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Rose-Tinted Vision
And in the beginning, I remember how your hand,
Had reached out to help me,
As you promised me that you would love me,
That you would care for me.
And those promises were not the only things broken,
When you used that same hand to hold me down, to use me, to hurt me;
And bruise my vunerability that I had given to you.
And you left my skin in a state that made my mum sob;
An...
Wednesday 30th March 2022 8:18 am
I'm cursed.
I'm cursed.
Imprisoned inside my own head.
Endless loops of excessive or inadequate.
The overwhelming depth of darkness poisons me;
And I'm consumed by voices that scream for release;
the intoxicating craving for peace.
Until I overdose on overthinking,
Yet so tortured by this terrifying emptiness,
That I am just too numb to fear that fear.
I am simply a shell of a girl ...
Tuesday 29th March 2022 5:19 pm
My own storm.
I'm sat at the cliff,
Black clouds hold threat over me;
Fog that smothers my vision;
Obscures my perceptions.
Deafened by the dark waves,
Crushing and punishing the soft clay.
My desperate screams mimicked and echoed;
By winds that wrap me up,
Trap me in this silent storm,
I'll squint through the shadows,
Search for the sun they all bathe in.
But my fingernails fil...
Tuesday 29th March 2022 5:10 pm
I'd smile
And I hate that when I find a lump under my skin,
How I hope that some stupid cells dividing too much,
Cause a fight that leaves me in a grave.
And how they'd still remember me a fighter as I smiled throughout the losing battle.
But I'm smiling because they will not blame me when I lose this one.
I've spent years apologising for things that I cannot control,
Because it is not can...
Tuesday 29th March 2022 4:58 pm
The Old Ball And Chain
I'm so sick of my spinning thoughts
Up and down and up and down and up and down and up and down
Ecstasy, melancholy, wistful wanderlust, crippling fear, I know no other method.
I want to love, I want to grow, but my body and mind are barely crawling forward, their muscles aching, their breath ragged.
There's only one constant that fills my being.
Exhausted. Exhausted. Exhausted.
Sunday 12th July 2020 5:58 am
Borderline
Borderline Personality Disorder is the most commonly diagnosed personality disorder
About 70% of people with BPD will make at least one suicide attempt in their lifetime. In addition, between 8 and 10 percent of people with BPD will complete suicide; this rate is more than 50 times the rate of suicide in the general population. (Taken from verywell.com)
People with BPD are commonly misdiagn...
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