after

gauzy impossibility.

Ending. Search mystified.

Final helping of emptiness

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false start.

Draw too deep breath.

Linger too long.

take back   break

   neck  speed  one

 two  don’t   stop ask

 once    no twice

Forget.  

    Slowly.

Forego solid food.

Count to ten.

  hold on   elastic pill

     tight  stretch

     release      sharp no time

fixing not broken not ever

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Two Separated Stars 
- Reinmari 

Sunlight clasps the earth 
Moonbeams kiss the sea
I've watched as the sun kills itself 
To let the moon breathe

I've always known the story
Of mountain, river and ocean.
Mountains mingle with the river
And rivers with the ocean

But as long as.. 

Pale stars still shine above
Falling leaves are still dancing
Cupid and Psyche are still inlove
Los...

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{Incompetent?}

It’s not funny when

someone says you are

incompetent making

you feel useless and

pathetic because of a

massive debilitating

illness and disease

making that person

weak and infirm like

they shouldn’t even be

in existence in this evil

corrupted world 

©Tina Glover\One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer November 14,2017...

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{Nothing Last Forever}

As nothing last

forever and we

need time on our

own to find our

way out there

and through this

cold blue november

rain that keeps

blowing this pain in

and out of our lives

and don't you

dare look into my

eyes because you

will still see

there's love inside

of them burning

for you still but

we both are so

mes...

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One cold winters day,

In a place not too far away.

A friend is living a lie,

forever telling me she wishes to die.

She lives in pure hell,

Although nobody is able to tell.

She says she is "done"

Although she has sure fooled everyone.

Although she cannot fool me.

I've had the luxury to listen and see.

Things started looking better.

A few weeks go by and she recieves...

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{Once}

Once I held his love

and affections so

deeply embedded

into my heart so it

would never apart 

Until the day my brown

eyed rough tough with

the heart of perfection

left my side when an

horrible accident

happened that's when

my heart was ripped

straight out of my chest

leaving a gaping hole

there where his love

once remained at 

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{When You've Took Away All My Will Power}

When you've took away

all of my will power as a 

human being and as a

woman as well I have 

lost my dignity I feel 

ashamed of myself

constantly I feel like that

I have to hide my real

self and I have to hide

my face and my body

from everyone because

I might not meet their

standards and that you

migh...

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{I'll Bet You'll Start Loving Me?}

One day I'll bet you'll 

start loving me when I

start loving someone 

else which isn't you 

But you had that

chance but you chose

someone else to love

besides me 

One day I'll bet you'll 

start  loving me when 

you see I am better

without you 

But you chose her

and not me 

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{Don't Cry Over Me} 

Don't cry over me 

Don't feel sad for me 

Don't you think that

I didn't want

to stay but I 

couldn't because I 

had to go because

God needed me more 

Don't you think that  

I didn't Iove you

because I did 

and I always will

even from above now 

Don't cry over me 

Don't you forget that 

now I'm your angel

watching over you

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{Murderous Tears}

These murderous tears

follows down my cheeks 

wetting my shirt as I gently

wipe them away like the

way the did you by murdering

you in cold blooded murder

and it left me here like a

child that was orphaned 

to survive in these darkened

cold streets that the

blood stained asphalt

surrounds my feet 

But I cannot fathom 

how th...

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(He Plays Cat And Mouse Games) 

​​​​​​As he chases me and many 

more women because

he likes to play 

little cat and mouse game's with me 

but I am tired of running away 

from him and now 

you have all the other women that you are chasing

Because I am gone 

And we will not

have no more

playing cat and

mouse game's

for me...

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #43} {My Sleeping ? Angel Lily} 

My

sleeping

angel

{Lily}

as her

eyes

became

to

heavy

to hold

open

any

longer

because

she

heard

Jesus

calling

her

home so

she

cried

and

gasped

for air

and then

she was

gone and

now my

life

isn't 

never

gonna be

the s...

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #42} {Dear Brother} 

Dear Brother,

Yet another

holiday season

is upon us

`n` it still

seems like

the very 

first one

without you

by my side to

open up gift's

`n` then go

outside to

make a snowman

in the white 

wintery snowy 

weather`n` then

come back in

out of the cold

weather to warm

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #23} {Lucifer} 

Lucifer is rising

faster than the

heavenly father `n` 

his angel's cannot his

lustful, sinful hands

of Lucifer as he grabs

your soulless souls

to bring you down

to his level `n` to his

burning hellish throne

for that one mistake

that everyone has

made as we perish

`n` fade away into

the darkne...

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{Diary Of The Southern Queen Entry #18} {He Just Don't Realize That I Still Care} 

He treats me like

I never really even

existed to him even

when I did `n` now wish

I didn't exist to him

but in his reality I 

don't or never did but

I still do care though

`n` he doesn't care about

me or never really did 

because if he did he

would at...

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{Once Was His Queen} 

I was once your queen

You was once my king 

​​​​​​but now I am nothing not even a friend to you 

and now I cannot stand that you are still alive and breathing 

and you have moved on like I never was your queen or even your lover 

and I try to move on but I'm always hoping for us to make our ways back to each other but I know that will never happen ...

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{Drape The Flag Over My Casket} 

As I lost the war that I was facing but please deliver this message to my family and loved one's back in the states 

I am sorry that I couldn't make out of this nightmare but I'll always be flying with you only from heaven above now but I do miss you and love you all and please don't cry because this military woman is finally at peace and they ...

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{Time To Move On} 

It's time to move

on from everyone 

and everything in

my life 

It has been fun,

crazy, hurtful,

desirable, painful,

filled with more

? heart break

than I am willing

to keep suffering

with you or anyone

else on this planet 

But it was a

pleasure now

it's time to go

M.I.A.

{missing in action} 

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{Time} 

One day at a

time that

will ease my

weary troubled

mind 

And just maybe

it will ease all

my wonders

away one day 

And it's supposed

to get easier but

it will in all due

time but it still

remains the

same that you

are not here

with us 

And all the

crazy facial

expressions

you made

somet...

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{I Will Not Let You Beat Me Down} 

Darling I won't

let you beat me

down and it's

high time that

this cowgirl 

picks herself back

up off of the

ground and get

to moving on

down the long

lonesome road as

I kick the hell

out them blues

you have got me

going through

and now it's time

to forget all 

about you 

little

darling 

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{No Guarantees}

There's no guarantees

that you actually ever

loved me at all




And 




There's no guarantees

that you was even

worth my tears over

these year's 




And I'm not gonna cry

and I sure as hell ain't

gonna shed no more

tears for you since

you left me to be with

her and tore my world

apart while breaking and

wreckin...

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{My Forever Sleeping ? Angel Daughter Lily}

My forever sleeping angel daughter Lily as her eyes became to heavy to hold open any longer because she heard Jesus calling her home so she cried out one last time and took one big gasp of air into her tiny lungs and then she was gone and now me or her daddy's life isn't never gonna be the same because we don't have beautiful our little Lily...

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{She's Trying}

 

She's trying to forget: 
 

She's trying truly to

force herself to

forget about the

conversations

between them

She's trying so hard

to forget his voice 

She's trying to forget

how he made her laugh

even though she felt like

she's was dying on

the inside 

She's trying to forget

all the beautiful

romance...

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{The Awaited Love Of A Lifetime}

This shy girl awaited

for the love of her

lifetime to come a

long into her lonely

life that made this 

delicate ? rose

stays so closed off

to the outside world

around her and even

more so to men

because the way she

has been hurt before

so she closed the 

doors for finding her 

love of a lifetime and

she me...

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{She Misses Him Badly}

They shared something

so beautiful and something

so deep and true but that

was so truthful lustful love

affair ended to soon because

he didn't believe her so she

went on her way no matter

how much she cared or loved

him and so much she wanted

to stay but she knew that

they would only hurt each

other in the end and they

did bec...

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{He Was Gone With The Wind}

He was gone with the wind 

but when left with the wind he wrecked my ? heart like a nuclear war head exploding killing everything good that once existed inside of me  

but now I'm sitting here in this pain that is driving me to drink one more shot to try to forget about the wind that blew through my loving arms 

that hasn't returned or never will a...

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