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blood off my nails
carve the cloth off my skin,
wipe the polish off my nails,
scrape the itch off my flesh;
i can’t help it,
i won’t stand it again.
strawberry dressing on vanilla ice cream;
paint spilled over the notebook’s page
i feel the ink in my fingerprints,
it’s staining my hands.
i don’t know that i’ll ever get it out again
rip the skin off my bones,
pry my nails of...
Saturday 30th September 2023 3:46 pm
Hate mail to myself
I went to sleep last night
and prayed that I had tears back there to shed.
But there were none to be found.
I went to a party yesterday
and prayed for an opportunity to make some conversation.
But there was no thought in my mind,
I felt was worth sharing.
I’ve been back in school for a year now
and I prayed for dedication and success.
But there was no goal I co...
Sunday 29th May 2022 2:23 am
Skin Deep
On the surface, I look fine.
Swallowing emotion and putting on a face,
the fastest and most reliable reflex I have.
All you need to do is dig,
just a little bit,
to see that it’s all one big shell.
So why hasn’t anyone
figured it out yet?
Can I be more than this?
A hard shell,
with crumbling and rotting
scaffolding
holding it all together.
Stat...
Friday 20th May 2022 6:04 pm
Everything self; Beneath the surface
The trouble with learning to love yourself is this; All things positive "self" is more difficult to practice than the opposite our easily adopted negative self. Bad habits like self-doubt, self-hate,self-harm integrates into your life at such an alarming speed you wont even realize it until its too late, but then you do realize it. So begins a lifetime struggle to get rid of it. The process, unlik...
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